Ornate capital J “Jennie,” called a full, clear voice twice before there was any answer. At the second summons Jennie slowly opened the door, and saw Miss Lane waiting at the foot of the stairs. “Get your work-box, thimble, and scissors, and come down stairs. I want you and Lillie to make a knitting-bag before you begin the stockings.” “Yes, I will,” answered Jennie, glad that the first trouble, the meeting with her teacher, was over. Five, ten, fifteen minutes passed. Miss Lane was about to despatch a messenger for her, when the door opened, and a discontented, frowning face appeared. The work-box was dashed upon the sofa, and Jennie exclaimed angrily, There was a sob in her voice. Lillie’s color rose violently, while Rosie looked grieved and frightened. The former opened her lips to retort, but at a sign from Miss Lane, restrained herself. “Take your work-box and go up stairs, Jennie,” said Miss Lane, quietly. The young girl started in a sort of amazement, and looked into her teacher’s face. She had not the slightest intention of obeying her, and felt in a whirl of anger at being ordered about so like a child; but the clear, steady eye met hers unwaveringly, not the faintest tinge of color dyed the smooth cheek. There was power there not to be resisted—and before that quiet will she bowed. Only yesterday, everything had seemed so bright—only yesterday, Jennie had resolved to give herself to God entirely, had felt a waking up to work in His cause, and promised that at Easter she would be confirmed. But now, how fearfully she had failed! It was always so! she could not keep her resolutions, there was no use in trying—she knew it would never be any better. All her life long she would have that struggle about getting up in the morning, and she so disliked Presently a hand touched her cheek, and Miss Lane said: “Come, Jennie, get up; brush your hair, and I will help you to find your thimble—the day is passing away.” Mechanically she obeyed, bathing her face and hands, smoothing her hair, and feeling more cheerful for the pleasant smile beaming upon her all the time. “When had you your thimble last?” “Yesterday, I believe. I was braiding a little at papa’s slipper; but I don’t know where I left my work.” “Where were you working?” “Let me see.” She paused to think a minute. “We’ll go down and look. Have you no place for keeping your things?” “I have that basket for larger things, but that was not down stairs. It takes so much time to run about, putting things away.” “Do you think it would have taken as much as it has done to hunt the thimble this morning?” “I never thought of that! So it does,” exclaimed Jennie, flushing into animation at the discovery. “Besides,” continued Miss Lane, “did it never occur to you that it was sinful to be careless, even in little things?” The look of weariness returned to her face. “Miss Lane, I can’t do right, there is no use in trying! I do think I’ll try, but it never lasts.” “May-be, you think you can do it without help, my dear?” “I did not think of praying about such a “Little things make great things, my dear. Our lives are made up of little things. Constant, little vexations are harder to bear in patience than some great grief. If we want God’s help in our life, we must ask it for little things, because great things may happen only once in a life-time, and the little trials are of hourly occurrence. Which was harder to bear—giving up your Christmas tree, or the vexation about your thimble?” “About the thimble,” answered Jennie immediately. In the mean time they had reached the library. On the floor lay a beautifully bound and illustrated copy of Percy’s “Reliques”, with the print of Tan’s paws on its open leaves; and among tangled braids and silk lay the torn, soiled, half-finished slipper. Miss Lane gathered all up in silence, and continued the search for the thimble without a word. “You see,” said Jennie, thoughtfully, standing “I wonder what your papa would say to those mud stains on his ‘Reliques?’ You must have left the book on the floor, and Tan trod on it. If it were my book, I should not value it after it had been so defaced.” “Oh!” answered Jennie, carelessly, “he can easily get another one.” “You can buy more material for the slippers, and another thimble, too; but don’t you know that the money for those things would buy Mrs. Ross a cloak, or pay for the splitting of all her “I never thought of it in that light,” said Jennie, slowly. “Then I suppose we ought to be careful, even if we have everything we want.” “Certainly, we have to account for the way in which we spend or waste money, as well as time.” Jennie looked up in dismay. “Oh! Miss Lane, what an array there will be against us at the time of reckoning. So many things I have done wrong, though the day is not half done!” “You began wrong in the first place!” “I know it, and I meant to do all right. I don’t believe there is much use in trying;” and she sat down despondently. “I have not seen you try yet. You yield at the slightest temptation.” The tears sprang to Jennie’s eyes; she seemed much grieved. “You are not to have the victory without a “No,” she answered slowly, “it never seemed so serious before. I did not think of its being a sin.” “Don’t you see it now?” “Yes, but you must show me. I don’t know how to begin. I wish I had some rules to follow that I dare not break.” “You have a rule. God’s laws must not be broken wilfully. I cannot give you rules more binding.” “Well, I should like to be as careful and as neat as you are; but how am I to learn?” “Put your things in order, and keep them so. There is nothing easier. Then you never have any hunting to do—and thus your temper is not “I am so sorry about the thimble. Do you know, it is almost the last thing mamma gave me of her own? I dropped her ring in the orchard, and Frank trod on her pearl pin. I had it in my scarf, and left it on the hall table one day. Tan pulled it on the floor, and Frank crushed it with his boot. And now the thimble has gone. Lillie has all her things safe, and Mrs. Hill keeps Rosie’s for her. Oh, I’m so sorry!” “Well, there is no use in regretting it now—or rather—I hope it will do you good. I thought you loved your mamma.” “Oh, Miss Lane!” “Well, my dear, you do not seem to care for anything she has given you. I should think you would cherish everything she has touched. Jennie’s tears flowed fast as they walked up stairs together. “This is the way I keep my drawers,” said Miss Lane, opening one after another, and exhibiting piles of neatly folded handkerchiefs, snowy collars and cuffs, stockings rolled up compactly, and dainty garments with sprigs of lavender between. “Oh, how beautiful! It is a pleasure to look at them. Mine are so different,” cried Jennie, as she looked. “Here is my work-basket. Here are the cases for my thimble, for my spools, and for my scissors. Here is my needle-book, too, and in this bag are silks wound upon ivory winders. I keep this long silk bag with the shallow basket in the bottom for my knitting, and I must tell you that I never lose anything. Shall we go now into your room awhile and make an examination?” “I am ashamed that you should see my “We agreed a little while ago that time was saved by being careful, you know. I think you must confess that most of your morning has been wasted in hunting what would not have taken you twenty minutes to put away properly.” In the top drawer of Jennie’s bureau were a comb and brush, one shoe and a slipper, a Prayer-book, several pairs of gloves, a heap of stockings, one dumb-bell, a pair of graces, and a half eaten apple. In the second, among a pile of incongruous articles, was an overturned work-basket, with all the silks and cotton in a snarl, and, one by one, Miss Lane placed various pieces of unfinished work on a chair by her side. The first was a slipper partly embroidered. “I began that for papa’s birthday, but I did not like the pattern—so I bought the others,” explained Jennie, as it came to light. “Those were mats for mamma’s cologne bottles: but I lost my crochet needle, and could “That was a purse I was knitting for Mrs. Hill: but just look at the silk—it is one knot; so I had to give it up. “That was a drawing I promised to do for Dr. Sprague; but I got so tired of all that shading—and I don’t care to finish that embroidery—it is out of fashion, you know. “That is a story I commenced; but I spilt ink on the last pages, and it soaked through the bottom of my drawer, and stained my white dress till it is totally ruined. Here it is. I can never wear it again. Wasn’t it provoking?” After much work the drawers were reduced to order, the gloves matched, excepting two which remained unmated, the work-box righted, and all soiled, rumpled articles removed. Jennie surveyed the whole with much pleasure, and felt as if nothing could induce her to allow chaos to prevail again. “All you have to do now, Jennie, is to remember that, after using a thing, you must put Jennie could think of nothing—not one thing. Drawing, music, French, German, Italian, all sorts of fancy work, visiting the poor, being constant in her attendance at church, zealous in good works, had all been tried successively, and dropped before anything had been accomplished, any habit formed, so that Jennie, with excellent In her desultory reading, she had gathered a mixture of facts and fiction, till her brain was in as much confusion as her bureau. She could not converse five minutes in French without a mistake, though she could skim over a French story and manage to get the substance of its contents in a very short time indeed. Though passionately devoted to music she could scarcely play a single piece through correctly. When the drudgery came, Jennie’s interest flagged. She exhibited much taste and talent in drawing, but her lack of application had prevented her from making any progress, and half-finished sketches littered her table and writing desk. Her teacher’s words awoke her thoughts. She saw herself as she was, dreaming, impractical, useless, with her mind undisciplined, full of weeds like a neglected garden, which, no matter how beautiful in the beginning, cannot thrive without care and cultivation. She recalled her mother’s many warnings against this her besetting A great fear and dread possessed her. Must it always be so? And at the great Day, must she be weighed in the balances and found wanting? Oh, if she could but change it all! But she had tried again and again. This trying was like the rest; her enthusiasm died away and she gave it up. Miss Lane said nothing—she was putting the unfinished articles into a large empty basket. At last Jennie broke the silence. “Miss Lane, I am going; to try again. Will you help me? Please make rules for me. Please tell me what I am to do.” “First, you must expect to do nothing without God’s help: for that you must ask: to ask it, you must rise earlier, so as to have the time. Never begin the day without prayer: your life, “I will try. Then I shall finish Alice’s stockings and burn all these things so as to begin anew.” “No, Jennie, you must not burn them: you surely cannot meditate such a sinful waste.” “But, Miss Lane,” she exclaimed, comprehending with a flash of dismay her teacher’s meaning, “you cannot expect me to finish all those things now. Why, I hate the sight of them. I could never untangle that silk, and the worsted is all to wind. I have another pair of slippers, too, down stairs—those that Tan tore: and I promised Dr. Sprague the drawing a year ago—I should be ashamed to give it to him now.” “It is time you were telling the truth about it, Jennie. You promised—did you not?” “There has been nothing to prevent your doing it, excepting your distaste for finishing your work, has there?” “No.” “Then, my dear, it seems to me, there is but one thing to be done; you want to bring a clear conscience into your new life. Can’t you see your duty plainly in this case?” “Yes, I do. Well,—” with a grimace, “I suppose it must be done. Oh, dear, it is not going to be easy at all! I shall be glad to get that Bristol board out of my sight—it is a torture every time I see it.” “I think you are old enough to know that it would be wrong to finish any one of these things in such haste as not to do it well, Jennie?” “Yes,” she answered, alarmed at seeing how Miss Lane took it for granted that all must be done. “But, indeed, I shall have no time for Christmas things—and I did so want to knit Alice’s stockings.” “I know it is a great trial; but you must Miss Lane walked out of the room, and Jennie, taking the basket on her lap, sat down, to think intently. In a few minutes she rose, read the morning lessons, said her prayers, and, going to the library, searched perseveringly till she found her thimble. It was on the top shelf, where she had left it in taking down the “Reliques.” Then setting herself to work at her drawing, she became so interested that the dinner-bell startled her quite unpleasantly, and she saw with a thrill that much towards beginning her new life had been done. |