  YEARS—years ago,—ere yet my dreams Had been of being wise or witty,— Ere I had done with writing themes, Or yawn’d o’er this infernal Chitty;— Years—years ago,—while all my joy Was in my fowling-piece and filly,— In short, while I was yet a boy, I fell in love with Laura Lilly. I saw her at the County Ball: There, where the sounds of flute and fiddle, Gave signal sweet, in that old hall, Hers was the subtlest spell by far Of all that set young hearts romancing, She was our queen, our rose, our star; And then she danced—O Heaven, her dancing! Dark was her hair, her hand was white; Her voice was exquisitely tender; Her eyes were full of liquid light; I never saw a waist so slender! Her every look, her every smile Shot right and left a score of arrows; I thought ’twas Venus from her Isle, And wonder’d where she’d left her sparrows. She talk’d,—of politics or prayers,— Or Southey’s prose, or Wordsworth’s sonnets,— Of danglers—or of dancing bears, Of battles—or the last new bonnets, By candlelight, at twelve o’clock, To me it matter’d not a tittle; If those bright lips had quoted Locke, I might have thought they murmur’d Little. Through sunny May, through sultry June, I loved her with a love eternal; I spoke her praises to the moon, I wrote them to the Sunday Journal: My mother laugh’d; I soon found out That ancient ladies have no feeling: My father frown’d; but how should gout She was the daughter of a Dean, Rich, fat, and rather apoplectic; She had one brother, just thirteen, Whose color was extremely hectic; Her grandmother for many a year Had fed the parish with her bounty; Her second cousin was a peer, And Lord Lieutenant of the County. But titles, and the three per cents, And mortgages, and great relations, And India bonds, and tithes, and rents, Oh what are they to love’s sensations? Black eyes, fair forehead, clustering locks— Such wealth, such honors, Cupid chooses, He cares as little for the Stocks, As Baron Rothschild for the Muses. She sketch’d; the vale, the wood, the beach, Grew lovelier from her pencil’s shading: She botanized; I envied each Young blossom in her boudoir fading: She warbled Handel; it was grand; She made the Catalani jealous: She touch’d the organ; I could stand For hours and hours to blow the bellows. She kept an album, too, at home, Well fill’d with all an album’s glories; Paintings of butterflies, and Rome, Soft songs to Julia’s cockatoo, Fierce odes to Famine and to Slaughter, And autographs of Prince Leboo, And recipes for elder-water. And she was flatter’d, worshipp’d, bored; Her steps were watched, her dress was noted; Her poodle dog was quite adored, Her sayings were extremely quoted; She laugh’d, and every heart was glad, As if the taxes were abolish’d; She frown’d, and every look was sad, As if the Opera were demolish’d. She smiled on many, just for fun,— I knew that there was nothing in it; I was the first—the only one Her heart had thought of for a minute.— I knew it, for she told me so, In phrase which was divinely moulded; She wrote a charming hand,—and oh! How sweetly all her notes were folded! Our love was like most other loves;— A little glow, a little shiver, A rose-bud, and a pair of gloves, And “Fly not yet”—upon the river; Some jealousy of some one’s heir, Some hopes of dying broken-hearted, A miniature, a lock of hair, We parted; months and years roll’d by; We met again four summers after: Our parting was all sob and sigh; Our meeting was all mirth and laughter: For in my heart’s most secret cell There had been many other lodgers; And she was not the ball-room’s Belle, But only—Mrs. Something Rogers! Winthrop Mackworth Praed. |
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