Everything being made clear, Roger and I went up to his rooms. He shut the door, and said that "the two old ones" were all right enough, but he had come over 250 miles to see me, and he didn't care a hang what they or any one else thought, and that if they'd made any more fuss, he'd have taken me away from there without further parley. Then he asked me something suddenly that made me laugh. He wanted to know if I was afraid of him, and I asked: "Why should I be?" "You're right," he replied, "and you need never be, Nora. You can always trust me." I said mischievously: "It's the other way. I think you're afraid of me." He frowned me down at that, and demanded to know what I meant, but I couldn't explain. He lighted the logs in the fireplace, and pulled up the big Morris chair and a footstool before it. He made me sit on the stool at his knee. Then we talked till it was pretty late, and mama popped her head in and said I ought to go to bed. I protested that as I didn't have to go to work next day, I need not get up early. Roger said she was right, and that he must be going. I had thought he was going to spend Christmas with me, and I was so dreadfully disappointed that I nearly cried, and he tried to cheer me up. He said he wouldn't go if he could help it, but that his people expected him home at least at Christmas. That was the first time he had ever referred to his "people," and I felt a vague sense of jealousy that they meant more to him than I did. But I did not tell him that, for he suddenly leaned over me and said: "I'd rather be here with you, Nora, than anywhere else in the world." I sat up at that, and said triumphantly: "Then you must care for me if that's so." "Have I ever pretended not to?" he asked. "You told them down-stairs—" He snapped his fingers as though what he had said there didn't count. "Well, but you must be more than merely interested in me," I said. "Interest is a pretty big thing, isn't it?" he said slowly. "Not as big as love," I said. "We're not going to talk about love," he replied. "We'll have to cut that out entirely, Nora." "But I thought you said you wanted me to go on loving you, and that I was not to stop, no matter what happened." He stirred uneasily at that, and then, after a moment, he said: "That's true. Never stop doing that, will you, sweetheart?" You see, I was succeeding beautifully with him when he called me that. He regretted it a moment later, for he rose and began fussing with his bag. I followed him across the room. I always followed him everywhere, just like a little dog. He took a little package out of his bag, and he asked me if I remembered the day in the carriage, when he told me to open my mouth and shut my eyes. Of course I did. He said that I was to shut my eyes now, but I need not open my mouth. He'd give me the real prize now. So then I did, and he put something about my neck. Then he led me over to the mirror, and I saw it was a pearl necklace. At that time I had not the remotest idea of the value of jewelry. I had never possessed any except the ring Dick had given me. In a vague sort of way I knew that gold and diamonds were costly things, and of course I supposed that pearls were, too. It was not, therefore, the value of his present that impressed me, for I frankly looked upon it merely as a "pretty necklace"; but I was enchanted to think he had remembered me, and when I opened my eyes and saw them, they looked so creamy and lovely on my neck that I wanted to hug him for them. However, he held me off at arm's length, to "see how they looked" on me. He said I was not to wear them to work, but only on special occasions, when he was there and took me to I had never cared particularly about jewelry or such things. I had never had any, and never had wanted any. I liked pretty clothes and things like that—but I had never thought about the subject of jewelry. I told this to Roger and he said he would change all that. He was, in fact, going to cultivate in me a taste for the best in everything, he said. I asked him why. It seemed to me that nothing was to be gained by acquiring a taste for luxurious things—for a girl in my position, and he replied in a grim sort of way: "All the same, you're going to have them. By and by you won't be able to do without them." "Jewels and such things?" "Yes—jewels and such things." Then he added: "There need never be a time in your life when I won't be able to gratify your least wish, if you will let me." When he was putting on his coat, he asked me what sort of position I had, and I told him it was pretty bad. He said he wished me to go down to see Mr. Forman, the president of a large wholesale dry-goods firm. He He was drawing on his gloves and was nearly ready to go when he asked his next question, and that was whether I had made any new acquaintances; what men I had met, and whether I had been out anywhere with any particular man. He usually asked me those questions first of all, and then would keep on about them all through his visit. I hesitated, for I was reluctant to tell him about Bennet. He roughly took me by the shoulder when I did not answer him at once, and he said: "Well, with whom have you been going out?" I told him about Bennet, but only about his coming to see me, his reading to me, and of my going to his and Butler's rooms, and to Hull House. He stared at me so peculiarly while I was speaking that I thought he was angry with me, and he suddenly took off his coat and hat and sat down again. "Why didn't you tell me about this chap before?" he asked me suddenly. "I thought you wouldn't be interested," I quibbled. "That is not true, Nora," he said. "You knew very well I would." He leaned forward in the chair, with his hands gripped together, and stared at the fire, and then he said almost as if to himself: "If I had come on, this wouldn't have happened." "Nothing has happened," I insisted. "Oh, yes, this—er—Bennet is undoubtedly in love with you." "Well, suppose he is?" I said. "What does it matter to you? If you don't care for me, why shouldn't other men?" He turned around and looked at me hard a moment. Then he got up, walked up and down a while, and then came over and took my face up in his hand. "Nora, will you give up this chap if I ask you to?" I was piling up proof that he cared for me more than he would admit. I said flippantly: "Old 'Dog in the Manger,' will you love me if I do?" He said in a low voice: "I can't." I said sadly: "Is it so hard, then?" "Yes, harder than you know," he replied. Then he wanted to know what Bennet looked like. I painted a flattering picture. When was he coming? To Christmas dinner, I told him. It was now very late, and I heard the clock in the hall strike twelve, and I asked him if he heard the reindeer bells on the roof. "Nora, I don't hear or see anything in the world but you," he replied. "If that's so, you must be as much in love with me as I am with you," I told him. He said, "Nonsense," and looked around, as if he were going to put his things on again. "Stay over Christmas!" I begged, and after staring at me a moment, he said: "Very well, I will, then." That made me tremendously excited. Mama came down the hall and called: "Nora, aren't you in bed yet?" I called out: "I'm going now." Then I seized his hand quickly, kissed it, and ran out of the room to my own. |