“In the other direction,” she added mentally. That same night, during the rite of hair-brushing, Tiddy said abruptly, well aware, of course, that a push, to be effective, should be administered without warning: “Are you playing the game with Lord Wilverley?” “I beg your pardon, Tiddy?” “Never do that. It’s a device to gain time. You heard me. Are you playing the game? If not—as Mrs. Roden would say—why not?” “I don’t know what to say.” “Then I’ll say it for you. I advised you before I came here to flirt with this nice big man. I was thinking for you, doing what I should do myself. I hold that a sensible girl must get really intimate with a man whom she may eventually marry. Under our stupid shibboleths and conventions that is called ‘flirting.’ There’s no harm in it, up to a point. In my opinion you have passed that point.” “Have I?” Cicely considered this pensively. “Yes; he has behaved with astounding patience and consideration. He is crystal-clear. He wants you. If you don’t want him, say so, and have done with it. I think I can read you as easily as you read him. You would like to please your mother, who, for the first time in her amazing life, is feeling, as you told me, forlorn; you are getting fed up with war work and bottle-washing, and you hanker for a change, any change; also, you have a vague and quite excellent notion that Lord Wilverley, as a son-in-law, might persuade your mother to let him take Upworthy in hand. Probably he would, with little coaxing from you. In your less robust moments you rather gloat over this opportunity of self-sacrifice. On the other hand, it’s obvious that you don’t really love this good, honest fellow; you are piqued because Romeo did the vanishing stunt. You might have come to some sort of an understanding, but silly pride prevented that. Agatha captured her John right enough.” “Because she knew that he loved her.” “In your funny little heart you believe that Romeo loves you. Pride upset his apple-cart. Now—what are you going to do?” Cicely, to Miss Tiddle’s rage and disgust, answered the question by melting into tears. Tiddy, without a word, rose from her chair, opened an umbrella, and sat down under it with a derisive smile upon her lips. “When the shower is over,” she remarked tartly, “I’ll put down my umbrella.” Cicely, feeling ridiculous, gulped down her sobs. “I wish I had your brains.” “Tosh! Your brains are O. K. You’re too indolent to use them. Marry the wrong man, and your brains will become a negligible quantity. What beats me is that Lord Wilverley should talk to you at all when he might talk to me.” At this Cicely “sat up,” literally and metaphorically. Tiddy closed her umbrella, but held it ready for use. She added calmly: “I could make him talk to me, if I tried.” “Take him from me, you mean?” “Quite easily.” Cicely’s eyes began to sparkle. “He ought to marry a woman with some snap and ginger. I could egg him on to great things.” Cicely made an incredulous gesture. Then she said acrimoniously: “I suppose you don’t believe in friendship between a man and a girl?” “I don’t.” “Well, I do. Friendship between girls is rather difficult.” “Friendship between any two persons is very difficult. Most women are too exacting in their friendships. For instance, you expect a lot of sloppy sentiment from me. You won’t get it. My object is to save you from yourself. You are drifting. If you really want to drift, say so, and I’ll shut up. But I warn you, within a day or two you’ll have to say ‘yes’ or ‘no’ to Arthur Wilverley. If you temporise, he’ll think you a rotter.” “If Arthur bustles me, I shall say ‘no.’” “I knew it!” exclaimed Miss Tiddle, triumphantly. “You don’t love him.” “I—I might.” Tiddy wisely said no more. Next day, Destiny interfered. At a moment when Lady Selina had good reason to think that her son would be spared, because our cavalry were well out of the danger zone, Brian Chandos was offered and accepted a staff appointment. Three days afterwards he was shot through the head, when carrying despatches, and died instantly. Cicely was summoned home. Lady Selina met her upon the threshold of the great hall. Stimson hurried away, leaving mother and daughter alone. Outwardly, Lady Selina remained calm. To Cicely she seemed to have become suddenly an old woman. Her face was white and lined, but she held her head erect. Her voice never faltered. When Cicely gripped her convulsively, she took the girl’s face between her hands and gazed at it mournfully. “I want you, child; I want you—desperately.” |