Quickly going up the vineyard road, I perceived a light in Annouchka's room. This sight calmed me a little. I approached the house; the entrance door was closed. I knocked. A window that had no light opened softly in the lower story, and Gaguine thrust out his head. "You have found her?" I asked him. "She has returned," he answered in a low voice. "She is in her room and is going to bed. All is for the best." "God be praised!" I cried, in a paroxysm of indescribable joy. "God be praised! Then everything is all right; but you know we have not had our talk together." "Not now," he answered, half closing the window; "another time. In the meanwhile, farewell!" "To-morrow," I said, "to-morrow will decide everything." "Farewell," repeated Gaguine. The window closed. I was upon the point of knocking at it,—I wished to speak to Gaguine one instant longer, to ask his sister's hand,—but a proposal of marriage at such an hour! "To-morrow," I thought, "to-morrow I shall be happy." Happiness has no to-morrow; it has no yesterday; it remembers not the past; it has no thought of the future; it knows only the present, and yet this present is not a day, but an instant. I know not how I returned to Z.—It was not my legs that carried me, it was not a boat that took me to the other side; I was wafted along, so to speak, by strong, large wings. I passed a thicket where a nightingale was singing. I stopped, listened a long time; it seemed to be singing of my love and my happiness. |