On Friday night there were heavy showers again, and now Whinnie reports that our Marquis wheat couldn’t look better and ought to run well over forty bushels to the acre. We are assured of sufficient moisture, but our two enemies yclept Fire and Hail remain. I should like to have taken out hail insurance, but I haven’t the money on hand. I can at least make sure of my fire-guards. Turning those essential furrows will be good training for Peter. That individual, by the way, has been quieter and more ruminative of late, and, if I’m not mistaken, a little gentler in his attitude toward me. Yet there’s not a trace of pose about him, and I feel sure he wouldn’t harm the morals of a lady-bug. He’s kind and considerate, and doing his best to be a good pal. Whinnie, by the way, regards me with a mildly reproving eye, and having apparently concluded that I am a renegade, is concentrating his affection on Dinkie, for whom he is whittling out a new Noah’s Ark in his spare time. He is also teaching Dinkie to ride horseback, lifting him up to the back of either Nip or Tuck when they come for water and letting him ride as far as the stable. He looks very small up on that big animal. At night, now that the evenings are so long, Whinnie takes my laddie on his knee and tells him stories, stories which he can’t possibly understand, I’m sure, but Dinkie likes the drone of Whinnie’s voice and the feel of those rough old arms about his little body. We all hunger for affection. The idiot who said that love was the bitters in the cocktail of life wasn’t either a good liver or a good philosopher. For love is really the whole cocktail. Take that away, and nothing is left.... I seem to be getting moodier, as summer advances. Alternating waves of sourness and tenderness sweep through me, and if I wasn’t a busy woman I’d possibly make a fine patient for one of those fashionable nerve-specialists who don’t flourish on the prairie. But I can’t quite succeed in making myself as miserable as I feel I ought to be. There seems to be a great deal happening all about us, and yet nothing ever happens. My children are hale and hearty, my ranch is fat with its promise of harvest, and I am surrounded by people who love and respect me. But it doesn’t seem enough. Coiled in my heart is one small disturbing viper which I can neither scotch nor kill. Yet I decline to be the victim of anything as ugly as jealousy. For jealousy is both poisonous and pathetic. But I’d like to choke that woman! Yesterday Lady Alicia, who is now driving her own car, picked up Peter from his fire-guard work and “So be warned in time,” I sternly exclaimed to Peter, when I accidentally overheard the latter end of Struthers’ exhortation. “And there are others as ought to be warned in time!” was Struthers’ Parthian arrow as she flounced off to turn the omelette which she’d left to scorch on the cook-stove. Peter’s eye met mine, but neither of us said anything. It reminded me of cowboy honor, which prompts a rider never to “touch leather,” no matter how his bronco may be bucking. And omelette, I was later reminded, comes from the French alumelle, which means ship’s plating, a bit of etymology well authenticated by Struthers’ skillet. |