Coming events do not cast their shadows before them. I was busy in the kitchen this morning, making marmalade out of what was left of Peter’s oranges and contentedly humming Oh, Dry Those Tears when the earthquake that shook the world from under my feet occurred. The Twins had been bathed and powdered and fed and put out in their sleeping-box, and Dinkie was having his morning nap, and Struthers was busy at the sewing-machine, finishing up the little summer shirts for Poppsy and Pee-Wee which I’d begun to make out of their daddy’s discarded B. V. D.’s. It was a glorious morning with a high-arching pale blue sky and little baby-lamb cloudlets along the sky-line and the milk of life running warm and rich in the bosom of the sleeping earth. And I was bustling about in my apron of butcher’s linen, after slicing oranges on my little maple-wood carving-slab until the house was aromatic with them, when the sound of a racing car-engine smote on my ear. I went to the door with fire in my eye and the long-handled preserving spoon in my hand, ready to call down destruction on the pinhead who’d dare to wake my kiddies. My visitor, I saw, was Lady Alicia; and I beheld my broken wash-tub under the front axle of her motor-car. I went out to her, with indignation still in my eye, but she paid no attention to either that or the tub itself. She was quite pale, in fact, as she stepped down from her driving-seat, glanced at her buckskin gauntlets, and then looked up at me. “There’s something we may as well face, and face at once,” she said, with less of a drawl than usual. I waited, without speaking, wondering if she was referring to the tub. But I could feel my heart contract, like a leg-muscle with a cramp in it. And we stood there, face to face, under the flat prairie sunlight, ridiculously like two cockerels silently estimating each other’s intentions. “I’m in love with your husband,” Lady Alicia suddenly announced, with a bell-like note of challenge in her voice. “And I’d rather like to know what you’re going to do about it.” I was able to laugh a little, though the sound of it seemed foolish in my own startled ears. “That’s rather a coincidence, isn’t it?” I blithely admitted. “For so am I.” I could see the Scotch-granite look that came into the thick-lashed tourmaline eyes. And they’d be lovely eyes, I had to admit, if they were only a little softer. “That’s unfortunate,” was her ladyship’s curt retort. “It’s more than unfortunate,” I agreed, “it’s extremely awkward.” “Why?” she snapped, plainly annoyed at my lightness of tone. “Because he can’t possibly have both of us, you know—unless he’s willing to migrate over to that Mormon colony at Red-Deer. And even there, I understand, they’re not doing it now.” “I’m afraid this is something much too serious to joke about,” Lady Alicia informed me. “But it strikes me as essentially humorous,” I told her. “I’m afraid,” she countered, “that it’s apt to prove essentially tragic.” “But he happens to be my husband,” I observed. “Only in form, I fancy, if he cares for some one else,” was her ladyship’s deliberate reply. “Then he has acknowledged that—that you’ve captured him?” I inquired, slowly but surely awakening to the sheer audacity of the lady in the buckskin gauntlets. “Isn’t that rather—er—primitive?” inquired Lady Allie, paler than ever. “If you mean coming and squabbling over another woman’s husband, I’d call it distinctly prehistoric,” I said with a dangerous little red light dancing before “I want an end to this intolerable situation,” my visitor averred. “Intolerable to whom?” I inquired. “To me, to Duncan, and to you, if you are the right sort of woman,” was Lady Alicia’s retort. And still again I was impressed by the colossal egoism of the woman confronting me, the woman ready to ride rough-shod over the world, for all her sparkling veneer of civilization, as long, as she might reach her own selfish ends. “Since you mention Duncan, I’d like to ask if you’re speaking now as his cousin, or as his mistress?” Lady Alicia’s stare locked with mine. She was making a sacrificial effort, I could see, to remain calm. “I’m speaking as some one who is slightly interested in his happiness, and his future,” was her coldly intoned reply. “And has my husband acknowledged that his happiness and his future remain in your hands?” I asked. “I should hate to see him waste his life in a hole like this,” said Lady Alicia, not quite answering my question. “Have you brought any great improvement to it?” I parried. Yet even as I spoke I stood impressed by the thought that it was, after all, more than primitive. “That is not what I came here to discuss,” she replied, with a tug at one of her gauntlets. “I suppose it would be nearer the mark to say, since you began by being so plain-spoken, that you came here to ask me to give you my husband,” I retorted as quietly as I could, not because I preferred the soft pedal, but because I nursed a strong suspicion that Struthers’ attentive ear was just below the nearest window-sill. Lady Alicia smiled forbearingly, almost pityingly. “Any such donation, I’m afraid, is no longer your prerogative,” she languidly remarked, once more mistress of herself. “What I’m more interested in is your giving your husband his liberty.” I felt like saying that this was precisely what I had been giving him. But it left too wide an opening. So I ventured, instead: “I’ve never heard my husband express a desire for his liberty.” “He’s too honorable for that,” remarked my enemy. “Then it’s an odd kind of honor,” I icily remarked, “that allows you to come here and bicker over a situation that is so distinctly personal.” “Pardon me, but I’m not bickering. And I’m not rising to any heights of courage which would be impossible to your husband. It’s consoling, however, That declaration would have been more inflammatory, I think, if one small truth hadn’t gradually come home to me. In some way, and for some reason, Lady Alicia Elizabeth Newland was not so sure of herself as she was pretending to be. She was not so sure of her position, I began to see, or she would never have thrown restraint to the winds and come to me on any such mission. “Then that counts me out!” I remarked, with a forlorn attempt at being facetious. “If he’s going to do as he likes, I don’t see that you or I have much to say in the matter. But before he does finally place his happiness in your hands, I rather think I’d like to have a talk with him.” “That remains with Duncan, of course,” she admitted, in a strictly qualified tone of triumph, as though she were secretly worrying over a conquest too incredibly facile. “He knows, of course, that you came to talk this over with me?” I suggested, as though it were an after-thought. “He had nothing to do with my coming,” asserted Lady Alicia. “Then it was your own idea?” I asked. “Entirely,” she admitted. “Then what did you hope to gain?” I demanded. “I wasn’t considering my own feelings,” imperially acknowledged her ladyship. “That was very noble of you,” I admitted, “especially when you bear in mind that you weren’t considering mine, either! And what’s more, Lady Newland, I may as well tell you right here, and right now, that you can’t get anything out of it. I gave up my home to you, the home I’d helped make by the work of my own hands. And I gave up the hope of bringing up my children as they ought to be brought up. I even gave up my dignity and my happiness, in the hope that things could be made to come out straight. But I’m not going to give up my husband. Remember that, I’m not going to give him up. I don’t care what he says or feels, at this particular moment; I’m not going to give him up to make a mess of what’s left of the rest of his life. He may not know what’s ahead of him, but I do! And now that you’re shown me just what you are, and just what you’re ready to do, I intend to take a hand in this. I intend to fight you to the last ditch, and to the last drop of the hat! And if that sounds primitive, as you’ve already suggested, it’ll pay you to remember that you’re out here in a primitive country where we’re apt to do our fighting in a mighty primitive way!” It was a very grand speech, but it would have been more impressive, I think, if I hadn’t been suddenly “It may not be so simple as it seems,” she announced with great dignity, as she proceeded to start her car. And the same dignity might have attended her entire departure, but in the excitement she apparently flooded her carbureter, and the starter refused to work, and she pushed and spun and re-throttled and pushed until she was quite red in the face. And when the car finally did get under way, the running-gear became slightly involved with my broken wash-tub and it was not until the latter was completely and ruthlessly demolished that the automobile found its right-of-way undisputed and anything like dignity returned to the situation. I stood there, with the long-handled preserving I began to think of all the clever things I might have said to Lady Alicia Elizabeth Newland. But the more I thought it over the more desolated I became in spirit, so that by the time I meandered back to the shack I had a face as long as a fiddle. And there I was confronted by a bristling and voluble Struthers, who acknowledged that she’d heard what she’d heard, and could no longer keep her lips sealed, whether it was her place to speak or not, and that her ladyship was not all that she ought to be, not by any manner of means, or she would never have left England and hidden herself away in this wilderness of a colony. I had been rather preoccupied with my own thoughts, and paying scant attention to the clattering-tongued Struthers, up to this point. But the intimation that Lady Allie was not in the West for the sake of her health brought me up short. And Struthers, when I challenged that statement, promptly announced that the lady in question was no more in search of health than a tom-cat’s in search of water and no more interested in ranching than an ox is interested in astronomy, seeing as she’d ‘a’ been co-respondent in the Allerby and Crewe-Buller divorce case if By the time I’d attended to Dinkie and finished my sadly neglected marmalade—for humans must eat, whatever happens—I’d made an effort to get some sort of order back into my shattered world. Yet it was about Duncan more than any one else that my thoughts kept clustering and centering. He seemed, at the moment, oddly beyond either pity or blame. I thought of him as a victim of his own weakness, as the prey of a predaceous and unscrupulous woman I tried, as I sat down and struggled to think things out, to withhold all blame and bitterness. Then I tried to think of life without Dinky-Dunk. I attempted Then I tried to think of life alone, of going solitary through the rest of my days—and I knew that my Maker had left me too warm-blooded and too dependent on the companionship of a mate ever to turn back to single harness. I couldn’t live without a man. He might be a sorry mix-up of good and bad, but I, the Eternal Female, would crave him as a mate. Most women, I knew, were averse to acknowledging such things; but life has compelled me to be candid with myself. The tragic part of it all seems that there should and could be only one man. I had been right when I had only too carelessly called myself a neck-or-nothing woman. It wasn’t until later that any definite thought of injustice to me at Dinky-Dunk’s hands entered my head, since my attitude toward Dinky-Dunk seemed to remain oddly maternal, the attitude of the mother intent on extenuating her own. I even wrung a ghostly sort of consolation out of remembering that it was not a young and dewy girl who had imposed And somewhere in her make-up was a strain of cruelty or she would never have come to me the way she did, and struck at me with an open claw. That cruelty, quite naturally, could never have been paraded before my poor old Dinky-Dunk’s eyes. It would be, later on, after disillusionment and boredom. Then, and then only, it would dare to show its ugly head. So instead of feeling sorry for myself, I began to feel sorry for my Diddums, even though he was trying to switch me off like an electric-light. And all of a sudden I came to a decision. I decided to write to Dinky-Dunk. That, I felt, would be safer than trying to see him. For in a letter I could say what I wanted to without being stopped or side-tracked. There would be no danger of accusations and recriminations, of anger leading to extremes, of injured pride standing in the path of honesty. It would be better than talking. And what was more, it could be done at once, for the mysterious impression that time was precious, that something ominous was in the air, had taken hold of me. So I wrote to Dinky-Dunk. I did it on two crazy-looking pages torn out of the back of his old ranch ledger. I did it without giving much thought to precisely what I said or exactly how I phrased it, depending on my heart more than my brain to guide me in the way I should go. For I knew, in the marrow of my bones, that it was my last shot, my forlornest ultimatum, since in it went packed the last shred of my pride. “Dear Dinky-Dunk,” I wrote, “I hardly know how to begin, but I surely don’t need to begin by saying we haven’t been hitting it off very well of late. We seem to have made rather a mess of things, and I suppose it’s partly my fault, and the fault of that stupid pride which keeps us tongue-tied when we should be honest and open with each other. But I’ve been feeling lately that we’re both skirting a cut-bank with our eyes blindfolded, and I’ve faced an incident, trivial The hardest part of all that letter, I found, was the ending of it. It took me a long time to decide just what to sign myself, just how to pilot my pen between the rocks of candor and dignity. So I ended up by signing it “Chaddie” and nothing more, for already the fires of emotion had cooled and a perplexed little reaction of indifferency had set in. It was only a surface-stir, but it was those surface-stirs, I remembered, which played such a lamentably important part in life. When Whinstane Sandy came in at noon for his dinner, a full quarter of an hour ahead of Peter, I had his meal all ready for him by the time he had I knew by his face as I helped him hitch Water-Light to the buckboard—for Whinnie’s foot makes it hard for him to ride horseback—that he nursed a pretty respectable inkling of the situation. He offered no comments, and he even seemed averse to having his eye meet mine, but he obviously knew what he knew. He was off with a rattle of wheels and a drift of trail-dust even before Peter and his cool amending eyes arrived at the shack to “stoke up” as he expresses it. I tried to make Peter believe that nothing was wrong, and cavorted about with Bobs, and was able to laugh when Dinkie got some of the new marmalade in his hair, and explained how we’d have to take our mower-knives over to Teetzel’s to have them ground, and did my best to direct silent reproofs at the tight-lipped and tragic-eyed Struthers, who moved about like a head-mourner not unconscious of her family obligations. But Peter, I suspect, sniffed something untoward in the air, for after a long study of my face—which made me color a little, in spite of myself—he became about as abstracted and solemn-eyed as Struthers herself. To my dying day I shall never forget that wait for Whinnie to come back. It threatened to become an But that hope didn’t live long. “Your maun’s awa’,” said Whinnie, with quite unnecessary curtness, as he held my own letter out to me. “He’s away?” I echoed in a voice that was just a wee bit trembly, as I took the note from Whinnie, “what do you mean by away?” “He left three hours ago for Chicago,” Whinstane Sandy retorted, still with that grim look of triumph in his gloomy old eyes. “But what could be taking him to Chicago?” I rather weakly inquired. “’Twas to see about buyin’ some blooded stock for the ranch. At least, so her ladyship informed me. But that’s nae more than one of her lies, I’m thinkin’.” “What did she say, Whinnie?” I demanded, doing my best to keep cool. “Naethin’,” was Whinnie’s grim retort. “’Twas me did the sayin’!” “What did you say?” I asked, disturbed by the none too gentle look on his face. “What was needed to be said,” that old sour-dough with the lack-luster eyes quietly informed me. “What did you say?” I repeated, with a quavery feeling just under my floating ribs, alarmed at the after-light of audacity that still rested on his face, like wine-glow on a rocky mountain-tip. “I said,” Whinstane Sandy informed me with his old shoulders thrust back and his stubby forefinger pointed to within a few inches of my nose, “I said that I kenned her and her kind well, havin’ watched the likes o’ her ridden out o’ Dawson City on a rail more times than once. I said that she was naethin’ but a wanton”—only this was not the word Whinnie used—“a wanton o’ Babylon and a temptress o’ men and a corrupter o’ homes out o’ her time and place, bein’ naught but a soft shinin’ thing that was a mockery to the guid God who made her and a blight to the face o’ the open prairie that she was foulin’ with her presence. I said that she’d brought shame and sorrow to a home that had been filled with happiness until she crept into it like the serpent o’ hell she was, and seein’ she’d come into a lonely land where the people have the trick o’ tryin’ their own cases after their own way and takin’ when need be justice into their own “Whinnie!” I gasped, sitting down out of sheer weakness, “you didn’t say that?” “I said it,” was Whinnie’s laconic retort. “But what right had you to—” He cut me short with a grunt that was almost disrespectful. “I not only said it,” he triumphantly affirmed, “but what’s more to my likin’, I made her believe it, leavin’ her with the mockin’ laugh dead in her eyes and her face as white as yon table-cover, white to the lips!” |