Thursday the Twenty-Ninth

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We have arrived at an armistice, Dinky-Dunk and I. It was forced on us, for things couldn’t have gone on in the old intolerable manner. Dinky-Dunk, I fancy, began to realize that he hadn’t been quite fair, and started making oblique but transparent enough efforts at appeasement. When he sat down close beside me, and I moved away, he said in a spirit of exaggerated self-accusation: “I’m afraid I’ve got a peach-stain on my reputation!” I retorted, at that, that she had never impressed me as much of a peach. Whereupon he merely laughed, as though it were a joke out of a Midnight Revue. Then he clipped a luridly illustrated advertisement of a nerve-medicine out of his newspaper and pinned it on my bedroom door, after I had ignored his tentative knock thereon the night before. The picture showed an anemic and woebegone couple haggling and shaking their fists at each other, while a large caption announced that “Thousands of Married Folks Lead a Cat and Dog Life—Are Cross, Crabbed and 89 Grumpy!”—all of which could be obviated if they used Oxygated Iron.

What made it funny, of course, was the ridiculousness of the drawing. Then Dinky-Dunk, right before the blushing Gershom, accused me of being a love-piker. I could sniff which way the wind was blowing, but I sat tight. Then, to cap the climax, my husband announced that he had something for me which was surely going to melt my mean old prairie heart. And late that afternoon he came trundling up to Casa Grande with nothing more nor less than an old prairie-schooner.

It startled me, when I first caught sight of it. But its acquisition was not so miraculous as it might have seemed. Dinky-Dunk, who is a born dickerer, has been trading some of his ranch-stock for town-lots on the outskirts of Buckhorn. On the back of one of these lots stood a tumble-down wooden building, and hidden away in this building was the prairie-schooner. Something about it had caught his fancy, so he had insisted that it be included in the deal. And home he brought it, with Tithonus and Tumble-Weed yoked to its antique tongue and his own Stetsoned figure high on the driving seat. They had told Dinky-Dunk it wasn’t a really-truly authentic prairie-schooner, 90 since practically all of the trekking north of the Fiftieth Parallel has been done by means of the Red River cart. But Dinky-Dunk, after looking more carefully over the heavy-timbered running-gear and the cumbersome iron-work, and discovering even the sturdy hooks under its belly from which the pails and pots of earlier travelers must have hung, concluded that it was one of the genuine old-timers, one of the “Murphies” once driven by a “bull-whacker” and drawn by “wheelers” and “pointers.” Where it originally came from, Heaven only knows. But it had been used, five years before, for a centenary procession in the provincial capital and had emerged into the open again last summer for a town-booming Rodeo twenty miles down the steel from Buckhorn. It looked like the dinosaur skeleton in the Museum of Natural History, with every vestige of its tarpaulin top gone. But Whinnie has already sewed together a canvas covering for its weather-beaten old roof-ribs, and has put clean wheat-straw in its box-bottom, so that it makes a kingly place for my two kiddies to play. I even spotted Dinkie, enthroned high on the big driving-seat, with a broken binder-whip in his hand, imagining he was one of the original Forty-Niners pioneering along 91 the unknown frontiers of an unknown land. I could see him duck at imaginary arrows and frenziedly defend his family from imaginary Sioux with an imaginary musket. And I stood beside it this morning, dreaming of the adventures it must have lumbered through, of the freight it must have carried and the hopes it must have ferried as it once crawled westward along the floor of the world, from water-hole to lonely water-hole. I’ve been wondering if certain perforations in its side-boards can be bullet-holes and if certain dents and abrasions in its timbers mean the hostile arrows of skulking Apaches when women and children crouched low behind the ramparts of this tiny wooden fortress. I can’t help picturing what those women and children had to endure, and how trivial, after all, are our puny hardships compared with theirs.

And I don’t intend to dwell on those hardships. I’m holding out the hand of compromise to my fellow-trekker. Existence is only a prairie-schooner, and we have to accommodate ourselves to it. And I thank Heaven now that I can see things more clearly and accept them more quietly. That’s a lesson Time teaches us. And Father Time, after all, has to hand us something to make up for so mercilessly permitting 92 us to grow old. It leaves us more tolerant. We’re not allowed to demand more life, but we can at least ask for more light. So I intend to be cool-headedly rational about it all. I’m going to keep Reason on her throne. I’m going to be a bitter-ender, in at least one thing: I’m going to stick to my Dinky-Dunk to the last ditch. I’m going to patch up the old top and forget the old scars. For we’re in the same schooner, and we must make the most of it. And if I have to eat my pot of honey on the grave of all our older hopes, I’m at least going to dig away at that pot until its bottom is scraped clean. I’m going to remain the neck-or-nothing woman I once prided myself on being. I’m even going to overlook Dinky-Dunk’s casual cruelty in announcing, when I half-jokingly inquired why he preferred other women to his own Better-Half, that no horse eats hay after being turned out to fresh grass. I’m going on, I repeat, no matter what happens. I’m going on to the desperate end, like my own Dinkie with the chocolate-cake when I warned him he’d burst if he dared to eat another piece and he responded: “Then pass the cake, Mummy—and everybody stand back!”


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