Truly, Now he was dead—the brave, generous man, whom Katharine had been taught to love like a father; and even while Thrasher told his own story, and her loving heart was almost given up to fond credulity, she was not quite satisfied that Rice might not have been saved. To leave him on the wreck even at his own request, seemed to her a terrible cruelty. "How did I know he was your brother, Katharine? He never told me a word about it; and if I ever heard the name, it had escaped me." "But he was a human being; a mother waited for him, somewhere. You should have remembered that." "It is useless talking in this way, Katharine," replied Thrasher, striving to pacify her grief. "I could only have saved him by violence. He would not come with us, but stuck to the wreck, under some wild idea that she might yet be taken into port. I could have died with him, but nothing beyond that was possible." "Oh, my mother! my poor mother! must I tell her this?" moaned Katharine. "Perhaps it would have pleased you better had I gone down with him?" "You!—you! Oh, that would have completed our desolation! The news would have killed me dead!" "Then don't attempt to make me out a murderer." "I haven't—I haven't!" "Sit down, "I know it—I know it; but the thought of carrying the grief to my mother kills me." "This is childish—I will submit to it no longer," cried Thrasher, beginning to lose patience. "Sit down, I say, and control yourself!" He took hold of her hands, grasping them till they burned with pain, and drew her forcibly to the rock. She looked at him breathlessly; the expression of his face frightened her. She was sobbing bitterly, and could only give an assent by a motion of the head. "Well, regarding the senseless event which you make so much of——" "Senseless, Nelson!" She looked up, as the words left her lips, and gazed at him reproachfully through her tears. "Yes, senseless! What else could an act like that be considered? I was a man—and should have known better. What good has it done to be in such desperate haste?" "What good?—what good? Did we not love each other?" Something like a sneer came to Thrasher's lip. He longed to tell her the truth. It seemed the surest means of putting her out of the way. "You don't speak, Nelson. You look strange when I say, 'Did we not love each other?'" "No wonder, Katharine—why should you ask the question? If to make a fool of one's self is a proof of love, you have it!" "To make a fool of one's self?" The poor girl turned white to the lips as she repeated these insulting words. "What does this mean, Nelson?" "It means that you and I went off, like a couple of dunces, and got married!" Katharine stopped crying. Surprise, for a moment, kept her mute; but directly there came into her eyes a proud, almost fierce determination, that Thrasher had never witnessed before. "Mean what?" "That you are sorry for having married me." There was something in her face that startled him—that woman's character had a depth and strength which he had not dreamed of until then. It was not his habit to evade or equivocate much, but now he saw the necessity. "I haven't said that, and did not mean it, my sparrow-hawk. How could I?" "Then, what did you say?—what did you mean?" "Nothing, except that it was a great folly—but a very pleasant one—when we got married in that private way. It would have been better to have waited." "But it was you that urged me." "To the marriage, but not the secrecy, that was your own doings entirely, Kate. I wanted you to go at once and live with the old folks, while I went this voyage, but you begged and pleaded to stay with your mother, and what could I do but consent. Of course, as my wife, you must have lived with my family, so you preferred secrecy and your mother. It was a foolish arrangement altogether." "My poor mother was so sad and lonely then, I could not bear to leave her; besides, I did not dare tell her about it while she was in poor health—she would have taken on dreadfully—for somehow——" "Yes, I know she hated me." "No, not that; but mother has strange prejudices." "I should think she had. I have not forgotten her forbidding me the house; but for that——" "What were you saying, Nelson? your voice is very husky." "Well, if it was a weakness or a sin I have suffered for it keenly enough, Nelson. While my mother had those hard feelings I could not tell her. Oh, Nelson, it seemed as if I should die when the time for your return came and we heard nothing of the brig. If you had been lost, what would have become of me? No one would have believed that I had ever been married, no matter what I had said." "But you had the certificate?" "Yes, but the people here don't understand those things. They're used to a publishment and all that. They never would see the difference between Connecticut and York State. Then, if they had sent to my uncle he knew nothing about it, you remember, and could not have helped me. Besides, I didn't even know where to find the people that stood up with us." "Why, child, all these fears are nonsense. The certificate is enough." "But it's all of no consequence now. You are here and we can speak out. It isn't like a poor girl being all alone without knowing any thing of the law." |