The next afternoon Tom Fuller came down to the island again. Elizabeth and Elsie were quite alone, for Mellen had driven over to the village on some matter of business; but the sisters were not taking advantage of their solitude to indulge in one of those long, cozy, confidential chats which had been their habit in former years. Elsie was in the upper part of the house amusing herself after her own fashion, and Elizabeth sat in the little morning-room which had become her favorite apartment of late. It was a small room in the old part of the house, somewhat sombre in its character, but on a bright day relieved by a beautiful view of the sea which was afforded from the French windows, the only modern feature which Mellen had added to it. On a dark morning the apartment was gloomy enough; the ceilings were low, crossed with heavy carved beams that made their want of height still more apparent; the upper portion of the walls were hung with dark crimson cloth, met half way down by a wainscoating of unpolished oak, dark and stained with age. The furniture had been in the house since the Revolution; the massive chairs, each one of which was a weight to lift, had been covered with a fabric to match the hangings. The whole room had a quaint aspect, and was filled with a store of relics and curiosities which would have delighted a lover of the antique. Elsie detested the apartment and never would occupy it, but when alone Elizabeth sought it from choice; the darker and drearier the day the more pertinaciously she clung to the old room, where the shadows lay heavy and grim, and every sound was echoed with preternatural sharpness. But this day was bright and beautiful as summer itself. The apartment looked cheerful and picturesque, and Elizabeth made a pretty picture, seated by one of the open windows, with her light dress forming an agreeable contrast to the sombre draperies about her. She had a work-basket on the little spider-legged table by her side and a mass of embroidery on her lap, but the needle had fallen from her hold, her hands lay idly upon her knee, and she was looking out over the bright waters with a dreamy, wistful gaze, which had become habitual with her whenever the necessity for self-restraint was removed and she was free to suffer, unobserved. Tom entered the room in his usual haste, and found her sitting in this dreamy attitude; she started at the sound of his tread, and with the caution she was daily acquiring changed her listless position, and threw the mask of a smile over her face, which it was so dangerous to lift even for an instant. "Here I am," cried Tom; "back again, like a bad penny. I hope you are not beginning to hate the sight of my ugly face." He rushed towards her, upset the spider-legged table that was always ready to topple over on the least provocation, made a hopeless labyrinth of her embroidery silks, gave her a kiss of greeting, and hurried on with numberless questions, just as if he were in the greatest possible haste, and it was a necessity of life and death that he should throw off everything that happened to be on his mind before he dashed away. "And you are not tired of seeing me, Bessie, you are sure of that?" he repeated. "You are a silly fellow to ask such questions," she replied; "you know how glad I am to have you come." "You're a darling old girl," cried Tom, "and there's no more to be said about it." "Then, if you have finished, please pick up my unfortunate table. See what a state these poor silks are in." "I'm always in mischief," said Tom, contritely, restoring the table to its equilibrium with great difficulty; "I'm more out of place in a lady's parlor than an owl in a canary bird's cage." "Your mistakes are better than other men's elegancies," said Elizabeth, heartily. It rested her to be in Tom's society; with him she was not forced constantly to play a part, and he had been a great resource to her ever since his return. Many times she said to herself: "He would love me, whatever came—I can always depend on him." She was thinking something of the kind, just then, while she began assorting her silks; and Tom stood meekly by, longing to repair the mischief he had occasioned, but perfectly certain that he should only do a good deal more harm if he attempted it. Besides that, something else was in his mind—there always was before he had been five minutes in the house if Elsie did not make her appearance. He shuffled about, answered Elizabeth's questions haltingly, and at last burst out: "Where is the little fairy—has she gone out, too?" "Elsie, do you mean?" "Who else, of course? Where is she?" "Up in her room, I fancy," replied Elizabeth. "I don't see how you can bear her out of your sight for an instant," cried Tom; "I'm sure I couldn't if I lived in the house with her." "Nonsense, Tom!" "There is no nonsense about it; it's just the truth." Several times Elizabeth had attempted to point out to him the folly of going on in his old insane fashion, but either he would not listen or something interrupted their conversation. Now she determined to take advantage of the present opportunity and speak seriously with him. "I have brought her a paper of Maillard's sweet things," said Tom; "might I call or send for her?" He darted towards the door as he spoke, but Elizabeth stopped him. "Wait a moment, Tom," she said; "come back here." "Yes, of course; I'll be back in a flash—I'll just send her these traps," and he pulled a couple of tempting packages from his pocket, nattily tied with pink ribbons and got up generally in the exquisite taste which distinguishes everything from our Frenchman's establishment. "No," urged Elizabeth, "come here first; I have something to say to you, Tom—Elsie can eat her bon-bons after." Tom came back, rather unwillingly though, and stood leaning against the window like a criminal. "Sit down," said Elizabeth. "No, no! I like to stand! Well, what is it, Bessie?" "Tom," she said, seriously, "I am afraid you have forgotten the experience which cost you so much pain and drove you off to Europe; I fear you are making other and deeper trouble for yourself." "Oh, no, Bessie—it's of no consequence any way," returned Tom, turning fifty different shades of red at once, "What a pretty green that silk is." "It is bright blue, but no matter! So you wont listen to me, Tom?" continued Elizabeth. "My dear girl, did I ever refuse to listen in all my life!" cried Tom. "But you see, you're a little mistaken, Bessie; I'm not such a goney as I used to be." "That has nothing to do with the matter." "Oh, yes, it has; I mean, I don't allow myself to be such a dunce, even in my own thoughts. I never even think about—about—you know what I mean." Tom broke down and made a somewhat lame conclusion. "Oh, Tom, Tom!" Elizabeth said. "Well, there!" cried he, with sudden energy; "there is no use in standing here and telling you fibs! I do love her—I must love her—I always shall love her—hang me if I shan't!" He was in a state of great agitation now, and trembled all over as if he had been addressing Elsie herself. Elizabeth sighed wearily. "I thought so," she said; "I feared so." "You mean the dear girl will never care for me. How could any one expect her to—I couldn't—'tisn't in reason." "Then, Tom, she certainly ought not to treat you as she does and lead you on." "She doesn't lead me on." "But her manner does not forbid your attentions, and you are too worthy, dear cousin, for anything but honest dealing." "It's my fault—all my fault." Elizabeth shook her head. "You have the best heart and the worst head in the world," said she. "You musn't blame her," continued Tom; "I can't stand that! Pitch into me as often and as hard as you like, you never can say enough, but don't blame her." "Let us leave her share in the matter, then, out of the question," continued Elizabeth. "If you believe what you say, is it wise to run into danger as you do?" "There's no help for it, Bessie; I should die if I could not see her dear little face! Oh, you can't think what I suffered while I was gone—I didn't talk about it—I don't even want to think of it; but, Bessie, dear, sometimes I used to think I should go out of my senses." He was speaking seriously now; his face was absolutely pale with emotion, and his eyes—the one fine feature of his face—were misty with a remembrance of old pain. "Poor Tom," murmured Elizabeth, in her pitying way, always full of sympathy for the trouble of others, whatever her own might be; "poor, dear Tom, I know how hard it is." "No; you can't know, Bessie; you can't have the least idea! You don't know what it is to have something to hide—to go about with a secret gnawing at your heart—never able to open your lips—suffering night and day—" He stopped suddenly and looked at his cousin with wonder; she was leaning back in her chair, her face was pale as death, and her lips parted in a dreary sigh. Tom drew close to her chair and bent over her, with a look of anxious surprise on his disturbed features. "Are you sick, Bessie?" he asked. "No, no," she answered, controlling herself. His words brought up her own secret burden so vividly before her that for an instant she had been dreadfully shaken. "You look so pale; I'm afraid you are going to be ill." "Indeed, I am not," she answered. Tom knelt down by her on both knees, played with her embroidery silks, and finally said: "Bessie, since we're talking plainly, may I say something?" "Yes, Tom." "Somehow, since I came back from Europe, you don't seem so happy as you used—maybe it's only one of my blunders—but I have thought you looked troubled—like a person that was always expecting something dreadful to happen." She forced a smile upon her lips and then compelled them to answer him: "Oh, you foolish Tom!" "Then it is not so!" he urged. "You are not unhappy?" "How could I be unhappy—is not my life pleasant, prosperous beyond anything I could ever have hoped for?" "It seems so; that made me think it must be just one of my silly fancies." "Nothing more, Tom." "Mellen's the most splendid fellow in the world," pursued he; "and you couldn't well be sad with that little darling about you." Elizabeth took up her silks again. "Dismiss all such thoughts from your mind, Tom." "I shall be only too glad. But tell me once more that I am an over-anxious busybody, minding everybody's concerns but my own. You see, Bessie, I love you like a sister, and will stand by you, by Jupiter, always. But these stupid ideas of mine, there's no foundation for them?" "How could there be?" "That's what I say to myself always," cried Tom. "Well, dear, I won't think such nonsense again." "Do not, I beg; and never mention it to anybody." "There's no danger of that," said Tom. "But you know, if you should get unhappy or in trouble, there is always one old chap you could lean on." "I believe that, Tom; I do indeed." "And you would come to me, Bessie?" "If you could help me, yes. But trouble must come to all, Tom; and, generally, we must each bear our burdens alone." "How sad your voice sounds, Bessie." She made an effort to speak playfully: "You are getting all sorts of ridiculous fancies in your head; don't be so foolish." Tom was relieved by her manner, and began to laugh at his own ridiculous mistakes, rising from his knees and brushing the dust away with his handkerchief. "My head is a poor old trap," he said. "Well, well, I am glad you are happy—very glad." "And I want you to be happy, Tom." "I am, upon my word, I am! I don't allow myself to think any more or to look forward, but just live on, glad to be in the sunshine. 'Tisn't a bad world, after all, Bess; things usually come right in the end." If she could only believe it—if she could but accept his cheerful philosophy and his unwavering trust; but, alas! the sleepless dread at her heart prevented that. "And about my stupid self, Bessie," added Tom. "Yes, about your dear, good self," answered Elizabeth, glad to remove the subject from any connection with her secret dread. "And my useless bits of affairs," pursued Tom; "just let things rest as they are, it's the best way." "I don't wish to do anything to annoy you," she replied; "and you know very well I am the last person in the world to interfere——" "Oh, don't talk like that, or I shall think you are offended." "Not in the least, Tom; I only meant to say that it was my regard for your happiness that made me speak." "I know—I feel that, Bessie; but just let things go on! Perhaps I am asleep and dreaming, but the slumber is pleasant, so don't wake me; it's cruel kindness, dear." Elizabeth said nothing more; it was useless to pursue the subject; where Tom was concerned she saw plainly that it could do no good, his heart was fixed. |