The next day at four o'clock Rose had on her best gown and was bright-eyed and pink. Brighter-eyed and pinker than Tanqueray had seen her for many weeks. She was excited, not so much by the prospect of seeing Miss Holland as by the beautiful vision of her tea-table. There was a cake with sugar icing on it, and bread and butter rolled as Rose had seen it rolled at Fleet. She had set out the tea-service that her aunt had given her for a wedding-present. The table cloth had a lace edge to it which gratified Rose whenever she thought of it. Tanqueray had on his nicest suit, and Rose's gaze travelled up and down it, and paused in ecstasy at his necktie. "You do pay for dressin'," she said. "I do indeed," said Tanqueray. Rose got on very well at tea-time. It was marvellous how many things she found to say. The conversation really made itself. She had only to sit there and ask Miss Holland how she liked her tea, weak or strong, and if she took so much milk or a little drop more, and sugar, one lump or two lumps, and that sized lump or a little larger? She spun it out till George was ready to begin talking. And there came a beautiful and sacred silence while Rose made Tanqueray's tea and gave it him. After seven months it was still impossible for Rose to hide her deep delight in waiting on him. More than once her eyes turned from Jane to watch him in the wonderful and interesting acts of eating and drinking. For a moment Jane suffered an abominable pang as she realized the things that were permissible to Rose, the things that she could say to Tanqueray, the things that she might do for him. At first she had looked away so that she might not see these tender approaches of Rose to Tanqueray. Then she remembered that this was precisely what she had come out to see,—that she had got to realize Rose. And thus, as she brought herself round to face it fairly, she caught in a flash Rose's attitude and the secret of it. It was not a thing flung in her face to madden her, it had no bridal insolence about it, and none of the consecrated folly of the bride. It was a thing of pathos and of innocence, something between the uncontrollable tenderness, the divine infatuation of a mother, and the crude obsession of a girl uncertain of the man she has set her unhappy heart on; a thing, Rose's attitude, stripped of all secrecy by its sadness. But there was nothing abject in it. It was strong; it was militant under its pathos and its renunciation. With such a look Rose would have faced gates of death closing between her and Tanqueray. So Jane realized Rose. And she said to herself, "What a good thing Tanks never did care for me. It would be awful if I made her more uncertain of him." At this moment Tanqueray said, "How's Hambleby?" "He's not quite so well as he was," said Jane. "I'm sorry to hear that," said Tanqueray. "Is anybody ill?" said Rose. She was always interested in anybody who was ill. "Only Hambleby," said Tanqueray. "Who's he?" said Rose. "The man Jinny's in love with." Rose was shocked at this violation of the holy privacies. She looked reprovingly at Tanqueray. "Is your tea as you like it?" she inquired, with tact, to make it more comfortable for Jane. "I'm going to smoke," said Tanqueray. "Will you come to my den, Jinny, and talk about Hambleby?" Rose looked as if positively she couldn't believe her ears. But it was at Jane that she looked, not at Tanqueray. "No," said Jinny. "I don't want to talk about Hambleby. I want to talk to your wife." "You mustn't mind what 'e says," said Rose, when they were alone together. "'E sometimes says things to me that make me fair jump." "I didn't jump," said Jane, "did I?" "No. You took it a deal better than I should have done." It was odd, but Rose was ten times more at her ease since Tanqueray's awful reference to Hambleby. And she seemed happier, too. "You see," said Jane, "there wasn't much to take. Hambleby's only a man in a book I'm writing." "Oh—only a man in a book." Rose looked depressed. There was a silence which even Jane found it difficult to break. Then she had an inspiration. "I'm supposed to be in love with him because I can't think or talk about anything else." "That's just like Mr. Tanqueray," said Rose. "Only he isn't in love with the people in his books," said Jane. "He must think a deal of 'em." "He says he doesn't." "Well—'e's always thinkin' when he isn't writin'." There was trouble on Rose's face. "Miss 'Olland—'ow many hours do you sit at it?" "Oh, it depends." "'E's sittin' all day sometimes, and 'arf the night. And my fear is," said Rose, "'e'll injure 'is brain." "It will take a good deal to injure it. It's very tough. He'll leave off when he's tired." "He hasn't left off for months and months." Her trouble deepened. "Did 'e always work that 'ard?" "No," said Jane. "I don't think he ever did." "Then w'y," said Rose, coming straight to her point, "is he doin' it now?" They looked at each other; and somehow Jane knew why he was doing it. She wondered if Rose knew; if she suspected. "He's doing it," she said, "because he can do it. You've had a good effect on him." "Do you think, do you really think it's me!" "I do indeed," said Jane, with immense conviction. "And you think it doesn't hurt him?" "No. Does him good. You should be glad when you see him writing." "If," said Rose, "I could see 'im. But I've bin settin' here thinkin'. I lie awake sometimes at night till I'm terrified wonderin' wot's 'appenin', and whether 'is brain won't give way with 'im drivin' it. You see, we 'ad a lodger once and 'e overworked 'is brain and 'ad to be sent orf quick to the asylum. That's wot's frightened me." "But I don't suppose the lodger's brain was a bit like Mr. Tanqueray's." "That's wot I keep sayin' to myself. People's brains is different. But there's been times when I could have taken that old book away from him and hidden it, thinkin' that might be for his good." "It wouldn't be for his good." "No," said Rose, "I'm not that certain that it would. That's why I don't do it." She became pensive. "Besides, it's 'is pleasure. Why, it's all the pleasure he's got." She looked up at Jane. Her thoughts swam in her large eyes. "It's awful, isn't it," said she, "not knowin' wot really is for people's good?" "I'm afraid we must trust them to know best." "Well," said Rose, "I'll just let 'im alone. That's safest." Jane rose. "You mustn't worry," said she. "I don't," said Rose. "He hates worryin'." She looked up again into Jane's face as one beholding the calm face of wisdom. "You've done me good," said she. Jane stooped and kissed her. She kissed Tanqueray's wife. "Do you know," she said, "you are what I thought you would be." Rose's eyes grew rounder. "And what's that?" "Something very sweet and nice." Rose's face was a soft mist of smiles and blushes. "Fancy that," she said. "Why did you let her go away without telling me?" said Tanqueray, half-an-hour later. "I didn't think," said Rose. "We got talking." "What did you talk about?" She would not tell. |