We had only two or three of them in the year, and their slow approach stirred us to frenzy. In the dark ages, when I went to school, no one had yet discovered that play is more instructive than work, no one was piling up statistics to prove the educational value of idleness. In the absence of nature studies and athletics, we were not encouraged to spend our lives out of doors. In the absence of nerve specialists, we were not tenderly restrained from studying our lessons too hard. It is wonderful how little apprehension on this score was felt by either mothers or teachers. We had two months’ summer holiday,—July and August,—and a week at Christmas time. The rest of the year we spent at school. But can the glorified little children whose lives seem now to be one vast and happy playtime, can the privileged schoolgirls who are permitted to come to town for a matinÉe,—which sounds to me as fairy-like as Cinderella’s ball,—ever know the real value of a holiday? As well expect an infant millionaire to know the real value of a quarter. We to whom the routine of life was as inevitable as the progress of the seasons, we to whom Saturdays were as Mondays, and who grappled with Church history and Christian doctrine on pleasant Sunday mornings, we knew the mad tumultuous joy that thrilled through hours of freedom. The very name which from time immemorial had been given to our convent holidays illustrated the fulness of their beatitude. When one lives under The occasions for a congÉ sans cloche were as august as they were rare. “Mother’s Feast,” by which we meant the saint’s day of the Superioress, could always be reckoned upon. The feast of St. Joseph was also kept in this auspicious fashion,—which gave us a great “devotion” to so kind a mediator. Once or twice in the In the year of grace which I now chronicle, the Archbishop was going to Rome, and had promised to say good-by to us before he sailed. Those were troubled times for Rome. Even we knew that something was wrong, though our information did not reach far beyond this point. Like the little girl who couldn’t tell where Glasgow was, because she had not finished studying Asia Minor, we were still wandering belated in the third Crusade,—a It was the middle of May when the Archbishop came, and, as the weather “With happy hearts we now repair All in this joyous scene to share.” There were five verses. When we had finished, we curtsied again and sat down, while Mary Rawdon and Eleanor Hale played a nervous duet upon the piano. The Archbishop looked at us benignantly. Frances Fenton made the address. It was an honour once accorded to Elizabeth, but usually reserved as a reward for superhuman virtue. Not on that score had Elizabeth ever enjoyed it. Frances was first blue ribbon, first medallion, and head of the Children of Mary. There was nothing left for her but beatification. She stepped slowly, and with what was called a “modest grace,” into the middle of the room, curtsied, and began:— “Your children’s simple hearts would speak, But cannot find the words they seek. These tones no music’s spell can lend; And eloquence would vainly come To greet our Father, Guide, and Friend. Let hearts now speak, and lips be dumb!” “Then why isn’t she dumb?” whispered Tony aggressively, but I pretended not to hear her. I had little enough discretion, Heaven knows, but even I felt the ripe unwisdom of whispering at such a time. It was Mary Rawdon’s absence, at the piano, I may observe, that placed me in this perilous proximity. “Our reverence fond and hopeful prayer Will deck with light one empty place, And fill with love one vacant chair.” “What chair?” asked Tony, and again I pretended not to hear. “For e’en regret can wear a softened grace, And smiling hope in whispers low Will oft this cherished thought bestow: Within the Eternal City’s sacred wall, He who has blest us in our Convent hall Can now to us earth’s holiest blessing bring From God’s great martyr saint, Rome’s pontiff king.” At this point, Tony, maddened by my unresponsiveness, shot out a dexterous “They will be only too proud and happy,” we heard her murmur; and then she raised her voice. “Children,” she said impressively, This was an innovation! Put on our hats at four o’clock—the hour for French class—and walk to the woods with the Archbishop. It was delightful, of course, but a trifle awesome. If, in his ignorance, he fancied we should gambol around him like silly lambs, he was soon to discover his mistake. Our line of march more closely resembled that of a well-drilled army. Madame Bouron walked on his right hand, and Madame Duncan on his left. The ribbons, the graduates, and a few sedate girls from the first class closed into a decorous group, half of them walking backwards,—a convent custom in which we were wonderfully expert. The flanks of the army were composed of younger and less distinguished girls, while When we reached the lake, a tiny sheet of water with a Lilliputian island, we came to a halt. The Archbishop had evidently expressed some desire, or at least some readiness, to trust himself upon the waves. The boat was unmoored, and Frances Fenton and Ella Holrook rowed him carefully around the island, while the rest of us were drawn up on shore to witness the performance. We made, no doubt, a very nice picture in our white frocks and blue neck ribbons; but we were spectators merely, still far remote “My children, do you know any pretty songs?” “Oh, yes, your Grace,” answered Madame Bouron. “Then sing me something now,” said the Archbishop, still with that inscrutable smile. There was a moment’s hesitation, a moment’s embarrassment, and then, acting under instruction, we sang (or, at least, some of us did; there was “Ave Maria, we lift our eyes to thee; Ora pro nobis; ’tis night far o’er the sea.” The Archbishop listened attentively, and with an evident pleasure that must have been wholly disassociated from any musical sense. Then his smile deepened. “Would you like me to sing for you?” he said. “Oh, yes, if you please,” we shrilled; and Madame Bouron gave us a warning glance. “Be very still, children,” she admonished. “His Grace is going to sing.” His Grace settled himself comfortably in the boat. His amused glance travelled over our expectant faces, and sought as usual the little girls, now close to the water’s edge. Then he cleared his throat, and, as I am a Christian “In King Arthur’s reign, a merry reign, Three children were sent from their homes, Were sent from their homes, were sent from their homes, And they never went back again. “The first, he was a miller, The second, he was a weaver, The third, he was a little tailor boy, Three big rogues together.” “Can’t you join in the chorus, children?” interrupted the Archbishop. “Come! the last two lines of every verse.” “The third, he was a little tailor boy, Three big rogues together.” Our voices rose in a quavering accompaniment to his mellifluous notes. We were petrified; but, even in a state of petrification, we did as we were bidden. “The miller, he stole corn, The weaver, he stole yarn, And the little tailor boy, he stole broadcloth, To keep these three rogues warm.” “Chorus!” commanded the Archbishop; and this time our voices were louder and more assured. “And the little tailor boy, he stole broadcloth, To keep these three rogues warm.” “The miller was drowned in his dam, The weaver was hung by his yarn, But the Devil ran away with the little tailor boy, With the broadcloth under his arm.” There was a joyous shout from our ranks. We understood it all now. The Archbishop was misbehaving himself, was flaunting his misbehaviour in Madame Bouron’s face. We knew very well what would be said to us, if we sang a song like that, without the Archiepiscopal sanction, and there was a delicious sense of impunity in “But the Devil ran away with the little tailor boy, With the broadcloth under his arm.” Then the Archbishop stepped out of the boat, and there was a timid scramble to his side. The barriers were down. He had knocked at our hearts in the Devil’s name, and we had flung them wide. The return to the convent was like a rout;—little girls wedging their way in among big girls, the Second Cours contesting every step of the path with the First Cours, the most insignificant children lifted suddenly to prominence and distinction. I was too shy to do more than move restlessly on the outskirts of the crowd; but I saw Tony conversing affably with the Archbishop (and looking as gentle as she was intelligent), and Viola Milton kissing his ring with the assurance of an infant Aloysius. And our congÉ was only ten days off. This thought was left to gild our waking hours. We—Elizabeth, Marie, Tony, Lilly, Emily, and I—resolved ourselves immediately into a committee of ways and means, and voted all the money in the treasury for supplies. It was not much, but, if well laid out, it would purchase sweets enough to insure a midnight pang. The privilege of buying so much as a stick of candy was one rigidly reserved for holidays. “Mary” did our shopping for us. Mary was a hybrid, a sort of uncloistered One dozen oranges. One box of figs. One pound of caramels,—which were dear. Two pounds of walnut taffy. Three pounds of cinnamon bun. A fair allowance, I surmise, for six well-fed little girls. “I tell you what I’ll do,” said Marie, in an excess of generosity. “I’ll save up my wine, if you’ll lend me bottles to put it in.” We felt this to be noble. For some mysterious reason (she was never Clever though we deemed her, however, clever though we sometimes deemed ourselves, there was one in the school, younger, yet far more acute than any of us. Thursday was visitors’ day, and Lilly’s brother came to see “I want to tell you something,” she said lamely. “Viola has got some cigarettes. Jack gave them to her.” Cigarettes! Dynamite could not have sounded more overwhelming. Cigarettes, and in Viola Milton’s keeping! Never had a whiff of tobacco defiled the convent air. Never had the thought of such unbridled license entered into any heart. And Viola was ten years old. “I know what that means,” said Tony sharply. “She wants to come with us on the congÉ.” Lilly nodded. It was plain that Viola, having possessed herself of a heavy bribe, had persuaded her older sister to open negotiations. “Well, we won’t have her,” cried Tony vehemently. “Not if she has all the cigarettes in Christendom. “I never thought of such a thing,” pleaded Lilly. “I never even heard her do it.” “Well, we won’t have Viola, and you may go and tell her so,” repeated Tony with mounting wrath. “Go and tell her so right off. We won’t have a child of ten tagging round with us all day.” “Agnes is only eleven,” said Lilly. “How many cigarettes has she got?” It was Elizabeth who asked this pertinent question. “I don’t know. Jack gave her all he had.” “It doesn’t make any difference how many she has. I won’t have her,” flamed Tony. At this assertive “I,” Elizabeth lifted her head. Her light blue eyes met Tony’s sparkling brown ones. It was not the first time the two children had Lilly, being despatched to make inquiries, returned in two minutes with her little sister by her side. Viola was a bony child, all eyes and teeth, as ugly as Lilly was beautiful. Her sombre glance was riveted wistfully upon Elizabeth’s face. She was too wise to weaken her cause with words, but held out eleven little white objects, at which we looked enviously. “Seven from eleven leaves four,” murmured Emily. “I don’t want any,” said Viola, who was bidding high. She would have bartered her immortal soul to gain her point. “And I don’t want more than one,” said Lilly. “That will leave two apiece for the rest of you.” “Well?” asked Elizabeth, looking round the circle. They were just the thing. We found this out later on. “Oh, yes, let’s have them,” said Marie, who felt the responsibilities of a hostess. “Let’s,” said Emily, our silent member. “I won’t!” asseverated Tony, battling heroically for a lost cause. “I won’t have anything to do with the treat, if you let Viola in.” “Then don’t!” retorted Elizabeth, now sure of victory, and scornful of further dispute. Tony turned her back upon her venal friends, and marched off to another group of girls. There was no great novelty about this proceeding, but the imminence of the congÉ lent it an unwonted seriousness. “Of course she will,” said Elizabeth, “because she can’t play without us.” And Elizabeth was right. Before the first of June, Tony had “come round;” being persuaded to this condescension by Lilly the peacemaker. Every cluster of friends should look to it that there is one absolutely sweet-tempered person in the group. But one is enough. The first glorious thing about a congÉ was that we got up at seven instead of at quarter-past six, and the next was that we began to talk before we were out of our beds. Breakfast was so hilarious that only the fear of wasting our precious hours ever dragged us from the refectory, and up into the schoolroom, to prepare for the Given an area of over a hundred acres, with woods and orchards, with a deep ravine choked with tangled We played all morning and all afternoon, played until our strength and our spirits were alike exhausted; and then, when the shadows began to lengthen, and our vivacity to wane, we made ready for the mad carousal which was to close our day. A basement music room, as remote as possible from any chance of inspection, was chosen as the scene of revelry. It was not a cheerful spot; but it appeared reasonably safe. Hither we transported our feast, which, spread out upon a piano, presented a formidable appearance, and restored us to gayety and good humour. The advantage of childhood over riper years is its blessed slowness to recognize a failure. If a thing starts out to be a treat, why, it is a treat, and that’s the end of it. The cinnamon bun was certainly We ate everything, cake, fruit, and candy; we drank the wine (heroic young souls!), and, trembling with excitement, we lit the cigarettes,—a “It’s a shame Viola shouldn’t have one of her own cigarettes. I’ll give her my second.” “She can have one of mine, too,” said Emily. “Thank you,” returned Viola hastily. “I don’t want any. I gave them to you.” “Oh, do try one!” urged Marie. “Yes, do!” said Tony sardonically. “Do try one, Viola. They are anxious enough to get rid of them.” Valour met valour. “So do I,” smiled Tony. From this point, my recollections are vague. We talked about Madame Davide, and whether she really did not understand English, or only pretended not to,—a point which had never been satisfactorily settled. We talked about Madame Bouron, and her methods (which we deemed unworthy) of finding out all she knew. I added little to the sprightliness of the conversation, and after a while I slipped away. On the stairs a kindly fate threw me into the arms of Sister O’Neil, who had charge of the vestry, and who was carrying piles of clean linen to the dormitories. She was a friendly soul (nearly all the lay sisters were good to us), and she took possession I did lie very quiet, and, after a while, fell into a doze, from which the sound of footsteps woke me. Some one was standing at the foot of my bed. It was Tony. She looked a trifle more sallow than usual, but was grinning cheerfully. “I’m better now,” she said. The delicate emphasis on the now was like a condensed epic. “So am I,” I murmured confidentially. Tony disappeared, and in a few minutes was back again, comfortably attired in a dressing gown and slippers. She perched herself on the foot There was an abrupt pause. “Well?” I asked expectantly, though I had heard it all several times already; but Tony’s eyes were fixed on the little pile of clean linen lying on my chair. “Oh! I say,” she cried, and there was a joyous ring in her voice. “Here’s our chance. Let’s change all the girls’ washes.” I gazed at her with heartfelt admiration. To have passed recently through so severe a crisis,—a crisis which had reduced me to nothingness; and yet to be able instantly to think of such a charming thing to do. “Get up and help,” said Tony. I stumbled out of bed, and into my slippers. My head felt curiously light when I lifted it from my pillow, and I had to catch hold of my curtain rod for support. The dormitory floor heaved up and down. Tony was already at work, carrying the linen from one side of the room to the other, and I staggered weakly after her. There were thirty beds, so it took us some time to accomplish our mission; but “The labour we delight in physicks pain;” and it was with a happy heart, and a sense of exalted satisfaction, that I saw the last pile safe in the wrong alcove, and crawled back between my sheets.—“Something They entered more noisily than was their wont. The law ruled that a congÉ came to an end with night prayers, after which no word might be spoken; but it was hard to control children who had been demoralized by a long day of liberty. Moreover, the “Seven Dolours” dormitory was ever the most turbulent of the three; its inmates lacking the docility of the very little girls, and the equanimity of the big ones. They were all at what is called the troublesome age. There was a note of anxiety in Madame Chapelle’s voice, as she hushed down some incipient commotion. “I must have perfect silence in the dormitory,” she said. “You have There was a lull, and then—I knew it must soon come—a voice from the far end of the room. “I have thirty-seven’s clothes” (everything was marked with our school numbers), “instead of mine.” “Mary Aylmer, be quiet!” commanded Madame Chapelle. “But, Madame, I tell you truly, I have thirty-seven’s clothes. Who is thirty-seven?” “I am,” cried another voice,—Eloise Didier’s. “But I haven’t got your clothes, Mary Aylmer. I’ve got Alice Campbell’s. Here, Alice,—twenty-two,—come take your things.” “Who is thirty-three? Ruffled night-gown with two buttons off. Oh, shame!” sang out Marie jubilantly. “Children, will you be silent!” said Madame Chapelle, angry and bewildered. “Forty-two’s stockings want darning,” said a reproachful voice. It was very probable, for I was forty-two. “So do thirty-eight’s.” “Adelaide H. McC. Harrison,” Elizabeth read slowly, and with painstaking precision. “Haven’t you any more initials, Adelaide, you could have put on your underclothes?” “Look again, Elizabeth. Surely there’s a coronet somewhere?” interposed Eloise Didier sardonically. Adelaide was not popular in our community. “Three coronets, a sceptre, and a globe,” said Elizabeth. “Children,” began Madame Chapelle; but her voice was lost in the scurrying of feet, as girl after girl darted across the polished floor to claim her possessions, or to rid herself of some one else’s. They were, I well “May I ask the meaning of this disorder!” said Madame Rayburn coldly. She was surveillante, and was making the round of the dormitories, to see that everything was quiet after the day’s excitement. Madame Chapelle began a nervous explanation. There was some mistake about the laundry. None of the children had their own clothes. They were trying—rather noisily, she admitted—to “Sister O’Neil!” interrupted Madame Rayburn impatiently. “Sister O’Neil had nothing to do with it. Answer me quietly, children. Did you all find you had some one else’s clothes?” There was a murmur of assent,—a polite, subdued, apologetic sort of murmur; but, none the less, of universal assent. At that instant I remembered Sister O’Neil’s parting words to me, and, with the instinctive impulse of the ostrich, slid deeper in my little bed. A quick step crossed the dormitory. A firm hand drew my curtain. “Agnes!” said Madame Rayburn, in a terrible voice. Ah, well! Anyway, the congÉ was over. |