Miss Gannion nestled luxuriously back into the depths of her easy chair. "Do you know, Mr. Thayer, it is a very wonderful experience, this having a species of court musician?" He laughed the silent laugh she liked so well. It came from between close-shut teeth; but it lighted his whole face. "As wonderful as it is to have a good listener who always understands and rarely praises?" he asked. Under her thin, middle-aged skin, the flush rose to her cheeks, turning them to the dainty likeness of youth. "You say very pleasant things." "True ones. If this keeps on, I shall begin using you as critic for all my new songs." "Like the fabled dog? I wish you would. But, truly, I am not joking. You are quite spoiling me for my usual diet of recitals. Do you realize that, for the past two months, you Thayer smiled contentedly down at her, as he sat by the piano, with one muscular arm thrown across the rack. "Well, what of it?" he inquired. "Nothing, except that people say you are refusing engagements." "A fellow must have a little time to enjoy his friends," he returned coolly. "I can't be expected to sing, six nights a week." "Your logic betrays your artistic nature. You have sung at five recitals, this week. This is the sixth night; but you've not been silent." "You know you wanted to hear Faust sung again." "Yes, and so did Mrs. Stanley want you to sing at her house." He looked up sharply. "Who told you?" "Mr. Arlt." "Arlt shouldn't tell tales. But I had three good reasons for refusing: I don't like Mrs. Stanley; she doesn't treat Arlt as well as she treats her pug dog, and moreover you had asked me to dinner. I never sing after a good dinner." "But you mustn't refuse engagements." "I didn't. I kept one." "Engagements to sing, I mean. You seem to forget that you are a star." "All the more reason I should stop twinkling now and then. I can't be on duty, the whole time. Besides, Miss Gannion," he rose from the piano and came forward to her side; "we can't give out, all the time. We must stop occasionally to take something in, else our mental fuel runs low. I wonder if you realize that this is the one place in New York City where I can be entirely off my guard, entirely at home. A place like this means a good deal to an isolated man." "I am very glad," she said quietly. "Most people forget that a public singer has a private personality," he went on thoughtfully. "We are supposed to divide our time into even thirds, practising, singing and receiving compliments. It gets to be a positive delight to discuss the weather and the fashion in neckties." "And to sing by the hour for your friends?" she inquired. "It is our easiest way of speaking to them." She laughed. "But, on the other hand, you are demoralizing me completely. You have no idea what empty, formal affairs recitals seem to me now; they are "She might have a species of choral service evolved for social use," Thayer suggested dryly. "The Gregorian tones would lend dignity even to conventionalities, and they are quite within the powers of any amateur." There was an interval of silence which Miss Gannion employed in bringing herself back to the physical world around her. Thayer's singing always swayed her profoundly; it gave her the impression of the ultimate satisfaction of a wish which had haunted her whole life. During the past two months, she and Thayer had established relations of cordial friendship. They had met frequently in the world which already was clamorous for Thayer's appearing, and Thayer was a frequent guest at Miss Gannion's home. He always sang to her; it had become so much a matter of routine that now he never waited for an invitation. Once seated at the piano, talking and singing by turns, she allowed him to follow out the bent of his mood; but, wherever it led him, Thayer, meanwhile, had risen and was thoughtfully pacing the room. Miss Gannion shook off the last of her reverie and turned to watch him. "What is it, Mr. Thayer?" she inquired suddenly. He came back to the fire and, deliberately moving the trinkets on the mantel, made a place for his elbow. Then he hesitated, with his clear, deep-set eyes resting on her face. "I think I am going to ask your advice," he said slowly. "Or my approval. It amounts to the same thing in a man." It was a direct challenge, and it was made with deliberate intention. Accustomed as she was to He ignored the challenge. "No; it is advice whether to act at all. Later, when I have acted, it will be time to demand your approval." "But you may not like my advice." "Very possibly. I am not binding myself to follow it." Her color came again this time not altogether from pleasure. "Then why do you ask it?" "Because I need fresh light on the subject. As often as I go over it, I find myself in a mental blind alley, and I am hoping that, if I talk it over with you, I shall clear up my ideas and perhaps get some new ones." His tone was dispassionate, yet kindly. With a pang, Miss Gannion admitted to herself the futility of her ever hoping to gain so impersonal an attitude. She was intensely feminine, which is to say, intensely subjective. Talking to Thayer in his present mood gave her the feeling that unexpectedly she had collided with an iceberg. Glittering coldness is an admirable surface to watch; but not an altogether comfortable one "You know the people, one of them much better than I do." "Then it is not about yourself?" Thayer shook his head. "I rarely ask help in solving my own problems," he replied. Then, as he saw her face, he suddenly realized that he had hurt her in some unknown fashion. "That sounds rather brutal," he added; "but, if you will think it over a bit, you will see it is wise. I don't believe in wasting words, and there is no real use in talking some things over. A man knows he can't state his own problem impartially to someone else, so of course he isn't going to trust someone else's solution of the problem." Her smile came back again. "No," she assented; "but there is a certain comfort in talking things over." "Not for me. If I have anything to do, I grit my teeth and do it, and waste as little thought upon it as possible. Iteration makes good into a bore. It is best to let it alone. And of bad, the less said, the better, that is, when it is a matter "Beatrix?" "Yes. I have felt anxious about her lately, and I haven't known whether to keep still, or to speak. It all seems a good deal like meddling, and I really know her so little." It was unlike his usual directness to wander on in this fashion, and Miss Gannion wondered. She started to speak; then she thought better of it and leaned back in her chair. The ticking of the clock and the snapping of the fire mingled in a staccato duet. A stick burned in two and fell apart, with tiny, torch-like flames dancing on its upturned ends. Methodically Thayer bent over and piled up the embers. Then he spoke again. "And so I thought I would speak to you about it. You have known Miss Dane always, and you know New York and how it looks at such things. I imagine you take it more seriously, here in America. It is serious, God knows, and yet it may not amount to anything." Margaret Gannion straightened up and spoke with a sudden assumption of dignity which seemed to add inches to her moral and physical stature. "To what are you referring, Mr. Thayer?" "I beg your pardon. I thought you knew. I am talking about Lorimer." "What about him?" Man as he was, Thayer flinched under her keen eyes. All at once, he realized that Margaret Gannion included among her friends Beatrix Dane, and that it was Margaret Gannion's habit to fight for her friends. "I had hoped you would understand without my putting it into so many words. Lorimer has been my friend for years, and it seems rather beastly to begin talking him over; but—" "But?" Miss Gannion's tone was as hard and ringing as steel. "But he sometimes takes a little more wine than is altogether wise," Thayer replied, with brief directness. Miss Gannion dropped back in her chair. "Does—does he get—drunk?" she questioned sharply. "No. That is too strong a word. He is imprudent, foolish. Still, one never knows what may come." "Poor Beatrix!" Miss Gannion said softly. Thayer faced her again. "Understand me, Miss Gannion; I am not doing this for love of gossip. Miss Dane is Miss Gannion brushed her hair away from her face with an odd, bewildered gesture. "Wait," she said breathlessly. "I love Beatrix, and it makes me slow to take this in. How long has it been going on?" Thayer's lips tightened. "Ever since I have known him," he answered reluctantly. "Much?" "No, comparatively little." "Often?" "Well—" The lengthening of the word told its own story. "Does it increase?" His expression answered her, and she took the answer in perfect silence. It was a full minute before she spoke again; but when she did speak, her voice had the old, level intonation. "Are you willing to tell me just how far the trouble has gone, Mr. Thayer?" "It is a hard matter to measure. Lorimer drinks less than a good many men; but it takes less to upset him. In Germany, the students all drink, and he was with them. As a rule, he stopped in time, but occasionally he was a little silly. Once or twice it was worse." "How much worse?" The question was almost masculine in its direct brevity. "I helped him to bed." She compressed her lips. Then,— "Go on," she said. "I can't tell what happened while I was in Italy, and Lorimer had left Berlin before I went back there, so I didn't see him till I came to New York. At first, I thought he had stopped all that sort of thing. His color was better, his hand steadier. I knew the temptation was less here, and I hoped he was so taken up with Miss Dane that he wouldn't have time to get into the wrong set. The night of the Lloyd Avalons's recital, he was not quite himself, and I advised him to go to Washington while the matter blew over." "Strange I didn't hear of it," Miss Gannion said thoughtfully. "Dane and I saw to it that the story shouldn't "And since then?" "Only twice." "But twice is more than enough." "It shows that the trouble is still there, that one can't count on his promises," Thayer assented gravely. "He does promise?" "Yes, like a child. That is the pitiful part of it, pitiful and yet exasperating. He admits his own weakness, and is sorry and ashamed, as soon as he comes to himself. For a time, he is a model of caution and sobriety. Then he blunders into the way of temptation and makes a mess of it all." Unconsciously Thayer's voice betrayed his dislike of a weakness of which he had no comprehension. An instant later, he seemed to realize his own self-betrayal and he pulled himself up sharply. "I wish you knew Lorimer better, Miss Gannion. Then you would understand why I am telling you all this. He is so loyal, so generous to his friends, so full of talent. At GÖttingen, they called him Thayer broke the silence which followed, and his accent was resonant again. "There's no especial use in thrashing over the past. The present is none too good; but my question is simply in relation to the future." "And the question is?" Miss Gannion asked. "Whether we ought to tell Miss Dane," he answered briefly. "It will kill her." The feminine in Margaret Gannion was uppermost once more. "Such wounds are more likely to mangle than to kill." Thayer spoke grimly. "Poor Beatrix!" "She does love him, then? I didn't see how she could help it." Margaret Gannion's hands shut on a fold of her skirt. "She loves him better than she loves her life; but she loves right better than either." "And what is right?" "I am not sure," she confessed weakly. "I can't seem to analyze it at all. What do you think?" "That she ought to be told." "What good will it do?" "At least, it will put her on her guard." "Against what? From your own showing, it is like fighting an unseen enemy. One never knows when or where it will come. She will only be put under a terrible nervous strain, faced by a fear that will haunt her, day and night. Besides, she might break the engagement. Have you thought of that?" "It was of that I was thinking. She ought to have the facts, and be allowed to face the alternatives before it is too late. Miss Gannion," he turned upon her sharply; "can't you realize the pain it is to me to be saying this? I love Lorimer, love him as one man rarely loves another. Perhaps I love him all the more for his lack of strength. But that is no reason I should let him make havoc of a girl's whole life, perhaps of other lives to come. Miss Dane loves him; moreover, she is very proud. She is bound to suffer keenly on both scores." "Then you think—" "That the trouble is likely to increase." "And, if she breaks her engagement to him?" "That it will increase all the faster. She has a strong hold on him." "And you would run the risk of loosing this hold, when you know the danger to your friend?" "Yes, when I see the danger to Miss Dane." Miss Gannion's hands unclasped, and she looked up at him with the pitiful, drooping lips of a frightened child. Like Thayer, she too loved Lorimer. "It is terrible, Mr. Thayer. I can see no way out of the trouble; it stands on either side of the path. But do you think she could hold him, if she were to try?" "It is an open question. Lorimer is weak; but I am not sure how strong she is, nor how patient. If she could steady him and forgive him ninety-nine times, it is possible that, on the hundredth, she would have nothing to forgive. But that is asking too much of a woman, that she should sacrifice her pride and her hope to her loyalty and her love." "I think Beatrix would do it." "Perhaps. At least, though, she ought to have the right to choose for herself." Once more Miss Gannion mastered herself. "I am not sure. You make the alternatives certain ruin and possible salvation. I should cling to the chance." "And take the responsibility of silence?" "It is a responsibility; but I should assume it for the present. What we should say to her could never be unsaid. It might do good; it might do terrible harm. It is possible that the truth may come to her in some other way. I should certainly prefer that it might." He bent over the fire for a moment. Then he straightened up and threw back his shoulders, like a man relieved of the burden of a heavy load. "Then that is your final advice?" he asked slowly. She made answer just as slowly,— "Mr. Thayer, I am growing older than I used to be, and things don't look quite so plain to me as they did once. Motives mix themselves more, and I am not so ready to put my finger on my neighbor's nerve. If I were in your place, I—rather think I should say my prayers, and then wait." |