Berenice seemed to dwell always in the twilight. At first Matravers thought that the room was empty, and he advanced slowly towards the window. And then he stopped short. Berenice was lying in a crumpled heap on the low couch, almost within touch of his hands. She was lying on her side, her supple figure all doubled up, and the folds of her loose gown flowing around her in wild disorder. Her face was half hidden in her clasped hands. “Berenice,” he cried softly. Berenice was lying in a crumpled heap on the low couch She did not answer. She was asleep. He stood looking down upon her, his heart full of an infinite tenderness. She, too, had suffered, then. Her hair was in wild confusion, and there were marks of recent tears Then she opened her eyes and looked up at him. There was no more dreaming! The old, miserable passion flooded his heart and senses. His feet were upon the earth again! The whole world of those strange, poignant sensations, stronger because of their late coming, welled up within him. “Berenice!” She was only half awake, and she held up her soft, white arms to him, gleaming like marble through the lace of her wide “My love!” He stooped down, and her arms closed around him like a soft yoke. But he kissed her forehead so lightly that she scarcely realized that this was almost his first caress. “Berenice, you have been angry with me!” She sat up, and the lamplight fell upon his face. “You have been ill,” she cried in a shocked tone. “It is nothing. I am well. But to-night—I had a shock; I saw you with—Mr. Thorndyke!” Her eyes met his. The hideous phantom which had been dogging his steps was slain. He was ashamed of that awful but nameless fear. “It is true. Mr. Thorndyke has offered me an apology, which I am forced to believe “He is a bad man! He has spoken ill of you! He has already a wife!” “I am glad of it. I can obey my instincts now, and see him no more. Personally he is distasteful to me! I had an idea he was honest! It is nothing!” She dismissed the subject with a wave of the hand. To her it was altogether a minor matter. Then she looked at him. “Well!” “You never answered my letter.” “No, there was no answer. I came back.” “You did not let me know.” “You will find a message at your rooms when you get back.” He walked up and down the room. He knew at once that all he had done hitherto had been in vain. The battle was still before him. She sat and watched him with “Your white flower was born to die and to wither,” she said. “A night’s frost would have killed it as surely as the lowland air. It is like these violets.” She took a bunch from her bosom. “This morning they were fresh and beautiful. Now they are crushed and faded! Yet they have lived their life.” She threw them down upon the floor. “Do you think a woman is like that?” she said softly. “You are very, very ignorant! She has a soul.” He held out his hand. “A soul to keep white and pure. A soul to give back—to God!” Again she smiled at him slowly, and shook her dark head. “You are like a child in some things! You have lived so long amongst the dry bones of scholarship, “It is not teaching,” he cried; “it is temptation.” She turned upon him with a gleam of passion in her eyes. “Temptation!” she cried. “There spoke the whole selfishness of the philosopher, the dilettante in morals! What is it that you fear? It is the besmirchment of your own ideals, your own little code framed and moulded with your own hands. What do you know of sin or of purity, you, who have held yourself aloof from the world with a sort of delicate care, as though you, forsooth, were too precious a thing to be soiled with the dust of human passion and human love! That is where you are all wrong. That is where you make your great mistake. Suddenly her outstretched hands dropped to her side. Her voice became soft and low; her dark eyes were dimmed. “Come to me, and you shall know. I will show you in what narrow paths you have been wandering. I will show you how beautiful a woman’s love can make your life!” “If we can love and be pure,” he said hoarsely, “what is sin? What is that?” He was standing by the window, and he pointed westwards with shaking finger. The roar of Piccadilly and Regent Street came faintly into the little room. She understood him. “You have a great deal to learn, dear,” she whispered softly. “Remember this first, and before all, Love can sanctify everything.” “But they too loved in the beginning!” She shook her head. “That they never could have done. Love is eternal. If it fades or dies, then it never was love. Then it was sin.” “But those poor creatures! How are they to tell between the true love and the false?” She stamped her foot, and a quiver of passion shook her frame. “We are not talking about them. We are talking about ourselves! Do you doubt your love or mine?” “I cannot,” he answered. “Berenice!” “Yes!” “Did you ever tell—your husband that you loved him?” “Never!” “Did he love you?” “I believe, so far as he knew how to love anything,—he did.” “And now?” She waved her hand impatiently. “He has forgotten. He was shallow, and he was fond of life. He has found consolation long ago. Do not talk of him. Do not dare to speak of him again! Oh, why do you make me humble myself so?” “He may not have forgotten. He may have repented. He may be longing for you now,—and suffering. Should we be sinless then?” She swept from her place, and stood before him with flashing eyes. “I forbid you to remind me of my He stretched out his hands and held hers tightly. “Berenice, if you were alone in the world, and there was some great barrier to our marriage, I would not hesitate any longer. I would take you to myself. Don’t think too hardly of me. I am like a man who is denying himself heaven. But your husband lives. You belong to him. You do not know whether he is in prosperity, or whether he has forgotten. You do not know whether he has repented, or whether his life is still such as to justify She wrenched her hands away from his. There was a bright, red spot of colour flaring on her cheeks. Her eyes were on fire. “You are mad!” she cried; “you do not love me! No man can know what love is who talks about doubts and scruples like you do! You are too cold and too selfish to realize what love can be! And to think that I have stopped to reason, to reason with you! Oh! my God! What have I done to be humbled like this?” “Berenice!” “Leave me! Don’t come near me any more! I shall thrust you out of my life! You never loved me! I could not have loved you! Go away! It has been a hideous mistake!” “Berenice!” “My God! Will you leave me?” she moaned. “You are driving me mad! I hate you!” Her white hand flashed out into the darkness, as though she would have struck him! He bowed his head and went. |