I will not say that Philip’s sleep was broken by this question, but it undoubtedly recurred to his mind the first thing in the morning when he jumped out of bed very late for breakfast, and the events of the past night and the lateness of the hour at which he got to rest came back upon him as excuses in the first place for his tardiness. And then, which was remarkable, it was not the scene in the play in which he had been most interested which came to his mind, but a vision of that box and the man standing in front of it staring at him through the black tubes of the opera-glass which came before Philip like a picture. Uncle John had said it was at the ladies behind, but the boy felt sure it was no lady behind, but himself, on whom that stare was fixed. Who would care to stare so at him? It faintly gleamed across his thoughts that it might be He came down full of these thoughts, and rather ashamed of being late, wondering whether his mother would have waited for him (which would have annoyed him), or if she would have finished her breakfast (which would have annoyed him still more). Happily for Elinor, she had hit the golden mean, and was pouring “What?” she cried, with a startled look in her eyes. One thing that puzzled him was that she was so very easily startled, which it seemed to Philip had never been the case before. “Well,” he said, “the lady was there whom Uncle John met in the park—and the girl with her—and I believe the little dog. She made all sorts of signs to him, but he took scarcely any notice. But that’s not all, mother——” “It’s a good deal, Pippo——” “Is it? Why do you speak in that choked voice, mother? I suppose it is just one of his society acquaintances. But the thing was that before the last act somebody else came forward to the front of the box, and fixed—I was going to say his eyes, I mean his opera-glasses upon us.” Philip had meant to say upon me—but he had produced already so great an effect on his mother’s face that he moderated instinctively the point of this description. “And stared at us,” he added, “all the rest of the time, paying not the least attention to any “Nothing, Pippo; nothing,” said Elinor, faintly, stooping to lift up a book she had let fall. “Go on with your story. I am very much interested; and then, my dear?” “Mother,” cried Philip, “I don’t know what has come over you, or over me. There’s something going on I can’t understand. You never used to have any secrets from me. I was always in your confidence—wasn’t I, mother?” It was not a book she had let fall, but a ring that she had dropped from her finger, and which had to be followed over the carpet. It made her red and flushed when she half raised her head to say, “Yes, Pippo—you know—I have always told you——” Philip did not remark that what his mother said was nothing after all. He got up to help her to look for her ring, and put his arm round her waist as she knelt on the floor. “Yes, mamma,” he said, tenderly, protectingly, “I do know: but something’s changed; either it’s in me that makes you feel you can’t trust me—or else it is in you. And I don’t know which would be worst.” “There is no change,” she said, after a moment, for she could not help the ring being found, and immedi The boy laughed as he raised her up, still holding her with his arm. “Believe the best I can! Well, I don’t think that will be a great effort, mother. Only to think that you can’t trust me as you always have done makes me wretched. We’ve been such friends, haven’t we, mamma? I’ve always told you everything, or at least everything except just the nonsense at school: and you’ve told me everything. And if we are going to be different now——” “You’ve told me everything!” the boy was as sure of it as that he was born. She had to hold by him to support herself, and it cost her a strong effort to restrain the shiver that ran through her. “We are not going to be different,” she said, “as soon as we leave London—or before—you shall know everything about this business of mine, Pippo. Will that satisfy you? In the meantime it is not pleasant business, dear; and you must bear with me if I am abstracted sometimes, and occupied, and cross. “But, mother,” said Philip, bending over her with that young celestial-foolish look of gravity and good advice with which a neophyte will sometimes address the much-experienced and heavily-laden pilgrim, “don’t you think it would be easier if it was all open between us, and I took my share? If it is other people’s secrets I would not betray them, you know that.” Unfortunately Elinor here murmured, scarcely knowing what words came from her lips, “That is what John says.” “John,” said the boy, furious with the quick rage of injured tenderness and pride, “Uncle John! and you tell him more, him, an outsider, than you tell me!” He let her go then, which was a great relief to Elinor, for she could command herself better when he was a little farther off, and could not feel the thrill that was in her, and the thumping of her heart. “You must remember, Pippo,” she said, “what I have told you, that my present very disagreeable, very painful business is about things that happened before you were born, which John knew everything about. He was my adviser then, as far as I would take any advice, which I am afraid never was much, Pippo,” she said; “never, alas! all my life. Granny will tell you that. But John, always the kindest friend and the best brother in the world, did everything he could. And it would have been better for us all if I had taken his advice instead of always, I fear, always my own way.” Strangely enough this cheered Pippo and swept the She had resumed her seat, and her face was turned away from him. Also the exquisite tone of complacency and innocent self-appreciation with which Philip expressed this wonder helped her a little to surmount the situation. Elinor could have laughed had her heart been only a trifle less burdened. She said: “Are you sure it was at you?” “Uncle John said something about ladies behind us, but I am sure it was no ladies behind. It might, of course,” the boy added, cautiously, “have been him, you know. I suppose Uncle John’s a personage, isn’t he? But after all, you know, hang it, mother, it isn’t easy to believe that a fellow like that would stare so at Uncle John.” “Poor John! It is true there is not much novelty about him,” said Elinor, with a tremble in her voice, which, if it was half agitation, was yet a little laughter too: for there are scarcely any circumstances, however painful, in which those who are that way moved by nature are quite able to quench the unconquerable laugh. She added, with a falter in which there was no laughter, “and what—was the—fellow like? “All that I could see was that he was a tall man. I saw his large shirt-front and his black evening clothes, and something like grey hair above those two big, black goggles——” “Grey hair!” Elinor said, with a low suppressed cry. “He never took them away from his eyes for a moment, so of course I could not see his face, or anything much except that he was more than common tall—like myself,” Pippo said, with a little air of pleased vanity in the comparison. Like himself! She did not make any remark. It is very doubtful whether she could have done so. There came before her so many visions of the past, and such a vague, confused, bewildering future, of which she could form no definite idea what it would be. Was it with a pang that she foresaw that drawing towards another influence: that mingled instinct, curiosity, perhaps admiration and wonder, which already seemed to move her boy’s unconscious mind? Elinor did not even know whether that would hurt her at all. Even now there seemed a curious pungent sense of half-pleasure in the pain. Like himself! So he was. And if it should be that it was his father, who for hours had stood there, not taking his eyes off the boy (for hours her imagination said, though Pippo had not said so), his father who had known where she was and never disturbed her, never interfered with her; the man who had summoned her to perform her martyrdom for him, never doubting—Phil, with grey hair! To say what Young Philip had not the faintest light or guidance in the discovery of his mother’s thoughts. He was much more easy and comfortable now that there had been an explanation between them, though it was one of those explanations which explained nothing. He even forgave Uncle John for knowing more than he did, moved thereto by the consolatory thought that John’s advice had never been taken, and that his mother had always followed her own way. This was an incalculable comfort to Pippo’s mind, and gave him composure to wait calmly for the clearing up of the mystery, and the restoration of that perfect confidence between his This occupied some part of the forenoon, and Philip was happy. But when he had completed his tale and began to feel the necessity of going out, and remem “To the Row. I sha’n’t know the people except those who are in Punch every week, and I shall envy the fellows riding—but at least it will be something to see.” “I wish you would not go to the Row, Pippo.” “Why, mother? Doesn’t everybody go? And you never were here at this time of the year before.” “No,” she said, with a long breath of despair. No; of all times of the year this was the one in which she had never risked him in London. And, oh! that he had been anywhere in the world except London now! Philip, who had been watching her countenance with great interest, here patted her on the shoulder with condescending, almost paternal, kindness. “Don’t you be frightened, mother. I’ll not get into any mischief. I’ll neither be rode over, nor robbed, nor run away. I’ll take as great care of myself as if you had been there.” “I’m not afraid that you will be ridden over or robbed,” she said, forcing a smile; “but there is one thing, Pippo. Don’t talk to anybody whom you—don’t know. Don’t let yourself be drawn into—— If you should meet, for instance, that lady—who was in the theatre last night.” “Yes, mother?” “Don’t let her make acquaintance with you; do “Why, mother,” he said, elevating his eyebrows, “how could I be uncivil to a lady?” “Because I tell you,” she cried, “because you must—because I shall sit here in terror counting every moment till you come back, if you don’t promise me this.” He looked at her with the most wondering countenance, half disapproving, half pitying. Was she going mad? what was happening to her? was she after all, though his mother, no better than the jealous foolish women in books, who endeavoured at all costs to separate their children from every influence but their own? How could Pippo think such things of his mother? and yet what else could he think? “I had better,” he said, “if that is how you feel, mother, not go to the Row at all.” “Much better, much better!” she cried. “I’ll tell you what we’ll do, Pippo—you have never been to see—the Tower.” She had run over all the most far-off and unlikely places in her mind, and this occurred to her as the most impossible of all to attract any visitor of whom she could be afraid. “I have changed my mind,” she added. “We’ll have a hansom, and I will go with you to see the Tower.” “So long as you go with me,” said Pippo, “I don’t care where I go.” And they set out almost joyfully as in their old happy expeditions of old, for that long drive through London |