Oh, how much more doth beauty beauteous seem, Shakspeare's Sonnet. How awful is the feeling with which morning breaks in a house where sudden grief and desolation has been wrought. Like Adam and Eve in the garden, we shrink from each other, as if we feared to read our own feelings in the faces of others, whose sufferings only embitter our own. The stillness of the past night broken by household sounds usually so familiar as to attract no Poor Amy! Mabel's love had thrown a kind of halo round the orphan child, and those who did not love her for her own, loved her for Mabel's sake. Old John went heavily to his work, to move the benches and other signs of the last evening's simple pleasure. "Miss Mabel shall not see them again," he said to himself; "I cannot give her much comfort—but I may spare her a little pain." Mr. Ware and his sister had gone home, after affording all the comfort and assistance in their power. Mrs. Lesly had been persuaded to lie down, for, terrified and ill, she needed repose, and Mabel, in grief, as in gladness, always took the lead. Lucy, exhausted and spiritless, too weary to get up, and too irresolute to undress, had When she again opened her eyes, the noon-day light was streaming in upon her bed, and, to her great surprise, Mabel was standing by her; she was pale as the dead, and her countenance gave evidence of the agony of the last few hours—but there was a pale light in her eyes, and a still repose about her, that seemed to hallow the grief they concealed. "I am glad you are awake," she said, in a voice scarcely above a whisper—"I feared you might be ill—you slept so long." Lucy's eyes were swollen with weeping and watching, and she looked at her for a moment in despairing silence; at last she raised herself, and seizing Mabel's hand, grasped it eagerly. "Oh, Mabel, Mabel," said she, "what have I done—where can I hide my face?" And she sank again upon the bed, and buried her face in the pillow. "You meant me no harm," replied her cousin—"at least, not much—and I forgive "Oh, how I despise myself! to think that I am lying here while you are waiting on me." "Well, dear Lucy, get up now, for you will be better doing something, and I cannot help pitying you here alone." "Then tell me something I can do for you. Oh, I will do anything, but I cannot get up to sit as I did last night." "This is Saturday," replied Mabel, "and there are many things you can do for me, which will enable me to be entirely with my poor Amy. Shall I leave them to you?" "Oh, yes," cried Lucy, jumping up, and throwing her arms round her; "you are an angel—I cannot forgive myself—yet you forgive me before I ask you." Mabel kissed her silently, and gliding from the room, was soon again by her sister's bed. Amy was feverish, and perpetually wanted "It was very naughty of me," she whispered, "to get into the swing, Mabel dear, when you told me not in the morning. Will you forgive me?" "You are in pain, love," said Mabel, tremulously; "and I cannot call you naughty now." "Then I am glad you have taught me not to want to be told—but I shall not be happy till you just say you forgive me." "My own darling, I forgive you a thousand times—would that I could suffer instead of you." "If I had not done wrong, I should not so much mind," said Amy, thoughtfully; "but give me a little water, dear." Mabel held the water to her lips, and Amy looked at her earnestly as her hand trembled. "Do not cry, Mabel dear," said she, in a feeble voice, "I shall very soon be well again." And weary with the pain she was bearing, without a murmur, she closed her eyes. Mabel's restrained tears fell fast, for well she knew that years to come might find her the same helpless invalid as she now lay before her. The surgeon had given little hope, even in the first moment, when it is seldom withheld; and she threw herself upon her knees, and covered her face with her hands. Amy's fortitude and patience, while it deeply moved her, made her thankful to find that her early lessons had not been bestowed in vain. Meanwhile Lucy roused herself with a stronger desire to be really useful than she had felt for years. Mrs. Lesly had gone to sit with her two children, so that she required nothing from her. She felt Mabel could not more effectually have forgiven her than by allowing But idle habits are not easily thrown aside with the distaste for them; and, as the day wore on, she began to feel so fatigued that she could not think how Mabel managed to do everything she did on ordinary days—when, spite of her desire to please her, she felt her strength fail in a few hours. "But I have not been brought up like Mabel," she thought, too willing to throw the blame on others, if by so doing she at all removed it from herself. "How can she ever get through it," she said to herself, eying disconsolately the large basket of clean linen, caps, and frills, which Betsy had just laid down She forced herself, however, to attempt it with many a sigh over its difficulties. She had scarcely finished her task, when she saw Clair coming up to the house, and, feeling a better conscience from her exertions, for her spirits were easily elated, she went down stairs to meet him. When she entered the sitting-room, where, not venturing to knock or ring, he had already seated himself, she found him with his head buried in his hands, which rested on the table before him. He looked up as she entered, and a momentary shudder passed over him, which she could not help perceiving. His face was deadly pale, and his features drawn together, and bearing the traces of deeper thought than that in which he usually indulged. He had indeed done many things more careless, and ten times as wrong, but the consequences had never followed so rapidly nor been so heart-rending. "Oh, you have suffered," exclaimed Lucy, "and what a night I have passed!" "If you can see Miss Lesly," returned Clair, scarcely heeding her observation, "ask her, in mercy, to see me for a few minutes." His first thoughts are of Mabel, thought Lucy, with ready jealousy, not one kind word for me. "Will you?" said he, seeing her hesitate, "will you ask her to see me? What does she say? How does she bear it? Does she reproach me?" "What question shall I answer first?" said Lucy, with a little of her returning levity. Clair bit his lip, and looked at her with surprise, but Lucy quickly recovering herself, said quietly, "She bears it as we might have expected from her, she never spoke of you—and forgave me before I dared ask for forgiveness, and she would not suffer her servant to reproach me to her." "Then there is some hope for me," he exclaimed, Lucy burst into tears. "What!" thought she, "was I earning for Mabel, when I was trying to shew how much more nerve and spirit I possessed?" Clair sat in silence, he did not spring to her side and take her hand, soothing her, as only a lover knows how; and she left the room to seek Mabel with feelings of indescribable remorse. Having delivered her message to Betsy, she locked herself in her room, and once more gave way to the most passionate grief. Clair was left only a short while alone, before Mabel entered the room. One glance at her pale cheek and sorrowful countenance, was sufficient to tell, at once, how great the suffering had been, and how it had been borne. "Ah, Miss Lesly," he began, hurriedly, "can you ever look upon me again without shuddering? I, who have been the cause of this dreadful, desolating blow. Is it possible you can ever forgive me? but I know you can; were I the vilest person on this earth you would forgive me, if I asked it, but never will you look on me without lamenting the horrid scene I shall always recall. Yet, I must hear your forgiveness, and oh! if you could know what I have suffered, in these few last wretched hours, you would pity me." "I should not do you justice, Captain Clair," replied Mabel, trying to speak steadily, "if I did not pity the pain you must feel in having been the most unwilling cause of such an accident; but you must not forget that it was unintentional: and I forgive you, from my heart, for any share you may have had in this unhappy accident." "They tell me," said he, shuddering, "that she never can be quite well again. Oh!" cried "You are but the instrument in a Hand mightier than your own," replied Mabel. "Few punishments can be so great," replied Clair, bitterly, "as to be chosen for the instrument of justice. It is only the worst soldier in the army that is forced to inflict death on his condemned brother. You will hate the instrument that has been raised to afflict you?" "Should I not then be rebellious against the Hand that raised it?" replied Mabel. "But, for my sake and your own, command your feelings. I dare not think, yet, and you would force me to do so. Why this has been suffered I must not ask now, for my faith may be too small for argument, while grief has almost robbed me of my senses. But I can see that you may have been made the unwilling cause, possibly that you may think. Do not Clair almost held his breath while she spoke, and then exclaimed, with a soldier's energy, as his eye seemed to have caught the fire which had died in hers, "I will, I will! You have doubly forgiven, for you have bestowed thoughts which inspire me with hope. You," said he, as he respectfully raised her hand to his lips, "you Mabel gently withdrew her hand, and, excusing herself from staying longer, left him to indulge the new reflections which her words had awakened. |