Ye glittering stars! how fair ye shine tonight. And, oh, thou modest moon! thy silvery light Comes streaming through these iron bars before me. How clear and silent is this lovely night! How quiet and how bright! I nothing hear, nor aught can hear Me when I speak, but stone and iron that I fear; I, shunned by all, as if alone I'd go to Hell; I, alone in chains! Ah, me, the cruel spell That brought me here. Heaven could not cheer me Within these cursed walls—within this dark and dreary cell, This gloomy, cold, and solitary Hell. And thou, O Time! the only thing that's not my foe— O Time! O Time! thou passeth on so slow, Keeping my soul in terror, in bondage, and in woe; Was I to blame? I was, they say; they say 'tis so. Oh, God! will this deep crimson, aye, black stain My nervous system always strain! Will my foul crime forever haunt my brain? Must I live here in earthly fear, and never, never hear The sweetest voice to me of all, I've heard not for a year? Must I this torture feel, year after year? Live, die in Hell, and yet a Paradise so near? Wilt Thou, Oh, God! wilt Thou not hear? 'Tis I, 'tis I they all do fear. Am I to Thee, O Christ, as dead? Thou who sought The lonely prisoner in his dismal cell, and to him taught The true and only law to govern man—Thy love, Which can be only reached by prayer to Thee above? In this cold and darkened cell, dost Thou reprove My soul? Dost Thou doom it to endless misery? Am I so wicked, sinful, that I cannot move Thy loving kindness, to a slight reprove? Ah, me, ah, me, 'tis love Thou sayest—love. Canst I at this late day by full repentance see The divine, the holy, ever cleansing love In Thee? What, can it be that I am lost and'll never know thy bliss? And for my cruel, wicked crime no joy above all this? What, world of sin! What, never? Is my destiny Hell? Is that my cruel sentence because in sin I fell? Aye, I did fall! Into that dark and fathomless pit, And now in Hell my soul has fell, and for Hell it is not fit: Into that misery eternal, where nothing lives but all's infernal— Is there my future—is it there? My thoughts they burn my head, my heart 'twas, ah, 'twas dead— But now it lives, and in my breast does burn: Those pains, and, severe as they were, they flew, yes, flew away, And being absent for awhile, remorse came in by day. Oh, God, Oh, God, I am not fit for this infernal Hell! Oh, mercy, mercy! my destiny, 'tis here that I must dwell. Away! away! ye fiery fiends, I am among you now, O Christ, O Savior of the sinner! To Satan must I bow? Pray, take me back to earth again, and test me one and all, And let me live anew my life and see if I will fall. Test me, test me once again, let me hear the old church bell, 'Cause now I'm so much steeped in sin that I'm not fit for Hell. Oh, horrors! horrors! hear the groans of tortured victims there, Some young, and many are quite old, I know it by their hair! Poor, poor, poor wretches, see them there, all bleeding and in chains; I know they realize their fate, because they all have brains. Is this the horrid, horrid place my mother taught was Hell? Oh, see those brutal fiery fiends, they call them "Imps" you know, And many an one has feared them here, because of sin he'd sown. Just see the demons of the deep! Just hear their hellish tones! Then floating back on brimstone air comes mocking, mocking groans. See, see the devils how they dance, with brimstone torches how they prance; What! can it be they look like men and 'stead of hearts they have but sin And grinning hang around me? Oh, fearful, fearful fire of hell, what can it be within? I'm now in Purgatory waiting for the time When by the law of a just God I'll be removed from here, And by the law of Christ divine, of thee I'll have no fear. Hark! List! From yonder corner comes loud cries, Oh, let me hold my aching, bursting head! They come from some poor wretch that dies, And many an one may mourn him now as dead. I see him! I see him! There he is! My murdered victim now Appears before me. That is him! and to him I must bow. Oh, his cries, his groans, they haunt me To the bottom of my wicked heart. Can it be That I must dwell forever in this wretched misery? Horrors! See him now reach out his bony hand To grasp me firmly by the throat and hold me like a band. Take me, demons, if you please, take me into Hell! Anything you choose may do—remove me from this cell! My soul, my soul, awake! awake! They come! they come! The devil's come to take—Old Satan, I am thine! Away my soul will ever roll through torturing, scorching Hell, And down into the blackest depths my soul is cast pell-mell. Oh, what a fate for man to meet—speak, Satan! speak, I say! And with your torturing, devilish deeds—my ruin! no delay! What dumb! Old Satan, canst thou speak? Look here And speak thy want! I'm now right crisp and hard in sin and haven't any fear. Take me, demons! Take me, quick! I hear the awful knell Of the roaring, moaning billows, and the bitterness of Hell. Take me, Satan, take me! as my fate is firmly sealed, While ye in Hades do wake me, and o'er me the batoon wield. What! What! Am I mistaken? Was it only but a dream? I, still living here on earth—oh, how real it all did seem. Could I now just one chance have and in mercy be forgiven, I would have respect for all and send prayers right up to heaven. When on earth Christ did come to save sinners from their fate, Any time they'd turn to Him they'd find 'twas not too late. Holy Savior, heavenly dove, Thou who reigns supreme above! Could I only have good sight, that I could see my sad plight, I would always to Thee cling, and to Thee cling with my might. Now, to Thee let me give thanks, 'cause 'twas only a bad dream. But its horrors to me cling, 'cause so real it all did seem. |