I am musing to-night in the fire-light’s glow, And watching the pictures that come and go; Like dissolving views on a magic screen Is the witchery of this changing scene; Though half I’m dreaming, though half awake, I fear to move lest the spell I break, Lest my fairy castles will break and fall, And down will tumble each beautiful wall. Thus still in a stupor I sit and gaze At the glowing embers and wanton blaze; I am smiling at Fancy; she tries in vain To lure me along with the mad’ning train That follow her footsteps—that to her cling, As flowers that garland the steps of spring; In moody silence I sit apart, Till memory conquers my sullen heart. Sweet Memory! sprite of my golden past! Your tinseled veil o’er me is cast; Subdued I yield like one enchained, And yet my freedom is only feigned; Back through the aisles of years that are gone, A willing captive you lead me on, Where I gleaned unbidden the joys of youth While the world was blossoming with love and truth. Before my heart could interpret a sigh, Or a tear-drop’s shadow creep into my eye, Ere I’d missed from the circle of friendship’s chain The link once lost that we ne’er regain, The future to me was a vast expanse, Its depth I could solve at a single glance, Knew not of the troubles that torture the soul Hidden away in its sober fold. Yet, to-night, as I dream in the gathering gloom, Only friends that are dear softly enter my room, Those who gladdened my life in its season of pain, Like a gleam of the sunshine along with the rain; These, these are the guests that encircle my hearth, Who come gliding like spirits back to the earth. What communion we hold only those ever know Who sit musing alone in the fire-light’s glow. |