How long have you been waiting? Not so long? I’m glad of that. You found the place at once. Well, there’s the Campus Martius, when you’re there You see above this Collis Hortulorum, A good place for two men like us to meet: Here’s where luxurious souls have their abodes. That’s Sallust’s garden there. They do not care So much about us as some others do. There is a tolerance comes from being rich, An urbane soul is fashioned by a villa. Our faith is not to these a wicked thing, A deadly superstition as some deem it. But Mark, my son, there’s Rome below you there— What temples, arches, under the full moon! Here let us sit beside this chestnut tree, And while the soft wind blows out of the sea Let’s finish up our talks. You must know all Wherewith to write the story ere I die Beneath the wrath of Nero. See that light, Faint like a little candle—I passed there. That’s one of our poor men, they make us lamps Wherewith to light the streets and Nero’s gardens. We shall be lamps they’ll wish to snuff in time. And I was telling them about the night When in Gethsemane you followed Him, Having a cloth around your naked body. And how you laid hold on him, left the cloth And fled. But when you write this you can say “A certain young man,” leaving out your name, You may not wish to have it known ’twas you Who ran away, as I would like to hide How I fell into sleep and failed to watch, And afterwards declared I knew Him not: But as for me omit no thing. The world Will gain for seeing me rise out of weakness To strength, and out of fear to boldness. Time Has wrought his wonders in me, I am rock, Let hell beat on me, I shall stand from now! Then don’t forget the first man that he healed. There’s deep significance in this, my son, That first of all he’d take an unclean spirit And cast it out. Then second was my mother Cured of her fever, just as you might say: Be rid of madness, things that tear and plague, Then cool you of the fever of vain life. But don’t forget to write how he would say “Tell no man of this,” say that and no more. Though I may think he said it lest the crowds That followed him would take his strength for healing, “Tell no man of this” simply. For you see These madmen quieted, these lepers cleaned Had soon to die, all now are dead, perhaps. And with them ends their good. But what he said Remains for generations yet to come, with power To heal and heal. My son, preserve your notes, Of what I’ve told you, even above your life. Make many copies lest one script be lost. I shall not to another tell it all As I have told it you. But as for me What merit have I that I saw and said “Thou art the Christ?” One sees the thing he sees. That is a matter of the eye—behold What is the eye? Is there an Eye Power which Produces eyes, a primal source of seeing, An ocean of beholding, as the ocean Makes rivers, streams and pools, so does this Power Make eyes? You take an egg and keep it warm About a day, then break the shell and look: You’ll find dark spots on either side of what Will be the head in time, these will be eyes In season, but just now they cannot see, Although the Eye Power back of them can see Both what they are and how to make them eyes And all the time while these dark spots emerge From yolk to eyes, this Rome is here no less, This moon, these stars, this wonder! Take a child It stares at flowers and tears them, or again It claws the whiteness of its mother’s breast, Sees nothing but the things beneath its nose. The world around it lies here to be seen, And will be seen from boyhood on to age In different guises, aspects, richnesses According to the man, for every man Sees different from his fellow. What’s an eye? I say not what’s an eye, but what is here For eyes to see? What wonders in that sky Beyond my eye! What living things concealed Beneath my feet in grass or moss or slime, As small to crickets as they are to us! For Nero at the Circus holds a ruby Before his eye to give his eye more sight To see the games and tortures. So I say There was no merit in me when I said “Thou art the Christ.” Let’s think of eyes this way: The lawyers said there’s nothing in this fellow. His family beheld no wonder in him. Have Mary Magdalene and I invented These words, this story?—who are we to do so, Or did this happen? Did we see these things? Did Mary see him risen and did I? Were other eyes still dark spots on the yolk, And were our eyes full grown and did we see? Is this a madman’s world where I can talk, And have you write for centuries to read And play the fool with them? Or do all things Of spirit, as of stars, of spring and growth Proceed in order, under law to ends? No, Mark, my son, this is the truth, so write, Preserve this story taken from my lips. My work is almost done. Rome is the end Of all my labors, I have faith The Eye |