O Earth that walls these prison bars—O Stones Which shut my body in—could I be free If these fell and the grated door which groans For every back scourged hither oped for me? Freedom were what to travel you, O Earth, When my heart makes its daily agony? And longing such as mine cannot ungirth Its bands and its mortality o'erleap. Our life is love unsatisfied from birth, Our life is longing waking or asleep, And mine has been a vigil of quick pain. O Leonora, thus it is I keep Grief in my heart and weariness of brain. How did I know these chains and bars are wrought Of frailer stuff than space, that I could gain In earth no respite, but a vision brought The truth, O Leonora? It was this: I dreamed this hopeless love, so long distraught Was never caged, but from the first was bliss, And moved like music from the meeting hour To the rapt moment of the earliest kiss Bestowed upon your hands, to gathering flower Of lips so purely yielded, the embrace Tender as dawn in April when a shower Quenches with gentleness each flowering place; So were your tears of gladness—so my hands Which stroked your golden hair, your sunny face, Even as flying clouds o'er mountain lands Caress with fleeting love the morning sun. Now I was with you, and by your commands. Your love was mine at last completely won, And waited but the blossom. How you sang, Laughed, ran about your palace rooms and none Closed doors against me, desks and closets sprang To my touch open, all your secrets lay Revealed to me in gladness—and this pang Which I had borne in bitterness day by day Was gone, nor could I bring it back, or think How it had been, or why—this heart so gay In sudden sunshine could no longer link Itself with what it was. Look! Every room Had blooms your hands had gathered white and pink, And drained from precious vases their perfume. And fruits were heaped for me in golden bowls, And tapestries from many an Asian loom Were hung for me, and our united souls Shone over treasure books—how glad you were To listen to my epic, from the scrolls Of Jerusalem, the holy sepulcher. Still as a shaft of light you sat and heard With veilÈd eyes which tears could scarcely blur, But flowed upon your cheek with every word. And your hand reached for mine—you did not speak, But let your silence tell how you were stirred By love for me and wonder! What to seek In earth and heaven more? Heaven at last Was mine on earth, and for a sacred week This heaven all of heaven. So it passed This week with you—you served me ancient wine. We sat across a table where you cast A cloth of chikku, or we went to dine There in the stately room of heavy plate. Or tiring of the rooms, the day's decline Beheld us by the river to await The evening planet, where in elfin mood You whistled like the robin to its mate, And won its answering call. Then through the wood We wandered back in silence hand in hand, And reached the sacred portal with our blood Running so swift no ripples stirred the sand To figures of reflection. Once again Within your room of books, upon the stand The reading lights are brought to us, and then You read to me from Plato, and my heart Breathes like a bird at rest; the world of men, Strife, hate, are all forgotten in this art Of life made perfect. Or when weariness Comes over us, you dim the lamp and start The blue light back of Dante's bust to bless Our twilight with its beauty. So the time Passes too quickly—our poor souls possess Beauty and love a moment—and our rhyme Which captures it, creates the illusion love Has permanence, when even at its prime Decay has taken it from the light above, Or darkness underneath. I must recur To our first sleep and all the bliss thereof. How did you first come to me, how confer On me your beauty? That first night it was The blue light back of Dante, but a blur Of golden light our spirits, when you pass Your hand across my brow, our souls go out To meet each other, leave as wilted grass Our emptied bodies. Then we grow devout, And kneel and pray together for the gift Of love from heaven, and to banish doubt Of change or faithlessness. Then with a swift Arising from the prayer you disappear. I sleep meanwhile, you come again and lift My head against your bosom, bringing near A purple robe for me, and say, "Wear this, And to your chamber go." And thus I hear, And leave you; on my couch, where calm for bliss I wait for you and listen, hear your feet Whisper their secret to the tapestries Of your ecstatic coming—O my sweet! I touched your silken gown, where underneath Your glowing flesh was dreaming, made complete My rapture by upgathering, quick of breath, Your golden ringlets loosened—and at last Hold you in love's embrace—would it were Death!... For soon 'twixt love and sleep the night was past, And dawn cob-webbed the chamber. Then I heard |