That Thursday evening I dined with Lady Desmond. The old lady had been in town since Monday; staying at some rooms which she favoured in Clarges Street. She had issued her commands to me to attend on her at dinner. Had it not been for the conversation which I had had with Edith the night before, I should have still been wondering what it meant. Edith, however, had made matters perfectly clear. Reggie and I were both to be in attendance. We were both of us to receive our dismissal. I was to be finally informed that I could not marry Edith, he that he could not marry Vi. The dowager had made other arrangements of her own. I looked forward to their announcement with feelings which were a little mixed. Vi came to me just as I was starting. I had made no secret of my engagement. She had not commented on it till then. I thought I had seldom seen her look better. She is a willowy slip of a girl, with about her that air of the thoroughbred which, nowadays, is as great a distinction as a woman can have. She was born to be a great lady; the Howarth women always have been: yet, with it all, she is just a girl. Her chief fault is a proneness to impetuous speech. But that is a quality of youth. She let fly at me at once. 'Douglas, why hasn't Lady Desmond invited me?' 'My dear Vi, how can I tell you?' 'I know. And so do you.' 'I assure you that I do not know why Lady Desmond has not invited you.' 'Then I'll tell you. She has not invited me because it is quite likely that she never means to invite me again. She intends to wash her hands of me entirely. I shouldn't be surprised if she cuts me dead. She wants Reggie to marry Mary Magruder.' I said nothing. This was clearly a case in which silence was golden. 'I have told him he may.' 'I should have expected you to do no less.' 'He says he won't.' 'As matters are likely to turn out, that is a pity.' 'Douglas!--What do you mean?' 'Reggie is in a bad way. I'm afraid that before long he'll be in a worse.' 'How about you? Don't you stand or fall together?' 'Just so. That is it. It's because my hours are numbered that I say it's a pity. If he were to marry Mary Magruder then you might marry her masculine equivalent. You know as well as I do that he is to be found.' I was thinking of George Charteris. An extra shade of colour came into her cheeks, just to show she knew it. 'Douglas, are you trying to be humorous?' 'Not at all. My dear Vi, I'll be plain with you. I've reason to believe that before very long both Reggie and I may come a cropper. My very earnest advice to both of you is that you agree to treat the past as past, and try to retrieve your positions while there still is time.' She eyed me; reading on my face that I meant what I said. 'You can tell Reggie from me that I think it would be better that he should marry Mary Magruder as soon as he possibly can. We all know that she's willing enough. You may add, if you like, that I will never marry him, if things are going to be as you say they are.' 'And you?' 'I shall never marry any one but him. Please, Douglas, don't worry me to do so. You know that is so. But then I'm not one of those girls to whom marriage is all in all.' I knew that, if that was not a falsehood, it was at least an evasion of the truth; for I was aware that, to her, happiness meant being Reggie Sherrington's wife. She asked, as I was leaving the room. 'How about Edith?' I was still, pretending that I had not heard. She had spoken softly, so that the pretence seemed plausible; though I was conscious that it was but seeming, for Vi reads me as if I were an open book. But I had not the courage to reply. Indeed, it was a question to which I had not yet found an answer. In that lay the sting. How about Edith? was what I kept asking myself all the time. Nor had I found a solution to the problem when I reached the door of Milady's lodgings. Lady Desmond's taste is not in all things mine; particularly is that the case with her taste in lodgings. The rooms in Clarges Street are kept by an ancient man and woman who are, no doubt, worthy folk enough, but who are also stupid, slow, and behind the times. I was shown into what is called the drawing-room--a fusty apartment, the very atmosphere of which was synonymous with depression. My hostess rose to receive me; a little stiff, bony figure, dressed in old clothes, which were ill-fitting and old-fashioned when she first had them. It was an extraordinary thing, but I have never seen that woman in what looked like a new dress yet. I believe that when she buys things she stores them away, never putting them on till they are old--and rumpled. In her left hand she had a stick; she extended two fingers of her right to me by way of greeting. Edith came towards me from the struggling fire in the dingy fireplace. God knows she is past her first beauty; but she will always be young to me. As I took her hand in mine I told myself, for the thousandth time, what a coward I was not to have made her my wife long ago. This is not a sentimental age, and I am not a sentimental man; but for her I would go through the fires of hell. Yet there we were, I an old bachelor, she a spinster yet. Marriage, nowadays, is surrounded with so many complications. 'Hollo, Douglas! Going strong? Isn't this place enough to give you the horrors?' This was Reggie, who had preceded me. The final portion of his remark was whispered. The dinner was in keeping with the rooms; badly chosen, badly cooked, badly served. No one ate anything; no one talked. One couldn't even drink; the wine was frightful. We sat there like mutes at our own funerals. For my part I was glad when the cloth was cleared; though I knew that a bad quarter of an hour was coming. It could scarcely be worse than what had gone before. The old lady fired the first shot. 'Edith, had you not better withdraw?' 'No, mother. I know what you are going to say, and, as I am as much interested in it as any one else, I should prefer to stop.' My hostess wasted no time in argument or preamble; she came straight to the point. 'Mr. Howarth, I have asked you to come here in order to tell you that any sentimental understanding which may have existed between Edith and yourself is, henceforward, at an end.' I essayed to speak; she stopped me. 'I know what you are going to say. I've heard it over and over again. What I say is this. Edith is getting on. You certainly are no longer young; you are going both bald and grey. Financially, you are worse off than when I first knew you. Isn't that the case?' 'It is.' 'You have absolutely no prospects.' Reggie struck in. 'O aunt, come! If he's hard up it's only because I owe him such a heap. There's no doubt whatever that Twickenham's dead. We only have to prove it to be both of us in clover.' 'Twickenham is not dead. During the last few nights I've seen him several times.' 'You've seen Twickenham?' 'In dreams. I could not quite make out where he was, but he was in some extraordinary situation, from which you will find that he will presently emerge. It is no use your counting on his death. He's alive. Twickenham is not the kind of man who dies easily.' 'I thought dreams went by contraries.' 'Not such dreams as I have had.' She turned to me with a question which took me aback. 'Don't you know that he's alive?' 'My dear Lady Desmond!' 'You do know that he's alive; and I know you know. I don't want any discussion; you will only fence and quibble. But I appeal to you as a man of honour not to stand in the way of Edith's happiness.' 'That I undertake at once not to do.' 'Mother, hadn't you better tell Douglas that you wish me to marry Colonel Foljambe, and that's your idea of my happiness?' 'Colonel Foljambe is a very worthy gentleman.' 'If he isn't now,' I said,' he never will be.' 'He's not much older than you are.' That was monstrous. Foljambe had turned seventy. But I let her go on. 'Then there's Reggie and that sister of yours. Violet Howarth's a sensible girl. She can do very well for herself if she likes, and she knows that she never will do anything at all with Reggie. The probabilities are that when Twickenham does return, it will be with a wife and family at his heels.' 'Leaving that eventuality out of the question, I am instructed by Violet to say that Reggie is at perfect liberty to do as he likes. So far as she is concerned she is quite willing to consider the engagement at an end.' 'That's Vi all over. She'd cut off her hand and throw it into the fire if she thought it would do me good. But I don't happen to be taking any; and I'll go straight from here and tell her so. It's all nonsense about Twickenham's being alive; he's as dead as that is.' He rapped his knuckle against the table. His aunt leant over the board. 'Reggie, he's alive. Miss Sandford is right.' 'Miss Sandford?' 'Miss Sandford sees things which we don't see, and she knows things which we don't know. But now I've seen things, and I know. And what's more, Mr. Howarth knows too.' 'Douglas, what does my aunt mean by saying that you know Twickenham's alive?' 'I have not the least conception.' 'Do you know?' 'I do not.' 'Have you any reason to suppose that he's alive?' I hesitated. Whether it was or was not a lie which I told, I could not say. 'None whatever.' 'You see, aunt: there's his answer for you.' 'For reasons of his own, Mr. Howarth has chosen to conceal the truth. But he does know; and he knows I know.' The old lady's persistence roused me. 'May I ask, Lady Desmond, on what grounds you base your assertion?' 'I am unable to tell you; on no grounds, if you like to put it that way. But you do know; and you know I know you know.' I rose from my chair. 'In that case discussion would be fruitless. Since Lady Desmond's reasons are of such an extremely recondite nature it would be useless for me to attempt to probe for them. Let us understand each other before I go. Edith, is it to be with us as your mother desires?' 'Not with my goodwill. I certainly will never marry Colonel Foljambe.' 'Then you never shall be asked to. I will not give you up, nor shall you give me up; but you shall be my wife before the year is out.' 'Douglas!' 'I don't know how it is to come about, but it shall come about; I do know so much. All these years have been wasted, but they shall be made up for you before long. You shall be as happy a wife as a man can make you.' 'Douglas!' She had her elbows on the table, and her face upon her hands. 'What nonsense is this?' demanded Lady Desmond. 'Haven't I said that I brought you here to tell you that I would have no more of it?' 'My dear Lady Desmond, I think you will admit that Edith and I have arrived at years of discretion?' 'You'll never do that if you live to be a hundred. You've ruined my life, and you've ruined hers. You've made her prematurely old. Look at her! Who would think, to see her now, that not long ago she was the most beautiful girl in England, and that she had only to lift her finger to have any man in England at her feet? She has no father or brother to protect her, or she'd have been rid of you long ago. But you've promised that you'll stand no longer in her way, and if you've a shred of manhood in you, you'll keep your word.' I went round to where she sat. 'Edith, what am I to do?' Getting up, she put her hands upon my shoulders. 'Marry me in what I stand up in; and take me to live with you in country lodgings.' 'You hear, Lady Desmond. Edith is going to be my wife.' 'Then she'll be no daughter of mine.' 'Excuse me,' cried Reggie, 'but it strikes me that I ought to have a word in this. You seem to forget, aunt, that if Douglas is in a hole, it's because of what he's done for me.' 'I forget nothing. If you choose to behave like a sensible person, you will be able to repay Mr. Howarth any moneys he may have advanced you, together with sufficient interest, within three months.' 'In other words, if I choose to behave like a blackguard, perjure myself all round, make myself and every one connected with me unhappy, I may be able to wheedle enough money out of the woman I've lied to to enable me to treat the best friend a man had as if he were a sixty per center. Then, when it does turn out that Twickenham's dead, where shall I be? Saddled with a wife I hate; more in love than ever with the girl I've treated badly; in the bad books of the man who has stuck to me closer than any brother I ever heard of. Thank you; I'm obliged. If Vi won't marry me, it won't be because I'm not willing. Do you know, aunt, I believe that you're a bad lot.' 'How dare you speak to me like that, sir?' 'I use the term in a Parliamentary sense only. Of course I know that as a matter of fact your goodness is established beyond all question. But you don't seem to realise what Vi is to me. If it weren't that I've been living on her brother I'd have made her marry me long ago; for, hang me if I wouldn't marry her on nothing rather than not marry her at all. Nothing would give me greater pleasure than to bring it off the same day Douglas brings off his little event; especially if he can manage to make the date an early one.' Reggie winked at me. I am afraid that his aunt perceived the movement of his eyelid. She rose with an air of extreme dudgeon. 'I will not say what I think of you all. It would only be a waste of good words. You have heard me give expression to my wishes. If you choose to act in opposition to them, you must do so. You have all arrived at what Mr. Howarth was pleased to call, I presume ironically, the age of discretion. Some of you got there a good many years ago. It only remains for me to wash my hands of any responsibility for what you may do, and, if I think it necessary, to decline your further acquaintance. Edith, are you coming with me?' 'Good-night,' I said to Edith as she turned to accompany her mother. 'I shall not see you again.' 'I shall hear from you?' 'You shall hear from me very soon. I will lose no time in making arrangements for our joint occupation of those country lodgings.' She smiled. I held the door open for her mother and herself to leave the room. As she passed she whispered: 'I mean it.' Reggie and I went away together. In the street he asked: 'Can I come in and see Violet?' 'Better not. At least not to-night. Just as well that you should sleep on it.' 'What do you mean by that?' I considered a moment before I answered. 'You see, Reggie, we're all four of us playing the part of Don Quixote; Violet and you, Edith and I. I'm beginning to fear that we've been playing the part for years. It's all very well for us to talk of marrying the women of our hearts; but there are things to be considered. There are the women.' 'Would you have me throw Vi over?' 'The word's ill chosen. It ill becomes me to play the part of mentor after the way in which I've just behaved, but--suppose Twickenham were to turn up?' 'It would be pretty bad.' 'If that were all! I doubt if he'd give you a penny: as for me, he'd laugh me to scorn. You and I'd be beggars. Would it be chivalrous to drag the women into the ditch with us?' 'But Twickenham's dead.' We've no proof of it. We've been looking for proof for some time. A pretty penny the search has cost us.' 'What makes you talk like this? You've seemed convinced enough about his being dead. You've gone Nap on it.' 'Precisely. And I'm now inclined to wonder if I haven't gone Nap on a pretty bad hand.' 'Surely you don't believe any of that stuff about my aunt's dreams?' 'Your aunt's dreams are neither here nor there. But between ourselves, I tell you candidly that I think it's quite possible that Twickenham's alive.' 'Good God! What have you heard?' 'I have heard nothing. By the purest accident I have chanced on what may turn out to be a clue. If it does, you shall hear more next week. At present I can tell you nothing.' 'Douglas, where is he?' 'You move too fast. I believe that it's still even betting that Twickenham's as dead as a coffin nail. But you will see for yourself why you and I should not pose as being too chivalrous, and especially why you should sleep upon the matter before having another interview with Vi. Good-night.' I left him staring after me in Piccadilly. I was afraid of his asking inconvenient questions, just as I had been afraid of not saying anything at all. I might have lighted on a mare's nest, but in case I had not, it only seemed fair that he should have some sort of warning, so that the bolt might not descend on him altogether out of the blue. Violet met me as soon as I entered the hall. 'Well, what has happened?' I led the way back into the drawing-room, feeling indisposed to discuss delicate matters within quite such obvious sound of the servants' ears. 'I don't know that anything has happened.' 'Is Reggie going to marry Mary Magruder?' 'He says not.' 'Who is he going to marry?' 'He says he's going to marry you.' 'Douglas! In spite of Lady Desmond's prohibition? I suppose she did prohibit it?' 'Oh, yes, she did that right enough. But he did not seem disposed to lay much stress upon Lady Desmond's prohibition; as you probably expected.' I was convinced that she would have been a surprised young woman if he had paid attention to anything his aunt might have had to say on such a matter. 'At the same time, if you will take my advice, you won't attach weight to anything Reggie may have said, either one way or the other. I, for instance, have promised to marry Edith--again in the face of Lady Desmond's prohibition. But I think it possible that, before very long, neither he nor I may be in a position to marry any one.' 'Do you think that want of money will make any difference to Edith or to me?' 'I do not. But I am sure that neither of you would feel disposed to be a clog upon your husband.' 'A clog! I a clog on Reggie? Rather than I'd be that I'd die!' I looked at her. As I did so there rose before me a vision of a man lying on a bare mattress, clad in a suit of white pyjamas, inside a glass case. It entirely prevented my seeing Violet. I had to close my eyes to shut it out. |