Pauline and Guy with their formal engagement in sight were careful to give no excuse for a postponement by abusing their privileges. The river was now much overgrown with weeds, and in the last week of July rough weather set in which kept them in the Rectory a good deal on the occasions when they met. Guy, too, was harder at work than he had been all the Summer. The fact of being presently engaged in the eyes of the world was sufficiently exciting for Pauline to console her for the shorter time spent with Guy. Moreover, she was so grateful to her family for not opposing the publication of the engagement that she tried particularly to impress them with the sameness of herself, notwithstanding her being in love with Guy. It happened, therefore, that the old manner of existence at the Rectory reasserted itself for a while; the music in the evenings, the mornings in the garden, everything, indeed, that could make the family suppose that she was set securely in the heart of their united life. "When you and Margaret marry," Monica announced, one afternoon when the three sisters were in their nursery, "I really think I shall become a nun." "But we can't all leave Father and Mother!" Pauline exclaimed, shocked at the deserted prospect. "Now isn't that like people in love?" said Monica. "Ah, but, anyway, I shall only be living at Plashers Mead," Pauline went on. "So they won't be left entirely alone." "And as I probably sha'n't ever make up my mind to be married," Margaret added, "and as I've yet to meet the Mother Superior whom Monica could stand for more than a week, it seems probable that everything at the Rectory will go on pretty much the same." "Margaret, you will marry. I can't think why you talk like that. If you don't intend to marry Richard, you ought to tell him so now, and not keep him any longer in uncertainty." Pauline realized that Margaret did not like this direct attack, but it was so rarely that Margaret made it possible even to allude to Richard that she had to take the opportunity. "I don't think I've interfered much with you and Guy," said Margaret. "Is it necessary that you should settle my affairs?" "Oh, don't speak so unkindly to me, Margaret. I'm not trying to interfere. And, anyway, you do criticize Guy and me. Both you and Monica criticize us." "Only when you tell us we don't understand about love." "Well, you don't." "All of us don't want to be in love quite so obviously as you," said Margaret. "And Monica agrees with me." Monica nodded. "Well, it's my character," said Pauline. "I always knew that when I did fall in love I should fall dreadfully deep in love. I don't want to be thinking all the while about my personal dignity. I adore Guy. Why shouldn't I show it? Margaret loves Richard, but simply because she's so self-conscious she can't bear to show it. You call me morbid, Margaret, but I call you much more morbid than I." Yet, though she resented them at the time, Margaret's and Monica's continual demands for Pauline to be vigilant over her impulsiveness had an effect; and during all the month before they were engaged she tried when she was Pauline tried to recapture more of the old interests of life at Wychford, and she was particularly attentive to Miss Verney, going often to see her in the little house at the top of the hill and sitting with her in the oblong garden whenever the August sun showed itself. "I'm sure I'm sorry it's going to be a protracted engagement," said Miss Verney. "They are apt to place a great strain upon people. I'm sure when I read in The Times all about people's wills, though I always feel a trifle vulgar and inquisitive when I do so, I often say to myself, 'Well, really, it seems a pity that some people should have so much more money than is quite necessary.' Only yesterday evening I read of a gentleman called Somethingheim who left five hundred and seven thousand one hundred and six pounds fourteen shillings and some odd pence, and really, I thought to myself how much nicer it would have looked without the seven thousand one hundred and six pounds fourteen shillings and odd pence. And really I had quite a fanciful time imagining that I received a letter presenting it to me on account of some services my father rendered at Sebastopol, which at the time were overlooked. Seven thousand pounds I thought I would present to you and Mr. Guy Hazlewood, if you would allow me; a hundred pounds to the church; six pounds I had the idea of devoting to the garden; and the fourteen shillings and sevenpence—I remember now it was sevenpence—I thought would make such a pleasant surprise for my servant Mabel, who is really a most good-hearted girl, tactful with the cats, and not too fond of young men." "How sweet of you, Miss Verney, to think of such a nice present," said Pauline, who as she watched the old "No, indeed, don't thank me at all, for I cannot imagine anything that would give me such true pleasure. Let me see. Seven thousand pounds at four per cent., which I think is as much as you could expect to get safely. That's seventy times four—two hundred and eighty pounds a year." "And Guy has some money—one hundred and fifty pounds, or one hundred and fifteen pounds, or it may be only fifty pounds." "Let us call it a hundred pounds," said Miss Verney. "For it would be more prudent not to exaggerate. Three hundred and eighty pounds a year. And I've no doubt the Rector on his side would be able to manage twenty pounds. Four hundred pounds a year. Surely a very nice little sum on which to marry. Oh, certainly quite a pleasant little sum." "Only the gentleman hasn't given you the seven thousand pounds," said Pauline. "No, exactly, he has not. That's just where it is," Miss Verney agreed. "But even if he hasn't," said Pauline, springing up and kissing her, "that doesn't prevent your being my dear Miss Verney; and so, thank you seven times for every pound you were going to give me." "My dear child, it would be, as I believe I remarked, a pleasure. I have the greatest dread of long engagements. My own, you know, lasted five years; and at the end of the time a misunderstanding arose with my father, who, being a sailor, had a hasty temper. This very misunderstanding arose over money. I'm sure the person who invented money was a great curse to the world, and deserved to be pecked at by that uncomfortable eagle much more than that poor fellow Prometheus, of whom I was reading in a mythology book that was given to me as a prize for spelling, and which I came across last night Miss Verney stopped and stared out of her window; all about the room the cats were purring in the sunbeams; Pauline had a dozen plans racing through her mind for finding William and bringing him back like Peter in Mrs. Gaskell's book. She was just half-way up the hill with fluttering heart, longing to see Miss Verney's joy at the return of her William ... when tea tinkled in and the dream vanished. When Pauline told Guy about Miss Verney's seven thousand pounds he was rather annoyed, and said he was sorry that he and she were already an object of charity in Wychford. "Oh, Guy," she protested, "you mustn't take poor "Besides I have got a hundred and fifty," said Guy. "Oh, Guy dear, don't look so cross. Please don't be cross and dreadfully in earnest about anything so stupid as money." "I feel everybody will be pitying you for becoming engaged to a penniless pretender like me," he sighed. "Don't be so stupid, Guy. If they pity anybody, they'll pity you for having a wife so utterly vague about practical things as I am. But I won't be, Guy, when we're married." "Oh, my own, I wish we were married now. God! I wish, I wish we were!" He had clasped her to him, and she drew away. Guy begged her pardon for swearing; but really she had drawn away because his eyes were so bright and wild that she was momentarily afraid of him. August kept wet and stormy; but on the nineteenth, the day before Guy's birthday and the vigil of their betrothal, the sun came out with the fierceness of late Summer. Pauline went with Margaret and Monica for a walk in the corn-fields, because she and Guy, although it was one of their trysting-days, had each resolved to keep it strictly empty of the other's company, so that after a kind of fast they should meet on the great day itself with a deeper welcome. Pauline made a wreath of poppies for Margaret, and for Monica a wreath of cornflowers; but her sisters could find no flower that became Pauline on this vigil, nor did she mind, for to-morrow was beckoning to her across the wheat, and she gladly went ungarlanded. "I wonder why I feel as if this were our last walk together," said Margaret. "Oh, Margaret, how can you say a horrid thing like that?" Pauline exclaimed; and to-morrow drooped before her in the dusty path. "No, darling, it's not horrid. But, oh, you don't know Pauline vowed she would go home, not caring on whose wheat she trampled, if Margaret talked any more like that. "I can't think why you want to make me sad," she protested. "What difference, after all, will this announcement of our engagement bring? I shall wear a ring, that's all!" "But everybody will know you belong to Guy," said Margaret, "instead of to all of us." "Oh, my dears, my dears," Pauline vowed, "I shall always belong to you as well! Don't make me feel unhappy." "You don't really feel unhappy," said Monica in her wise way, "because every morning I can hear you singing to yourself long before you ought to be awake." Then her sisters kissed her, and through the golden corn-fields they walked silently home. When Pauline was in bed that night her mother lingered after Margaret and Monica had left her room. "Are you glad, darling, you are going to give Guy such a charming birthday present to-morrow?" she asked. "It's your present," said Pauline, "because I couldn't possibly give myself unless you wanted me to. You know that, don't you, Mother? You do know that, don't you?" "I want you to be my happy Pauline," her mother whispered. "And I think that with Guy you will be my happy Pauline." "Oh, Mother, I shall, I shall! I love him so. Mother, what about Father? He simply won't say anything to me. To-day I helped him with transplanting, and I've been helping a lot lately ... with the daffodil bulbs when we came back from Ladingford, and all sorts of things. But he simply won't say a word." "Francis is always like that," her mother replied. "Oh, Mother, tell me what ring it is that Guy has found for me." "It's charming ... charming ... charming," said her mother, enthusiastically. "Oh, I won't ask, but I'm longing to see it. Mother, what do you think it will be? Oh, but you know, so I mustn't ask you to guess. Oh, I do hope Margaret and Monica will like it." "It's charming ... charming ... and now go to sleep." Her mother kissed her good night, and when she was gone Pauline took from under her pillow the crystal ring. "However nice the new one is," she said, "I shall always love you best, you secret ring." Then she got out of bed and took from her desk the manuscript book bound with a Siennese end-paper of shepherds and shepherdesses and rosy bowers, that was to be her birthday present to him. "What poetry will he write in you about me, you funny empty book?" she asked, and inscribed it— For Guy with all of his Pauline's love. The book was left open for the roaming letters to dry themselves without a smudge, because there was never any blotting-paper in this desk that was littered with childish things. Then Pauline went to the window; but a gusty wind of late Summer was rustling the leaves and she could not stay dreaming on the night as in May she had dreamed. There was something faintly disquieting about this hollow wind which was like an envoy threatening the trees with the furious Winter to come, and Pauline shivered. "Summer will soon be gone," she whispered, "but On this thought she fell asleep, and woke to a sunny morning, though the sky was a turbid blue across which swollen clouds were steadily moving. She lay watchful, wondering if this quiet time of six o'clock would hold the best of Guy's birthday and if by eight o'clock the sky would not be quite gray. It was a pity she and Guy had not arranged to meet early, so that before the day was spoiled they should have possessed themselves of its prime. Pauline could no longer stay in bed with this sunlight, the lucid shadows of which, caught from the wistaria leaves, were flickering all about the room. She must go to the window and salute his birthday. Suddenly she recalled something Guy had once said of how he pictured her always moving round her room in the morning like a small white cloud. Blushful at the intimacy of the thought, she looked at herself in the glass. "You're his! You're his!" she whispered to her image. "Are you a white goose, as Margaret said you were? Or are you the least bit like a cloud?" Guy came and knelt by her in church that morning, and she took his action as the sign he offered to the world of holding her now openly. In the great church they were kneeling; rose-fired both of them by the crimson gowns of the high saints along the clerestory; and then Guy slipped upon her finger the new ring he had bought for their engagement, a pink topaz set in the old fashion, which burned there like the heart of the rosy fire in which they knelt suffused. Breakfast was to be in the garden, as all Rectory birthdays were except Monica's, which fell in January; and since the day had ripened to a kind of sweet sultriness as of a pear that has hung too long upon a wall, it was grateful to sit in the shade of the weeping-willow by the side of the lily-pond. To each floating cup, tawny or damasked, white or deepest cramoisy, the Rector called their attention. "Father has remembered Guy's birthday!" she cried, clapping her hands. "Now I do call that wonderful. Francis, you're wonderful. You're really wonderful!" "Pauline, Pauline, don't get too excited," her mother begged. "And please don't call your father Francis in the garden." "Propertius," Guy murmured, shyly opening the book; but when he was going to say something about that Roman lover to the Rector, the Rector had vanished. After breakfast Pauline and Guy walked in the inner wall-garden, that was now brilliant with ten thousand deep-throated gladioli. "Pauline," said Guy, "this morning I learned Milton's sonnet on his twenty-third birthday, and I feel rather worried. Listen: "How soon hath Time, the subtle thief of youth, "Well, now, if Milton felt like that," he sighed, "what about me? Pauline, tell me again that you believe in me." "Of course I believe in you," she vowed. "And I am right to stay here?" he asked, eagerly. "Oh, Guy, of course, of course." "You see, I shall be writing to my father to-night to tell him of our engagement, and I don't want to feel you have the least doubt of me. You haven't, have you? Never? Never? There must never have been the slightest doubt, or I shall doubt." "Dearest Guy," she said, "if you changed anything for me, our love wouldn't be the best thing for you, and I "You couldn't give me up," he proclaimed, holding her straight before him with looks that were hungry for one word or one gesture that could help him to tell her what he wanted to say. "Does my love worry you?" she whispered, faint with all the responsibility she felt for the future of this lover of hers. "Pauline, my love for you is my life." But quickly they glided away from passion to discuss projects of simple happiness; and walking together a long while under the trees beyond the wall-garden, they were surprised to hear the gong sound for lunch before they had finished the decoration of Plashers Mead as it should be for their wedding-tide. Back in the sunlight, they were dazzled by the savage color of the gladioli in the hot August noon, and found them rather gaudy after the fronded half-light where nothing had disturbed the outspread vision of a future triumphantly attainable. After lunch her mother called Pauline aside and told her that now was the moment to impress the Rector with the fact of her engagement. The tradition was that her father went up to his library for half an hour every day in order to rest after lunch before he sallied out into the garden or the parish. As usual, his rest was consisting of standing on a chair and dragging down old numbers of The Botanical Magazine or heavy volumes of The Garden in order to search out a fact in connection with some plant. When Pauline and Guy presented themselves the Rector gave them a cordial invitation to enter, and Pauline fancied that he was being quite exceptionally kindly in his tone towards Guy. "Well, and what can I do for you two?" he asked, as he lit his long clay pipe and sat upright in his old leather arm-chair to regard them. "Father," said Pauline, coming straight to the heart of her subject, "have you seen my engagement ring?" She offered him the pink topaz to admire, and he bowed his head, conveying that faint mockery with which he treated anything that was not a flower. "Very fine. Very fine, my dear." "Well, aren't you going to congratulate me?" Pauline asked. "On what?" "Oh, Father, you are naughty. On Guy, of course." "Bless my heart," said the Rector. "And on what am I to congratulate him?" "On me, of course," said Pauline. "Now I wonder if I can honestly do that?" said the Rector, very seriously. "Father, you do realize, don't you, because you are being so naughty, but you do realize that from to-day we are really engaged?" "Only from to-day?" the Rector asked, a twinkle in his eye. "Well, of course," Pauline explained, "we've been in love for very nearly a year." "And when have you decided to get married?" Pauline looked at Guy. "We thought in about two years, sir," said Guy. "That is, of course, as soon as I've published my first book. Perhaps in a year, really." "Just when you find it convenient, in fact," said the Rector, still twinkling. "Well, Father," Pauline interrupted, "have we got your permission? Because that's what we've come up to ask." "You surprise me," said the Rector, starting back with an exaggerated look of astonishment such as one might use with children. "Father, if you won't be serious about it, I shall be very much hurt." "I am very serious indeed about it," said the Rector. "And supposing I said I wouldn't hear of any such thing as an engagement between you two young creatures, what would you say then?" "Oh, I should never forgive you," Pauline declared. "Besides, we're not young. Guy is twenty-three." "Now I thought he was at least fifty," said the Rector. "Father, we shall have to go away if you won't be serious. Mother told us to explain to you, and I think it's really unkind of you to laugh at us." The Rector rose and knocked his pipe out. "I must finish off the perennials. Well, well, Pauline, my dear, you're twenty-one...." Pauline would have liked to let him go on thinking she was of age, but she could not on this solemn occasion, and so she told him that she was still only twenty. "Ah, that makes a difference," said the Rector, pretending to look very fierce. And when Pauline's face fell he added, with a chuckle, "of one year. Well, well, I fancy you've both arranged everything. What is there left for me to say? You mustn't forget to show Guy those Nerines. God bless you, pretty babies. Be happy." Then the Rector walked quickly away and left them together in his dusty library where the botanical folios and quartos displaying tropic blooms sprawled open about the floor, where along the mantelpiece the rhizomes of Oncocyclus irises were being dried; and where seeds were strewn plenteously on his desk, rattling among the papers whenever the wind blew. "Guy, we are really engaged." "Pauline, Pauline!" In the dusty room among the ghosts of dead seasons and the moldering store amassed by the suns of other years, they stood locked, heart to heart. Before Guy went home that night, when they were "Guy, do you think he'll like me?" "Why, how could he help it? But he may grumble at the idea of my being engaged." "When do you think he'll write?" "I expect he'll come down here to see me. In the Spring he wrote and said he would." "Guy, I'm sure he's going to make it difficult for you." Guy shook his head. "I know how to manage him," he proclaimed, confidently. Then he opened the door; along the drive the wind moaned, getting up for a gusty Bartlemy-tide. Pauline stood in the lighted doorway, letting the light shine upon him until he was lost in the shadows of the tall trees, sending, as he vanished, one more kiss down the wind to her. "Are you happy to-night?" asked her mother, bending over Pauline when she was in bed. "Oh, Mother darling, I'm so happy that I can't tell you how happy I am." In the candle-light her new ring sparkled; and when her mother was gone she put beside it the crystal ring, and it seemed to sparkle still more. Pauline was in such a mood of tenderness to everything that she petted even her pillow with a kind of affection, and she had the contentment of knowing she was going to meet sleep as if it were a great benignant figure that was bending to hear her tale of happy love. |