“Aunt Beulah does not think that Uncle Jimmie is bringing me up right,” Eleanor confided to the pages of her diary. “She comes down here and is very uncomforterble. Well he is bringing me up good, in some ways better than she did. When he swears he always puts out his hand for me to slap him. He had enough to swear of. He can’t get any work or earn wages. The advertisement business is on the bum this year becase times are so hard up. The advertisers have to save their money and advertising agents are failing right and left. So poor Uncle Jimmie can’t get a place to work at.

“The people in the other studios are very neighborly. Uncle Jimmie leaves a sine on the door when he goes out. It says ‘Don’t Knock.’ They don’t they come right in and borrow things. Uncle Jimmie says not to have much to do with them, becase they are so queer, but when I am not at home, the ladies come to call on him, and drink 73 Moxie or something. I know becase once I caught them. Uncle Jimmie says I shall not have Behemiar thrust upon me by him, and to keep away from these ladies until I grow up and then see if I like them. Aunt Beulah thinks that Uncle Jimmie takes me around to other studios and I won’t tell but he does not take me anywhere except to walk and have ice-cream soda, but I say I don’t want it because of saving the ten cents. We cook on an old gas stove that smells. I can’t do very good housekeeping becase things are not convenient. I haven’t any oven to do a Saturday baking in, and Uncle Jimmie won’t let me do the washing. I should feel more as if I earned my keap if I baked beans and made boiled dinners and layer cake, but in New York they don’t eat much but hearty food and saluds. It isn’t stylish to have cake and pie and pudding all at one meal. Poor Grandpa would starve. He eats pie for his breakfast, but if I told anybody they would laugh. If I wrote Albertina what folks eat in New York she would laugh.

“Uncle Jimmie is teaching me to like salud. He laughs when I cut up lettice and put sugar on it. He teaches me to like olives and dried up 74 sausages and sour crought. He says it is important to be edjucated in eating, and everytime we go to the Delicate Essenn store to buy something that will edjucate me better. He teaches me to say ‘I beg your pardon,’ and ‘Polly vous Fransay?’ and to courtesy and how to enter a room the way you do in private theatricals. He says it isn’t knowing these things so much as knowing when you do them that counts, and then Aunt Beulah complains that I am not being brought up.

“I have not seen Uncle Peter for a weak. He said he was going away. I miss him. I would not have to tell him how I was being brought up, and whether I was hitting the white lights as Uncle Jimmie says.—He would know.”

Eleanor did not write Albertina during the time when she was living in the studio. Some curious inversion of pride kept her silent on the subject of the change in her life. Albertina would have turned up her nose at the studio, Eleanor knew. Therefore, she would not so much as address an envelope to that young lady from an interior which she would have beheld with scorn. She held long conversations with Gwendolyn, taking the part of 75 Albertina, on the subject of this snobbishness of attitude.

“Lots of people in New York have to live in little teny, weeny rooms, Albertina,” she would say. “Rents are perfectly awful here. This studio is so big I get tired dusting all the way round it, and even if it isn’t furnished very much, why, think how much furnishing would cost, and carpets and gold frames for the pictures! The pictures that are in here already, without any frames, would sell for hundreds of dollars apiece if the painter could get anybody to buy them. You ought to be very thankful for such a place, Albertina, instead of feeling so stuck up that you pick up your skirts from it.”

But Albertina’s superiority of mind was impregnable. Her spirit sat in judgment on all the conditions of Eleanor’s new environment. She seemed to criticize everything. She hated the nicked, dun colored dishes they ate from, and the black bottomed pots and pans that all the energy of Eleanor’s energetic little elbow could not restore to decency again. She hated the cracked, dun 76 colored walls, and the mottled floor that no amount of sweeping and dusting seemed to make an impression on. She hated the compromise of housekeeping in an attic,—she who had been bred in an atmosphere of shining nickle-plated ranges and linoleum, where even the kitchen pump gleamed brightly under its annual coat of good green paint. She hated the compromise, that was the burden of her complaint—either in the person of Albertina or Gwendolyn, whether she lay in the crook of Eleanor’s arm in the lumpy bed where she reposed at the end of the day’s labor, or whether she sat bolt upright on the lumpy cot in the studio, the broken bisque arm, which Jimmie insisted on her wearing in a sling whenever he was present, dangling limply at her side in the relaxation Eleanor preferred for it.

The fact of not having adequate opportunity to keep her house in order troubled the child, for her days were zealously planned by her enthusiastic guardians. Beulah came at ten o’clock every morning to give her lessons. As Jimmie’s quest for work grew into a more and more disheartening adventure, she had difficulty in getting him out of bed in time to prepare and clear away the 77 breakfast for Beulah’s arrival. After lunch, to which Jimmie scrupulously came home, she was supposed to work an hour at her modeling clay. Gertrude, who was doing very promising work at the art league, came to the studio twice a week to give her instruction in handling it. Later in the afternoon one of the aunts or uncles usually appeared with some scheme to divert her. Margaret was telling her the stories of the Shakespeare plays, and David was trying to make a card player of her, but was not succeeding as well as if Albertina had not been brought up a hard shell Baptist, who thought card playing a device of the devil’s. Peter alone did not come, for even when he was in town he was busy in the afternoon.

As soon as her guests were gone, Eleanor hurried through such housewifely tasks as were possible of accomplishment at that hour, but the strain was telling on her. Jimmie began to realize this and it added to his own distress. One night to save her the labor of preparing the meal, he took her to an Italian restaurant in the neighborhood where the food was honest and palatable, and the service at least deft and clean.

Eleanor enjoyed the experience extremely, until 78 an incident occurred which robbed her evening of its sweetness and plunged her into the purgatory of the child who has inadvertently broken one of its own laws.

Among the belongings in the carpetbag, which was no more—having been supplanted by a smart little suit-case marked with her initials—was a certificate from the Massachusetts Total Abstinence Society, duly signed by herself, and witnessed by the grammar-school teacher and the secretary of the organization. On this certificate (which was decorated by many presentations in dim black and white of mid-Victorian domestic life, and surmounted by a collection of scalloped clouds in which drifted three amateur looking angels amid a crowd of more professional cherubim) Eleanor had pledged herself to abstain from the use as a beverage of all intoxicating drinks, and from the manufacture or traffic in them. She had also subscribed herself as willing to make direct and persevering efforts to extend the principles and blessings of total abstinence.

“Red ink, Andrea,” her Uncle Jimmie had demanded, as the black-eyed waiter bent over him, “and ginger ale for the offspring.” Eleanor giggled. 79 It was fun to be with Uncle Jimmie in a restaurant again. He always called for something new and unexpected when he spoke of her to the waiter, and he was always what Albertina would consider “very comical” when he talked to him. “But stay,” he added holding up an admonitory finger, “I think we’ll give the little one eau rougie this time. Wouldn’t you like eau rougie, tinted water, Eleanor, the way the French children drink it?”

Unsuspectingly she sipped the mixture of water and ice and sugar, and “red ink” from the big brown glass bottle that the glowing waiter set before them.

As the meal progressed Jimmie told her that the grated cheese was sawdust and almost made her believe it. He showed her how to eat spaghetti without cutting it and pointed out to her various Italian examples of his object lesson; but she soon realized that in spite of his efforts to entertain her, he was really very unhappy.

“I’ve borrowed all the money I can, Angelface,” he confessed finally. “Tomorrow’s the last day of grace. If I don’t land that job at the Perkins agency I’ll have to give in and tell Peter and David, or wire Dad.” 80

“You could get some other kind of a job,” Eleanor said; “plumbing or clerking or something.” On Cape Cod the plumber and the grocer’s clerk lost no caste because of their calling. “Couldn’t you?”

“I could so demean myself, and I will. I’ll be a chauffeur, I can run a car all right; but the fact remains that by to-morrow something’s got to happen, or I’ve got to own up to the bunch.”

Eleanor’s heart sank. She tried hard to think of something to comfort him but she could not. Jimmie mixed her more eau rougie and she drank it. He poured a full glass, undiluted, for himself, and held it up to the light.

“Well, here’s to crime, daughter,” he said. “Long may it wave, and us with it.”

“That isn’t really red ink, is it?” she asked. “It’s an awfully pretty color—like grape juice.”

“It is grape juice, my child, if we don’t inquire too closely into the matter. The Italians are like the French in the guide book, ‘fond of dancing and light wines.’ This is one of the light wines they are fond of.—Hello, do you feel sick, child? You’re white as a ghost. It’s the air. As soon as 81 I can get hold of that sacrificed waiter we’ll get out of here.”

Eleanor’s sickness was of the spirit, but at the moment she was incapable of telling him so, incapable of any sort of speech. A great wave of faintness encompassed her. She had broken her pledge. She had lightly encouraged a departure from the blessings and principles of total abstinence.

That night in her bed she made a long and impassioned apology to her Maker for the sin of intemperance into which she had been so unwittingly betrayed. She promised Him that she would never drink anything that came out of a bottle again. She reviewed sorrowfully her many arguments with Albertina—Albertina in the flesh that is—on the subject of bottled drinks in general, and decided that again that virtuous child was right in her condemnation of any drink, however harmless in appearance or nomenclature, that bore the stigma of a bottled label.

She knew, however, that something more than a prayer for forgiveness was required of her. She was pledged to protest against the evil that she 82 had seemingly countenanced. She could not seek the sleep of the innocent until that reparation was made. Through the crack of her sagging door she saw the light from Jimmie’s reading lamp and knew that he was still dressed, or clothed at least, with a sufficient regard for the conventionalities to permit her intrusion. She rose and rebraided her hair and tied a daytime ribbon on it. Then she put on her stockings and her blue Japanese kimono—real Japanese, as Aunt Beulah explained, made for a Japanese lady of quality—and made her way into the studio.

Jimmie was not sitting in the one comfortable studio chair with his book under the light and his feet on the bamboo tea table as usual. He was not sitting up at all. He was flung on the couch with his face buried in the cushions, and his shoulders were shaking. Eleanor seeing him thus, forgot her righteous purpose, forgot her pledge to disseminate the principles and blessings of abstinence, forgot everything but the pitiful spectacle of her gallant Uncle Jimmie in grief. She stood looking down at him without quite the courage to kneel at his side to give him comfort.

“Uncle Jimmie,” she said, “Uncle Jimmie.” 83

At the sound of her voice he put out his hand to her, gropingly, but he did not uncover his face or shift his position. She found herself smoothing his hair, gingerly at first, but with more and more conviction as he snuggled his boyish head closer.

“I’m awfully discouraged,” he said in a weak muffled voice. “I’m sorry you caught me at it, Baby.”

Eleanor put her face down close to his as he turned it to her.

“Everything will be all right,” she promised him, “everything will be all right. You’ll soon get a job—tomorrow maybe.”

Then she gathered him close in her angular, tense little arms and held him there tightly. “Everything will be all right,” she repeated soothingly; “now you just put your head here, and have your cry out.”