Latitudinally speaking, there are about two kinds of Americans—those who live west of Syracuse, and those who do not. An imaginary line separates the tropic of candescence, fast trains, naval reviews, broad a's, Broadway, Beacon Street, Independence Square, and Tammany Hall from the cancer of craps, silver dollars, lynchings, alfalfa, toothpicks, detachable cuffs, napkin rings, and boll weevils. It is more than probable that Horace Lindsley's and Lilly Becker's lineage were loamy with about the same magnesia of the soil. Generations of each of them had tilled into the more or less contiguous dirt of Teutonic Europe. Lilly's progenitors had bartered in low Dutch; Horace Lindsley's in high An oval daguerreotype of a great-grandmother at the harpsichord had hung in Carrie Becker's (nÉe Ploag) home in Granite City. A Lindsley had once presented an emperor with a hand-illuminated version of the King James Bible, wrought out of peasant patience. Horace Lindsley's mother belonged to a New England suffrage society when ladies still wore silk mitts, and had dared to open a private kindergarten in her back parlor after marriage. It was this tincture of culture running like a light bluing through Lindsley's heritage that began to set in motion the little sleeping molecules of Lilly's class consciousness. "Middle class," came to be a term employed always with lips that curled. There were, then, actually men creatures outside the English "Fireside Novels" she was allowed to devour without interruption by parents to whom books were largely objects with which a room was cluttered up, who wore spats, did play tennis in white flannels, turned down the page at a favorite passage of poetry, eschewed suspenders for belts, were guiltless of sleeve garters, and attended Saturday-afternoon symphony concerts, in Lindsley's case, almost a lone male, debonaire and unabashed in a garden of women. At Lilly's urgent instance she and her mother often attended these subscription concerts, seats for single performances obtainable (in a commendable zeal to promote local music) in exchange for a newspaper coupon and twenty-five cents. Mrs. Becker frankly yawned through them, nictitating, as it were, during the long narrative passages of the symphony or occupied with the personnel of the audience. "Look, Lilly," whispering behind her unopened program, "that's a pretty idea over there on that red-haired girl. See the way the baby ribbon is run through the sleeves. Do you want a dress like that?" "Sh-h-h-h, mamma! No; it's too fussy!" "Why don't they play something with a tune to it? I wouldn't give a row of pins for music without any air at all." "Sh-h-h-h, mamma. There isn't much tune to classical music." "I wish the first violinist would play a solo. 'Warum,' like last time. "Mamma, don't stare so." "Don't criticize everything I do." At one of these concerts Lilly shot out her hand suddenly, closing it over her mother's wrist. "Mamma, there's Lindsley. See, down there in the fourth row." "Who?" "My English teacher. See, polishing his eyeglasses." Mrs. Becker sat straight, chin out like an antenna. "Is that him?" "Yes, that's he." "I don't see anything so wonderful about him. He needs a haircut." "Oh, mamma, you think all men have to wear their hair short and ugly like papa and Uncle Buck. In the East men look like that." "The idea! A man calls himself a man coming to a matinÉe like this. Your papa ought to know that you have a sissy like him on your mind. Such a looking thing! Ugh!" These recurring intimations could sting Lilly almost to tears. "Oh, mamma, that's just the—the meanest thing to say. Can't I show you my English teacher without having him on my mind?" "I never could stand a man whose teeth stick out. He looks like a horse." "Papa's teeth stick out." "Yes, but just one, and his mustache hides that. I only hope for you, "How did papa propose to you, mamma? What did he say?" Even Mrs. Becker could flush, quite prettily, too, her lids dropping at this not infrequent query of Lilly's. "It's not nice for young girls to ask such questions." "Go on, mamma, what did he say?" "I don't remember." The overture broke in upon them then, a brilliantly noisy one from Settling with her head snuggled against her fur tippet, the back of her neck against the chair top, Lilly could feel herself recede, as it were, into a sort of anagogical half consciousness, laved and carried along on currents of melody that were as sensually delicious as a warm bath. Her awareness of Lindsley on a diagonal from her so that she could see his profile hook into the music-scented dimness, ran under her skin like a quick shimmer. The proscenium arch curved again into her consciousness, herself its center and vocal beyond the powers of the human organ. The slamming up of chairs and mussy shuffling into wraps recalled her. It was indescribably sad, this swimming up to reality. The buttoning of her little tippet. The smell of damp umbrellas. Then the jamming down the aisle toward the late and rainy afternoon. At the door they were suddenly crushed up against Horace Lindsley, his coat collar turned up about his ears. "Miss Becker," he said, by way of greeting, nodding and showing his teeth. Her heart became a little elevator dropping in sheer descent. "Oh—how—do—you—do?" They were pushed shoulder to shoulder, and, to "For pity's sake, look at that downpour, will you? I hope your father has the good sense to wear his rubbers. Ouch! Don't knock me down, please." "Mamma—please. Mr. Lindsley, I want you to meet my mother." "Pleased to meet you. Lilly certainly has talked of her English teacher a lot." "She is a very interesting little student, Mrs. Becker. Quite a quality to her work." "Well, I am certainly pleased to hear that. She's our only one, you know." "Lilly has a tendency to let her imagination run away with her. A good fault if she controls it." "That's what her father and I always tell her. The child has too many talents to settle down to any one. She gets her music from my side of the house, but she quits practicing to write and she quits writing to practice. It's not that we want our little girl ever to make her own living, but her father and I believe in a girl being prepared, even if she never has to use it. That's why we are having her take the commercial course. We don't pretend to be swells, but at least we plan to do as well for our child as the next." "Exactly." LILLY (in her agony): "Come, mamma." "I wish you could read the poem she wrote last night, Mr. Lindsley. Not that I give a row of pins for poetry, as a rule, but I told her she ought to take this one to school." "Please, mamma, please!" "If I do say it myself, it was grand. Mr. Hazzard, quite an educated gentleman who boards where we do, thought so, too. Lilly, why don't you show Mr. Lindsley that poem? He's authority." "Mamma, if only you won't talk about it." "You must bring it to class, Miss Becker." "No, no! I've—I've torn it up." "I don't remember all of it, but everybody considered it a grand thought for such a young girl; it goes—" "Mamma! Mamma—not here—now!" "I would not have the restless soul "Mamma, they're pushing so! Good night, Mr. Lindsley. Mamma, come!" Outside in the wet dusk they boarded an electric car, Lilly and her mother crammed on a rear platform of the wet overcoats, leaking umbrellas, and wet-smelling mackintoshes of dinner-bound St. Louis. "He's a right nice young man, intelligent—but if ever a person looked like a horse! You see, he agrees with your papa and me. You don't apply yourself to any one thing." Lilly turned her inflamed, quivering face upon her mother, trying to speak through a violent aching of tonsils. "Oh," she cried, "how could you? I'll never look him in the face again! "Are you crazy? How could I what?" "The poem. The—the glint in—his hair. He'll think it was his hair I meant. Oh! Oh!" The ready ire which could flame up in Mrs. Becker leaped out then. "If you are ashamed of your mother, maybe you had better not be seen out with her again. All I am good for is to stint and manage to get you pretty clothes." "No, n-no, mamma, I didn't mean that, dear." "For a horse-face like him I won't be made little." "Sh-h-h-h, dear! The whole street car doesn't need to hear." "I wouldn't give a row of pins for ten like him." "Mamma, the way you—talked." "The way I talked, what? I suppose hereafter when I go out with my educated daughter I will have to wear a muzzle." "I—Oh, it wasn't what you said, mamma; it was—the way you said it." "The way I said it? That's a rich one. If I don't tell your father! My own child is ashamed of her mother. Well, let me tell you I—" "No, mamma, you don't understand. Take that word 'swells,' for instance. Oh, I know I've used it myself, but all of a sudden, to-day, it—it sounded so ordinary." "For a hundred-dollar-a-month school-teacher that your papa has to pay taxes to support, I'm not afraid of my p's and q's." "And, mamma," suddenly and acutely sensitive to pleonasm, "you begin every sentence with 'say' and you say 'certainly' so often." "If I don't have a talk with your father when he comes home this night! That's the thanks I get for sitting through a concert with you when I might have been enjoying myself at my euchre club. Just get those high-tone notions out of your head. We're simple people, not swells. You're a changed child these days." It was true. An ineffable ache, a darting neuralgia of spirit, too cunning and quick for diagnosis, was shooting through Lilly her last two years at High School. That Horace Lindsley, who was hardly to indent her life and whose interest in the clean-eyed girl was little more than a leaf upon his consciousness, and whose feet were already feeling the tug of the quicksands of mediocrity which were to suck him out of her reckoning, should have been the innocent source of this neurosis, is hardly remarkable. Lilly, with the mysterious tenacity of a crannied flower, was pulling from her soil toward the light. And light in all its chiaroscuras rules the se leve, couche, complexion, and humors of the world. Lindsley was a ray. And so her adolescence came in suddenly, almost stormlike, uprooting little forests of sapling traditions. At sixteen she still slept on the cot drawn across the bed end and rode her bicycle up and down the sidewalks, holding her skirts down against the wind, but also she had ransacked the boarding-house shelves and High School library, reading her uncensored way through Lady Audrey's Secret, Canterbury Tales, Five Little Peppers and How They Grew, Plain Facts About Life, Arabian Nights, Golden Treasury, Childe Harold, To Have and to Hold, Tales from Shakespeare, Pilgrim's Progress, Old Curiosity Shop, Diary of Marie Baschkertcheff, Pride and Prejudice, Vanity Fair, Les MisÉrables, Stories of the Operas, and a red volume rescued from propping up the hall hatrack, Great Lovers. Within that same year Katy Stutz twice lowered her skirt hems. "Mamma, I think it is terrible I haven't a room to myself." The entire surface of Mrs. Becker seemed to coat over with sensitiveness to this frequently discussed issue. "Why," her lips writhing with an excoriating brand of self-pity, "who am The Kemble family, on a wave of putative prosperity, had eight months since gone to housekeeping in a rather pretentious rock-fronted house on one of the many newly graded streets west of Kingshighway. Every Friday night Lilly slept with Flora, the two side by side in Flora's pretty new bird's-eye-maple bed, exchanging unextinguishable confidences well through nights wakeful with their dreams. "Flora has her own parlor to practice in, and here I can't even sing a little without the entire boarding house rapping on the wall." "It's a shame. Watch me talk to your father to-night." "Mamma, can't I please take elocution?" "I should say not. Aren't piano and voice sufficient? The idea! I wouldn't give a row of pins for all the elocution in the world. Reciting is out of date." "Mamma, it isn't. Mr. Lindsley says the modern woman of culture should cultivate her speaking voice the same as she learns to use her singing voice. Please, mamma; only a dollar a lesson." "Oh, I don't care! Goodness knows where the money is coming from, with flax twine where it is; but anything for peace." And so when Lilly graduated from High School, third in her class, and again slightly to the rear of Estelle Foote, who read the valedictory, she was executing excitedly, if sloppily, "The Turkish Patrol," was singing in an abominably trained but elastic enough soprano, the "Jewel Song" from "Faust," and "Jocelyn," a lullaby, and at a private recital of the Alden School of Dramatic Expression had recited "A Set of Turquoise" to incidental music. Mrs. Schum's boarding house, to the man, turned out to Lilly's High School graduation, Katy Stutz and Willie standing in the wings and all unwittingly visible from the house. A German-silver manicure set, handsomely embossed, bore the somewhat cryptic card, "To Lilly Becker, as she stands on the threshold of life, from her friends in the house." There were a Honiton-lace fan with mother-of-pearl sticks, with the best wishes of her mother's euchre club, and from her parents a tiny diamond ring set high in gold facets, "To Lilly, from her parents, June, 1901," engraved in the hoop. That night, still in her white organdie frock, with its whirligig design of too much Valenciennes lace, her hair worn high and revealing an unsuspectedly white nape of neck, Lilly regarded her parents across a little table-display of gifts. "I feel so queer," she said, looking off through the chocolate-ochre wall paper, the reaction already set in. "So sort of—finished. Nothing to do." MR. BECKER: "That was certainly a fine speech the president of the Board of Education made. You've something now that no one can take away from you. Knowledge is power." "Two girls in our class are going to the University of Missouri, papa. "Don't spoil a good thing by trying to overdo it, Lilly. It is as bad for a young girl to permit herself to be educated into one of those bold, unwomanly woman's-rights girls as it is for her to be frivolous and empty-headed. When women get too smart they get unattractive." "But, papa, girls are beginning more and more to go to college, and all women will be—suffrage—some day." "Not womanly girls, Lilly." "I always said that High School would be her ruination." "I didn't learn it there, mamma. I always wanted to be something—" "Well, you're a finished stenographer, aren't you? Why not go down to your father's office a couple of mornings a week?" "I don't mean stenography. I hated learning it. I mean something—something—beyond—" Suddenly Mrs. Becker, quiet at the business of wrapping away some of the gifts, glanced up, two round spots of color on her cheeks. "You are going to do something, Lilly. Have a home and entertain in it like other girls." "But—" "I've a piece of news for you and your father. If I waited for him to take the initiative I'd wait until the crack of doom." "What is it, little woman?" "I signed a lease yesterday for one of those yellow-brick houses—seven rooms, bath, furnace heat, and privilege of buying. Twenty-eight dollars, out on Page Avenue near Union. We move in two weeks from to-day." |