Ashley Mead did not take the week's consideration which Sir James had pressed on him. The same evening he wrote a letter decisively declining to assume a place at the helm in Buckingham Palace Road. Sir James, receiving the letter and handing it to Alice, was disappointed to meet with no sympathy in his expressed views of its folly. He was nearly angry with his daughter and frankly furious against Ashley. He was proud of his daughter and proud of his business; the refusal left him very sore for both. As soon as he reached his office he gave vent to his feelings by summoning Bertie Jewett to his presence and offering him the position to whose attractions Ashley had been so culpably blind. Here there was no refusal. A slim, close-built, dapper little fellow, with a small fair moustache and small keen blue eyes, full of self-confidence, perfectly self-controlled, almost sublimely industrious, patiently ambitious, Bertie turned away from no responsibilities and let slip no opportunities. He knew himself Bob Muddock's superior in brains; he had known of, and secretly chafed against, the proposed intrusion of Ashley Mead. Now he was safe, and fortune in his hands. But to Bertie the beauty of firm ground was not that you can stand still on it and be comfortable, but that it affords a good "take-off" when you want to clear an obstacle which lies between you and a place even more desirable Bob and Bertie lunched together at Bob's club that day, the occasion allowing a little feasting and relaxation from toil. The new project touching Alice was not even distantly approached, but Bertie detected in Bob a profound dissatisfaction with Ashley Mead. Ashley's refusal seemed to Bob a slur on the business, and concerning the business he was very sensitive. He remarked with mingled asperity and satisfaction that Ashley had "dished himself all round." The "all round" indicated something besides the big block in Buckingham Palace Road, and so was significant and precious to Bertie Jewett. "Naturally we aren't pleased," Bob said, assuming to Bertie Jewett laughed cautiously. "He doesn't like the shop, I suppose!" Bob pursued sarcastically. "I'm sorry Sir James is so much annoyed about it," remarked Bertie with apparent concern. "He'll see what a fool he's made of himself some day," said Bob. Alice was in his mind, but went unmentioned. Bob's opinion was shared in its entirety by Irene Kilnorton, who came over to express it to Alice as soon as the news reached her through Bowdon. Bowdon had heard it from Ashley himself, they being together on the business of the Commission. Irene was amazed to find Alice on Ashley's side and would allow no merit to her point of view. "Oh, no, it's all wrong," she declared. "It would have been good for him in every way; it would have settled him." "I don't want him settled," said Alice. "Oh, if you knew how tired I get of the business sometimes! Besides it will make Mr. Jewett so happy. He takes Ashley's place, you know, though father won't give him as big a share as he'd have given Ashley." "Well, I shall tell Mr. Mead what I think of him." She paused, hesitating a moment as to whether she should say a disagreeable thing or not. But she was annoyed by Alice's attitude and decided to say it. "Not that he'll care what I say or what anybody says, except Ora Pinsent," she ended. "Won't he?" asked Alice. She felt bound to interject something. "What a creature she is!" cried Irene. "When I "Poor Miss Pinsent!" "I said, 'My dear Ora, I suppose you've done something silly and now you're sorry for yourself. For goodness' sake, though, don't ask me to be sorry for you.'" "Had she asked you?" said Alice with a smile. Lady Kilnorton took no notice of the question. "I suppose," she went on scornfully, "that she wanted to be petted. I wasn't going to pet her." "I think I should have petted her. She'd be nice to pet," Alice remarked thoughtfully. Irene seemed to lose patience. "You don't mean to say that you and she are going to make friends?" she exclaimed. "It would be too absurd." "Why shouldn't we? I liked her rather; at least I think so." "I wish to goodness that husband of hers would come back and look after her. What's more, I said so to her; but she only went on crying more and more." "You don't seem to have been very pleasant," Alice observed. "I suppose I wasn't," Irene admitted, half in remorse. "But that sort of person does annoy me so. As I was saying to Frank, you never know where to have them. Oh, but Ora doesn't mind it from me." "Then why did she cry more and more?" "I don't know—unless it was because I reminded her of Mr. Fenning's existence. I think it's a good thing to do sometimes." "Perhaps. I'm not sure, though, that I shouldn't leave it to Mr. Fenning himself." "My dear, respectability goes for something. The man's alive, after all." Alice knew that he was alive and in her heart knew that she was glad he was alive; but she was sorry that Ora should be made to cry by being invited to remember that he was alive. Irene was, presumably, happy with the man she had chosen; it was a good work leaning towards supererogation (if such were possible) when she took Ora's domestic relations under her wing. She hinted something of this sort. "Oh, that's what Ashley Mead says; we all know why he says it," was Irene's mode of receiving the good advice. A pause followed; Irene put her arm through Alice's and they began to walk about the garden. Lady Muddock was working at her embroidery at the open window; she was pronouncedly anti-Ashleyan, taking the colour of her opinions from her husband and even more from Bob. "Where's Lord Bowdon?" "Oh, at his tiresome Commission. He's coming to tea afterwards. I asked Mr. Mead, but he won't come." "You'll be happier alone together." Irene Kilnorton made no answer. She looked faintly doubtful and a trifle distressed. Presently she made a general remark. "It's an awful thing," she said, "to undertake—to back yourself, you know—to live all your life with a man and never bore him." "I'm sure you couldn't bore anybody." "Frank's rather easily bored, I'm afraid." "What nonsense! Why, you're making yourself unhappy just in the same way that Miss Pinsent—" "Oh, do stop talking about Ora Pinsent!" cried Irene fervently. Then she gave a sudden apprehensive glance at her companion and blushed a little. "I simply meant that men wanted such a lot of amusing," she ended. In recording her interview with Ora, Irene had somewhat exaggerated her brutality, just as in her reflexions about her friend she exaggerated her own common-sense. Ora drove her into protective measures; she found them in declaring herself as unlike to Ora as possible. In reality common-sense held no disproportionate or disagreeable sway in her soul; if it had, she would have been entirely content with the position which now existed, and with her relations towards Bowdon. There was nothing lacking which this vaunted common-sense could demand; it was stark sentimentality, and by consequence such folly as Ora herself might harbour and drop tears about, which whispered in her heart, saying that all was nothing so long as she was not for her lover the first and only woman in the world, so long as she still felt that she had seized him, not won him, so long as the mention of Ora's name still brought a look to his face and a check to his talk. It was against herself more than against Ora that she had railed in the garden; Ora had exasperated her because she knew in herself a temper as unreasonable as Ora's; she harped on Ora's husband ill-naturedly—as she went home, she confessed she had been ill-natured—because he who was to be her husband had dreamt of being Ora's lover. Even now he dared not speak her name, he dared not see her, he could not trust himself. The pledge his promised bride had wrung from him was safe She read it rightly—to his own sorrow and remorse—rightly. He was surprised too. About taking the decisive step he had hesitated; except for circumstances rather accidentally provocative, perhaps he would not have taken it. But its virtue and power, if and when taken, he had not doubted. He had thought that by binding his actions with the chain of honour he would bind his feelings with the chain of love, that when his steps could not wander his fancy also would be tethered, that he could escape longing by abstinence, and smother a craving for one by committing himself to seem to crave for another. The maxims of that common-sense alternately lauded and reviled by Irene had told him that he would be successful in all this; he found himself successful in none of it. Ora would not go; her lure still drew him; as he sat at his Commission opposite to his secretary at the bottom of the table, he was jealous of his secretary. Thus he was restless, uncomfortable, contemptuous of himself. But he was resolute too. He was not a man who broke faith or took back his plighted word. Irene was to be his wife, was as good as his wife since his pledge was hers; he set himself to an obstinate fulfilment of his bargain, resolved that she should see in him nothing but a devoted lover, ignorant that she saw in him the thing which above all he wished to hide. Such of Ora's tears as might be apportioned to the unhappiness she caused to others were just now tolerably well justified, whatever must be thought of those which she shed on her own account. Here was Bowdon restless and contemptuous of himself, Irene bitter and ashamed, Alice with no surer, no more honest, comfort than the precarious existence of Mr. Fenning, Bowdon wished to be married very soon; why wait, he asked; he was not as young as he had been; it would be pleasant to go to the country in August man and wife. In fine the chain of honour gave signs of being strained, and he proposed to tie up the other leg with the fetters of law; he wanted to make it more and more impossible that he should give another thought to anybody except his affianced wife. In marriage attachment becomes a habit, daily companionship strengthens it; surely that was so? And in the country, or, better still, on a yacht in mid-ocean, how could anything remind him of anybody else? But Irene would not hasten the day; she gave many reasons to countervail his; the one she did not give was a wild desire that he should be her lover before he became her husband. So on their feigned issues they discussed the matter. "The end of July?" he suggested. It was now mid-June. "Impossible, Frank!" she cried. "Perhaps November." In September and October Ora would be away. Two months with Ora away, absolutely away, perhaps forgotten! Irene built hopes high on these two months. "Not till November!" he groaned. The groan "Ashley Mead seems obstinate in his silly refusal of Sir James Muddock's offer," she said, anxious to get rid of the conflict. "Why should he take it?" asked Bowdon. "He can get along very well without it; I don't fancy him at the counter." "Oh, it's so evidently the sensible thing." "I've heard you tell him yourself not to go and sell ribbons." How exasperating are these reminders! "I've grown wiser in ever so many ways lately," she retorted with a smile. There was an opening for a lover here. She gave it him with a forlorn hope of its acceptance. "Yes; but I'm not sure it's a good thing to grow so very wise," he said. Then he came and sat by her. "You mustn't be sentimental," she warned him. "Remember we're elderly people." He insisted on being rather sentimental; with a keen jealousy she assessed his sincerity. Sometimes he almost persuaded her; she prayed so hard to be convinced; but the wish begot no true conviction. Then she was within an ace of throwing his pledge back in his face; but still she clung to her triumph with all its alloy and all its incompleteness. She had brought him to say he loved her; could she not bring him in very truth to love? Why had Ora but to lift a finger while she put out all her strength in vain? It would not have consoled her a whit had she been reminded of Ora's tears. Like most of us, she would have chosen to win and weep. As Bowdon strolled slowly back through the Park, "Where are you off to in such a hurry?" asked Bowdon. Ashley looked openly happy; he had an air of being content with life, of being sure that he could make something satisfactory out of it, and of having forgotten, for the time being at all events, any incidental drawbacks which might attend on it. Bowdon was smitten with an affectionate envy, and regarded the young man with a grim smile. "Going to see a lady," said Ashley. "You seem to be making a day of it," observed Bowdon. "In the morning you refuse a fortune, in the afternoon—" "Oh, you've heard about the fortune, have you? I've just been down to Buckingham Palace Road, to congratulate young Jewett on being in—and myself on being out. Now, as I mentioned, Lord Bowdon—" "Now you're on your way to see Miss Pinsent?" "Right; you've guessed it, my lord," laughed Ashley. "You don't seem to be ashamed of yourself." "No, I'm not." "You know all about Mr. Fenning?" "Well, as much as most of us know about him. But I don't see why I shouldn't take tea with Miss Ora Pinsent." Bowdon turned and began to walk slowly along beside Ashley; Ashley looked at his watch again and resigned "Jewett's the ablest little cad, I know," said Ashley. "At least I think he's a cad, though I can't exactly tell you why." "Of course he's a cad," said Bowdon, who had dined with Bob Muddock to meet him. "There's no salient point you can lay hold of," mused Ashley; "it's pervasive; you can tell it when you see him with women, you know; that brings it out. But he's got a head on his shoulders." "That's more than can be said for you at this moment, my friend." "I'm enjoying myself very much, thank you," said Ashley with a radiant smile. "You won't be for long," retorted Bowdon, half in sorrow, half in the involuntary malice so often aroused by the sight of gay happiness. "Look here, you ought to be idiotic yourself just now," Ashley remonstrated. Then out came his watch again. The sight of it relieved Bowdon from the fear that he had betrayed himself; evidently he occupied no place at all in his companion's thoughts. "Be off," he said with rueful good-nature. "Only don't say I didn't tell you." Ashley laughed, nodded carelessly, and set off again at his round pace. But presently the round pace became intolerably slow, and he hailed a hansom. He was by way of being economical about hansoms, often pointing out how fares mounted up; but he took a good many. He was soon landed at the little house in Chelsea. Ora was not in the room when Janet ushered him in. "I'll tell my mistress, sir," said Janet gravely, taking up a smelling-bottle which stood on Ora's little table and carrying it off with her. Blind to this subtle indication that all was not well in the house, Ashley roamed about the room. He noticed with much satisfaction his portrait in the silver frame and his roses in a vase; then he looked at the photographs on the mantel-piece; falling from these, his eyes rested for a moment in idleness on a letter which bore the postmark "Bridgeport, Conn." "Ah, here she is!" he cried, as a step sounded and the door-handle was turned. Ora entered and closed the door; but she did not advance towards him; the smelling-bottle was in her hand. "I wrote you a note telling you not to come," she said. "Thank heaven I didn't get it," he answered cheerfully. "I haven't been home since the morning. You can't send me away now, can you?" Ora walked slowly towards the sofa; he met her half-way and held out both his hands; she gave him one of hers in a listless despairing fashion. "Oh, I know!" said he. "You've been making yourself unhappy?" She waved him away gently, and sat down. "What was in the note you wrote me?" he asked, standing opposite to her. "That I could never see you again," she said. "Oh, come!" Ashley expostulated with a laugh. "That's rather summary, isn't it? What have I done?" "Irene Kilnorton has been here." "Ah! And was she disagreeable? She is sometimes—from a sense of duty or what she takes for it." "Yes, she was disagreeable." "If that's all—" he began, taking a step forward. "That's not all," Ora interrupted. "Are my eyes red?" "You've not been crying?" "Yes, I have," she retorted, almost angrily. "Oh, why did I go with you on Sunday? Why did you make me go?" She seemed to be conscience-stricken; he drew up a chair and sat down by her. She did not send him away now but looked at him appealingly. She had something of the air that she had worn in the inn parlour, but there joy had been mingled with her appeal; there was no joy in her eyes now. "We didn't do much harm on Sunday," he said. "I believe I'm preventing you doing what you ought to do, what all your friends wish for you, what would be best for you. It's just like me. I can't help it." "What are you preventing me from doing?" "Oh, you know. Irene says you are quite getting to like her. And she's so nice." "But Lady Kilnorton's engaged already." "You know I don't mean Lady Kilnorton. Don't make fun now, Ashley, don't." Ashley leant forward suddenly and kissed her cheek. "Oh, that's not the least use," she moaned disconsolately. "If that was all that's wanted, I know you'd do it." A mournful smile appeared on her lips. "But it only makes it worse. I've made up my mind to something." "So have I. I've made up my mind that you're the most charming woman in the world, and that I don't care a hang about anything else." "But you must, you know. We must be reasonable." "Oh, I see Irene Kilnorton's been very disagreeable!" "It's not Irene Kilnorton." "Is it my true happiness, then?" "No," said Ora, with another fugitive smile. "It's not exactly your true happiness." "Well, then, I don't know what it is." Ora was silent for a moment, her dark eyes filled with woe. "There's a letter on the mantel-piece," she said. "Will you give it to me?" He rose and took the letter. "This one from America?" he asked. "I say, you're not going off there, starring, are you? Because I shall have to come too, you know." "No, I'm not going there." She took the letter out of its envelope. "Read it," she said, and handed it to him. Somehow, before he read a word of it, the truth flashed into his mind. He looked at her and said one word: "Fenning?" She nodded and then let her head fall back on the sofa. He read the letter carefully and jealously; that it was written by a friend's hand no doubt prevented Jack Fenning from saying more, as he himself hinted; yet the colourlessness and restraint of what he wrote were a comfort to Ashley. He laid the letter down on the table and looked for a moment at his own picture. Ora's eyes were on him; he leant forward, took her hand, and raised it to his lips. "Poor dear!" said he. Then he folded the letter, put it in its envelope, laid the envelope on the mantel-piece, read Bridgeport, Conn., again on the postmark, and, turning, stood looking down on her. He had not got quite home to the heart of the situation. All that day long, as it seemed to him, there had been ineffectual efforts to With a curious sense of surviving ignorance, with an uncomfortable recognition that he was only at the beginning of the study and on the outskirts of a knowledge of the woman whom he already loved and held nearest to him of anybody in the world, Ashley discovered that he had no idea in which way Ora would face the situation, what would be her temper, or what her decision. For the first time in their acquaintance a flash of discomfort, almost of apprehension, shot across his mind. "Well, dear?" he asked, very gently. "I'm going to tell him to come," said she. |