It wanted a week to Christmas. Rufus sat in his easy chair with his feet on the fender and an open book on his knee. He had been hard at work till dark, after which he had taken a mile's walk into the country, and was now waiting for his supper to be brought in. He was not impatient, however. The book he had been reading was one that Madeline Grover had left with him. A volume of Tennyson, containing nearly all the poet's published work, and, as was nearly always the case, the writer had set him thinking on the problems of life and death and immortality. Outwardly there had been no change in his life during the last two or three months. Directly his doctors gave him permission he turned again to his invention, glad of the relief that work afforded. As far as he could judge, he was moving, slowly but surely, to complete success. The thought of failure very rarely crossed his mind. But while outwardly there was no change, inwardly there was a distinct evolution. He found himself unconsciously viewing life from a different standpoint. It was easy to laugh at the claims of priests and prelates, and to poke fun at musty and worn-out creeds. Easy to riddle with merciless logic the stupendous dogmas of the Churches, and the monumental follies of so-called theologians, but when all that had been done to his complete satisfaction, he was no nearer the solution of the riddle of life. Moreover, he became painfully conscious of the fact that a philosophy of denials was not sufficient. He wanted something definite and something positive. An iconoclast might be a very useful individual; but when the destructive process had been completed, was there nothing more to be done? Were there no positive blocks of truth with which to erect a temple? There were questions instinctive in the human soul which asked for an answer. Had the broad universe no answer to give? Had faith no place in the eternal and immeasurable scheme. If science could not prove, if philosophy halted and broke down, was there nothing left? Was religion a thing to be dismissed with a sneer? Might not faith be as truly a faculty of the human soul as reason? So all unconsciously he retraced his steps from the barren realm of negation to the region of inquiry. He ceased to be dogmatic. Materialism did not explain everything. Theology, like other sciences, might be empirical, and yet its groundwork and framework might still be truth. When a man begins to inquire he begins to grow, when he ceases to inquire the winter of decay sets in. Moreover, it is not the province of the human will to determine the direction of growth. It may be upward or outward, in this direction or in that. The mind pursues its way with an unerring instinct as the roots of trees follow the courses of the springs. Rufus had been reading "Crossing the Bar" for the fiftieth time, and now he sat with the open book on his knees, wondering where he was intellectually and religiously. He refused however, to question himself too closely. He preferred for the present to drift. Some day he might sight land, and find a safe anchorage. Yet one or two things were becoming daily more clear. One was, that in any perfect scheme a future life was necessary to the completion of this. Another was, that human life, if only because of its relationships and possibilities, was a more sacred thing than he at one time had been willing to grant. And a third was, that love was not a mere physical or mental affinity. It was something that went farther and struck deeper. It was a soul relation that remained untouched and independent of time and change. He had not seen Madeline Grover for considerably more than two months. No message or whisper had passed between them. In the chances of human life he knew that he might never speak to her again. Yet his love remained fixed and unshaken. It was not something that he had put on as an extra garment, and that in the wear and tear of life he might lose again. It was part of himself—woven into the fibre of his being. Perhaps his love for Madeline, more than anything else, made him think of the problem of immortality. Whittier had said: How well he remembered that afternoon when Madeline read "Snow-Bound" to him, in which these lines occurred. He had never been able to get them out of his mind since. They had followed him like a haunting echo of something long forgotten, had stirred his heart with a thousand vague hopes and dreams. If Love could never lose its own, Madeline might yet be his. In some far-away region beyond the reach of human vision, beyond the stress and passion of earth, beyond the darkness and the doubting, beyond Madeline had a habit of marking with a pencil the passages in a book she liked, and in one of the volumes she left behind he found these words marked with a double line down the margin: I sometimes think that heaven will be A green place and an orchard tree, And one sweet Angel known to me. Could he have put his wildest dreams and longings into words, nothing could have fitted better. It expressed all the heaven he wanted—all the beauty, and all the companionship his soul desired. He was disturbed in his meditations by a knock on the outer door, and a minute or two later he heard a familiar voice in the passage inquiring if he were at home. He rose to his feet in a moment, and pushed Tennyson into a dark corner out of sight. Then the door of his sitting-room was flung open, and Felix Muller entered unannounced. Rufus greeted him with a look of inquiry in his eyes—an inquiry, however, which he did not attempt to shape into words. Muller made his way to the fire at once, and spread his hands over the grate. "It's a glorious night," he said, "but cold. The roads are as hard as iron, and the moon makes it almost as light as day." "Have you driven over?" Rufus inquired. "Yes, I had to see Farmer Udy at Longridge, and so I thought as I was so near, I would drive a little farther and see you. How have you been getting on this long time?" "Fairly well on the whole, I think. Of course, my accident upset all my calculations for a while, but at "That's right, I'm glad to hear it. And when do you think the thing will be properly launched?" "Well, it is not easy to say positively, but I should give six months as an outside limit." "You expected at first that the whole thing would be completed in six months." "That is true, but I had not reckoned on the contingency of a broken leg." "But apart from your accident you were out of your calculations." "A little. When you are dependent to so large an extent upon other people, it is impossible to be absolutely sure as to dates." "Then your six months may run into nine months?" "Oh, no; six months more gives a wide margin for every contingency." Muller withdrew from the fire and dropped into an easy-chair that Rufus had pulled round for him. For a moment or two there was silence, then Muller, diving his hand into his breast-pocket, said in his most casual tone, "You don't mind my having a smoke, do you?" "My dear fellow, I beg your pardon," Rufus said, hurriedly, "but the truth is I was waiting for supper; won't you have something to eat first? The cold drive ought to have given you an appetite!" "Well, now that you mention it, I think I do feel a bit peckish." "You will have to be content with simple fare, but such as I have, etc.," and he went out of the room to hunt up Mrs. Tuke. Rufus watched his guest narrowly while he ate, and felt sure that he owed this visit not to the Conversation flagged during the meal. Muller ate like a man whose thoughts were engaged somewhere else, and on something vastly more important than eating and drinking. Rufus began to have an uncomfortable feeling that his visit boded no good, and yet he had not the courage to precipitate matters by asking impertinent questions. As soon as the supper-tray was taken away, Rufus produced a box of cigars, and for a minute or two they blew smoke in silence. Muller was the first to speak. Looking at his cigar carefully, as if examining the brand, he said in his most casual manner, "I suppose, Sterne, you have never considered the possibility of being forestalled in your invention?" "Well, no," he said slowly, but with a startled look in his eyes. "I cannot say that I have ever seriously considered such a possibility." "And yet it is notorious in the realm of discovery and invention, that the same idea has been hit upon by different men in different parts of the world almost at the same time." "I do not remember that fact being brought clearly to my mind," Rufus said, wondering if someone had forestalled him. "It is true, nevertheless. I could give you illustrations if I had time. But what is important at the present moment is that a man away up in Westmorland has got ahead of you." "No!" Rufus said, in a tone of alarm. "Well, perhaps I ought to have said that he appears to have got his claim in first. I do not understand all the technicalities of the case, but he appears to me to Rufus unfolded the cutting with hands that trembled in spite of himself. If he had been forestalled then life with him was at an end. The greater part of the thousand pounds was spent or pledged already. Failure meant that he would have now to employ his ingenuity in devising a method of escaping from the world in a way that would not awaken suspicion. Muller adjusted his pince-nez and watched his companion while he read. Rufus summoned to his aid all the resolution he possessed and preserved a perfectly impassive face. "Well?" Muller questioned, when Rufus had got to the bottom of the slip. "It's a little disconcerting," was the answer. "But I shall not fling up the sponge yet." "But he has got hold of your idea!" "Not exactly." "At any rate he has got uncomfortably near to it." "He has got nearer than I like, I admit. But the greater part of what he claims is mere bluff." "But his objective and yours are precisely the same?" "No, not precisely. I go much farther than he does, as Stephenson went farther than Watt." "That is in your application of the principle. But is not the principle the same?" "It is similar, though not identical. I have gone all over the ground he is travelling now." "And in another month he may be all over your ground." "There is danger, of course, but I think still I shall get in first." "I hope you may. But I confess when I tumbled across that article this morning it made me feel mightily uncomfortable." "It is a little upsetting, no doubt." "You see, he must have secured himself pretty well, or he would not have permitted so much of the scheme to get into print. Don't you see it largely discounts anyone else who comes after, though he may have something better." "Yes, I admit the force of all you say," Rufus answered slowly. "But my game is not up yet." "I hope not, indeed. I should regard it as nothing short of a calamity were you to fail." "If the worst comes to the worst it will have to be faced, that is all. In any case, you will not suffer loss." "There you are mistaken. You are my friend. And friends are not so plentiful that one can contemplate the disappearance of even one of them with equanimity." "That may be true. But mercifully, the dead are soon forgotten. You will soon get used to my absence." "I sincerely hope the occasion will not arise," Muller said, speaking slowly and gravely. "Indeed, as I said before, I should regard your failure as a calamity. Still, there is no getting over the fact that what you regarded as impossible less than six months ago has come very definitely within the realm of possibility." "Yes," Rufus said, with some hesitation. "I am bound to admit that the chance of failure seems less remote than it did." "I am sorry to have to discuss this matter with you again," Muller went on, after a pause. "I can assure you it is almost as painful to me as it must be to you. Still business is business, and I have to think "I thought you had no soul," Rufus said, with a pathetic smile. "Oh, don't joke over mere figures of speech," Muller said, staring into the fire. "I tell you I feel terribly upset." "But my cause is not lost yet," Rufus said with forced cheerfulness. "No, it may not be. But, on the other hand, it may be. If your competitor has gone so far, he may during the next week or month go all the rest of the distance." "I must take my chance of that." "The point with me is—supposing the worst comes to the worst, have you anything on which you can raise a loan? I hate the thought of your slipping out of life in the flower of your youth." "Look here, Muller," Rufus said, summoning to his aid all his strength and resolution. "We discussed this matter at the beginning. I counted the cost and took the risk. If the worst comes to the worst I am not going to show the white feather." "I do not doubt your courage for a moment," Muller said. "But I want to point out that it will take a little time to realise your estate. I presume you have made your will." Rufus went to a drawer and took out a large envelope which he passed on to his companion. Muller opened the envelope and drew out the paper slowly. Then he adjusted his pince-nez, and began to read. "Yes," he said, after a long pause, "this is quite in order—quite." "And in case I am driven to take my departure," Rufus said, in a hard, even voice, "I will give you "You think there is no other way of meeting the case?" Muller questioned. "In case my scheme fails there is no other way," Rufus answered. "Now let us not discuss the matter again. I understand your anxiety. I should be a bit anxious if I were in your place. But you have my word of honour. Let that be enough." "It is enough, my boy—it is enough!" Muller said, gushingly. "Meanwhile we need not count upon failure until forced to do so. I shall not fail if effort and determination can avert it." When Muller had gone, Rufus sat for a long time staring into the dying fire. Then he picked up the newspaper cutting, and read through the article very carefully a second time. "No, he has not got my idea quite," he muttered, "but he has come uncomfortably near to it." Then he drew a long breath and shut his teeth tightly. Life had grown a more precious thing of late, and hope had taken new shapes and forms. Moreover, the possibility of a conscious existence beyond the shadow of death had been looming larger and larger for months past, and with that possibility other possibilities had come into view. What if the consequences of conduct followed men into the unseen? What if sin should separate a soul from the soul it loved? What if this life were a trust for which we should be held responsible? What if suicide should be as heinous a crime as murder? What if dying by one's own hand should stain the soul with deeper dishonour than any broken vow or unfulfilled promise? He drew away his eyes from the fire and shuddered slightly as these thoughts "If I had only known six months ago what I know now," he reflected, "I should not have put my head into this noose with so light a heart. I should have been content to have gone on with my work as time-keeper at the mine. But I was impatient for success, and quite certain that death was the end of all things." Then across the frosty air the parish clock fixed high in the church tower struck the hour of eleven. Rufus counted the strokes as they vibrated solemnly through the night. "Do the dead ever hear, I wonder," he said to himself, and he shuddered again. Then his thoughts turned to the book that he had been reading earlier in the evening and he began to repeat almost unconsciously one of the stanzas that Madeline had marked: Twilight and evening bell, And after that the dark, And may there be no sadness of farewell When I embark. And though from out the bounds of time and space The floods may bear me far, I hope—— Then he stopped suddenly and rose hurriedly to his feet. "I am growing morbid," he said. "I wish Muller had kept the article to himself. In a case of this kind ignorance is bliss." And he turned out the lamp and climbed slowly upstairs to bed. |