In June of the following year two young Englishmen, who were making a swift tour of the near East, were sitting one evening in a public garden at Pera. The west wind, which had been blowing all day, had gone down with the coming of night. The air was deliciously warm, but not sultry. The travelers had dined well, but not too well, and were ready to be happy, and to see in others the reflection of their own contented holiday mood. It was delightful to be “on the loose,” without responsibilities, and with a visit to Brusa to look forward to in the immediate future. They sat under the stars, sipped their coffee, listened to the absurd music played by a fifth-rate band in a garishly-lighted kiosk, and watched with interest the coming and going of the crowd of Turks and Perotes, with whom mingled from time to time foreign sailors from ships lying off the entrance to the Golden Horn and a few tourists from the hotels of Pera. Just behind them sat their guide, a thin and eager Levantine, half-Greek and half-Armenian, who, for some inscrutable reason, declared that his name was John. There was little romance in this garden set in the midst of the noisy European quarter of Constantinople. The music was vulgar; Greek waiters with dissipated faces ran to and fro carrying syrups and liqueurs; corpulent Turks sat heavily over glasses of lager beer; overdressed young men of enigmatic appearance, with oily thick hair, shifty eyes, and hands covered with cheap rings, swaggered about smoking cigarettes and talking in loud, ostentatious voices. Some women were there, fat and garish for the most part, liberally powdered and painted, and crowned with hats at which Paris would have stared almost in fear. There were also children, dark, even swarthy, with bold eyes, shrill voices, immodest bearing, who looked as if they had long since received the ugly freedom of the streets, and learned lessons no children ought to know. Presently the band stopped playing and there was a general movement of the crowd. People got up from the little tables and began to disperse. “John” leaned forward to his employers, and in a quick and rattling voice informed them that a “fust-rate” variety entertainment was about to take place in another part of the garden. Would they come to see it? There would be beautiful women, very fine girls such as can only be gazed on in Constantinople, taking part in the “show.” The young men agreed to “have a look at it,” and followed John to a place where many round tables and chairs were set out before a ramshackle wooden barrack of a theatre, under the shade of some pepper trees, through whose tresses the stars peeped at a throng and a performance which must surely have surprised them. The band, or a portion of it, was again at work, playing an inane melody, and upon the small stage two remarkably well-developed and aquiline-featured women of mature age, dressed as very young children in white socks, short skirts which displayed frilled drawers, and muslin bonnets adorned with floating blue and pink ribbons, swayed to and fro and joined their cracked voices in a duet, the French words of which seemed to exhale a sort of fade obscenity. While they swayed and jigged heavily, showing their muscular legs to the staring audience, they gazed eagerly about, seeking an admiration from which they might draw profit when their infantile task was over. Presently they retired, running skittishly, taking small leaps into the air, and aimlessly blowing kisses to the night. “Very fine girls!” murmured John to his young patrons. “They make much money in Pera.” One of the young men shrugged his shoulders with a smile. “Get us two Turkish coffees, John!” he said. Then he turned to his companion. “I say, Ellis, have you noticed an English feller—at least I take him to be English—who’s sitting over there close to the stage, sideways to us?” “No; where is he?” asked his companion. “You see that old Turk with the double chin?” “Rather.” “Just beyond him, sitting with a guide who’s evidently Greek.” “I’ve got him.” “Watch him. I never saw such a face.” A blowzy young woman, in orange color and green, with short tinsel-covered skirts, bounded wearily on to the stage, smiling, and began to sing: Ellis looked across at the man to whom his attention had been drawn. This man was seated by a little table on which were a siphon, a bottle of iced water, and a tall tumbler nearly half-full of a yellow liquid. He was smoking a large dark-colored cigar which he now and then took from his mouth with a hand that was very thin and very brown. His face was dark and browned by the sun, but looked startlingly haggard, as if it were pale or even yellowish under the sunburn. About the eyes there were large wrinkles, spraying downwards over the cheek bones and invading the cheeks. He wore a mustache, and was well-dressed in a tweed suit. But his low collar was not very fresh, and his tie was arranged in a slovenly fashion and let his collar stud be seen. He sat with his legs crossed, staring at the grimacing woman on the stage with a sort of horribly icy intentness. The expression about his lips and eyes was more than bitter; it showed a frozen fierceness. On the other side of the table was seated a lean, meager guide, obviously one of those Greeks who haunt the quays of Constantinople on the look out for arriving travelers. Now and then this Greek leaned forward and, with a sort of servile and anxious intelligence, spoke to his companion. He received no reply. The other man went on smoking and staring at the boite de surprises as if he were alone. And somehow he seemed actually to be alone, encompassed by a frightful solitude. “A tragic face, isn’t it?” said the man who had first spoken. “By Jove it is!” returned the officer. “I wonder that woman can go on singing so close to it.” “Probably she hasn’t seen him. How many years do you give him?” “Thirty-eight or forty.” “He isn’t out for pleasure, that’s certain.” “Pleasure! One would suppose he’d been keeping house with Medusa and—the deuce, she’s seen him!” At this moment the singer looked towards the stranger, quavered, faltered, nearly broke down, then, as if with an effort, raised her voice more shrilly and defiantly, exaggerated her meaningless gestures and looked away. A moment later she finished her song and turned to strut off the stage. As she did so she shot a sort of fascinated glance at the dark man. He took his cigar from his mouth and puffed the smoke towards her, probably without knowing that he did so. With a startled jerk she bounded into the wings. At this moment John returned with two cups of coffee. “You know everything, John. Tell us who that man over there is,” said Ellis, indicating the stranger. John sent a devouring glance past the old Turk’s double chin, a glance which, as it were, swallowed at one gulp the dark man, his guide, the siphon, the water-bottle and the glass partially full of the yellow liquid. “I dunno him. He is noo.” “Is he English?” “Sure!” returned John, almost with a sound of contempt. He never made a mistake about any man’s nationality, could even tell a Spanish Jew from a Portuguese Jew on a dark night at ten yards’ distance. “I tell you who he is later. I know the guide, a damned fool and a rogue of a Greek that has been in prison. He robs all his people what take him.” “You needn’t bother,” said Ellis curtly. “Of course not. Shut up, John, and don’t run down your brothers in crime.” “That man my brother!” John upraised two filthy ringed hands. “That dirty skunk my brother! That son of—” “That’ll do, John! Be quiet.” “To-morrow I till you all about the gentleman. Here is another fine girl! I know her very well.” A languid lady, with a face painted as white as a wall, large scarlet lips, eyes ringed with bluish black, and a gleaming and trailing black gown which clung closely to her long and snake-like body, writhed on to the stage, looking carefully sinister. The dark man swallowed his drink, got up and made his way to the exit from the garden. He passed close to the two young men, followed by his Greek, at whom John cast a glance of scowling contempt, mingled, however, with very definite inquiry. “By Jove! He’s almost spoilt my evening,” said Ellis. “But we made a mistake, Vernon. He isn’t anything like forty.” “No; more like thirty under a cloud.” “By the look of things I should guess there are plenty of people under a cloud in Pera. But that English feller stands out even here. This girl is certainly a first-class wriggler, if she’s nothing else.” They did not mention the stranger again that night. But John had not forgotten him, and when he arrived at their hotel next day he at once opened his capacious mouth and let out the following information: “The gentleman’s name is Denton, his other name is Mervyn, he is three days in Constantinople, he lives in Hughes’s Hotel in Pera, a very poor house where chic people they never goes, he is out all day and always walkin’, he will not take a carriage, and he is never tired, Nicholas Gounaris—the Greek guide—he is droppin’ but the gentleman he does not mind, he only sayin’ if you cannot walk find me another guide what can, every night he is out, too, and he is goin’ to Stamboul when it is dark, he is afraid of nothin’ and goin’ where travelers they never go, one night Gounaris he had to show the traveler—” But at this point Ellis shut John up. “That’ll do,” he observed. “You’re a diligent rascal, John. One must say that. But we aren’t a couple of spies, and we don’t want to hear any more about that feller.” And John, without bearing any malice, went off to complete his arrangements for the journey to Brusa. Two days later, Mrs. Clarke, who was at Buyukderer in a villa she had taken for the summer months, but who had come into Constantinople to do some shopping, saw “Mervyn Denton” in a side street close to the British Embassy. Those distressed eyes of hers were very observant. There were many people in the street, and “Denton,” who was alone, was several yards away from her, and was walking with his back towards her; but she immediately recognized him, quickened her steps till she was close to him, and then said: “Dion Leith!” Dion heard the husky voice and turned round. He did not say anything, but he took off the soft hat he was wearing. Mrs. Clarke stared at him with the unself-conscious directness which was characteristic of her. She saw Dion for the first time since the tragedy which had changed his life, but she had written to him more than once. Her last letter had come from Buyukderer. He had answered it, but he had not told her where he was, had not even hinted to her that he might come to Constantinople. Nevertheless, she did not now show any surprise. She just looked at him steadily, absorbed all the change in him swiftly, and addressed herself to the new man who stood there before her. “Come with me to the Hotel de Paris. I’m spending the night there, and go back to-morrow to Buyukderer. I had something to do in town.” She had not given him her hand, and he did not attempt to take it. He put on his hat, turned and walked at her side. Neither of them spoke a word until they had come into the uproar of the Grande Rue, which surrounded them with a hideous privacy. Then Mrs. Clarke said; “Where are you staying?” “At Hughes’s Hotel.” “I never heard of it.” “It’s in Brusa Street. It’s cheap.” “And horrible,” she thought. But she did not say so. “I have only been here three days,” Dion added. “Do you remember that I once said to you I knew you would come back to Constantinople?” For a moment his face was distorted. When she saw that she looked away gravely, at the glittering shops and at the Perotes who were passing by with the slow and lounging walk which they affect in the Grande Rue. Presently she heard him say: “You were right. It was all arranged. It was all planned out. Even then I believe I knew it would be so, that I should come back here.” “Why have you come?” “I don’t know,” he answered, and his voice, which had been hard and fierce, became suddenly dull. “He really believes that,” she thought. “Here is the hotel,” she said. “I’m all alone. Jimmy has been out, but has had to go back to Eton. I wish you had seen him.” “Oh no!” said Dion, almost passionately. They went up in a lift, worked by a Montenegrin boy with a big round forehead, to her sitting-room on the second floor. It was large, bare and clean, with white walls and awnings at the windows. She rang the bell. A Corsican waiter came and she ordered tea. The roar of the street noises penetrated into the shadowy room through the open windows, and came to Dion like heat. He remembered the silence of Claridge’s. Suddenly his head began to swim. It seemed to him that his life, all of it that he had lived till that moment, was spinning round him, and that, as it spun, it gave out a deafening noise and glittered. He sat down on a chair which was close to a small table, laid his arms on the table, and hid his face against them. Still the deafening noise continued. The sum of it was surely made up of the uproar of the Grand Rue with the uproar of his spinning life added to it. He saw yellow balls ringed with pale blue rapidly receding from his shut eyes. Mrs. Clarke looked at him for a moment; then she went into the adjoining bedroom and shut the door behind her. She did not come back till the waiter knocked and told her that tea was ready. Then she opened the door. She had taken off her hat and gloves, and looked very white and cool, and very composed. Dion was standing near the windows. The waiter, who had enormously thick mustaches, and who evidently shaved in the evening instead of in the morning, was going out at the farther door. He shut it rather loudly. “Every one makes a noise in Pera. It’s de rigueur,” said Mrs. Clarke, coming to the tea-table. “Do you know,” said Dion, “I used to think you looked punished?” “Punished—I!” There was a sudden defiance in her voice which he had never heard in it before. He came up to the table. “Yes. In London I used to think you had a punished look and even a haunted look. Wasn’t that ridiculous? I didn’t know then what it meant to be punished, or to be haunted. I hadn’t enough imagination to know, not nearly enough. But some one or something’s seen to it that I shall know all about punishment and haunting. So I shall never be absurd about you again.” After a pause she said: “I wonder why you thought that about me?” “I don’t know. It just came into my head.” “Well, sit down and let us have our tea.” Dion sat down mechanically, and Mrs. Clarke poured out the tea. “I wish it was Buyukderer,” she said. “Oh, I like the uproar.” “No, you don’t—you don’t. Pera is spurious, and all its voices are spurious voices. To-morrow morning, before I go back, you and I will go to Eyub.” “To the dust and the silence and the cypresses—O God!” said Dion. He got up from his chair. He was beginning to tremble. Was it coming upon him at last then, the utter breakdown which through all these months he had—somehow—kept at a distance? Determined not to shake, he exerted his will violently, till he felt as if he were with dreadful difficulty holding, keeping together, a multitude of living, struggling things, which were trying to get away out of his grasp. And these living things were the multitudinous parts of the whole which was himself. All that now was had been foreshadowed. There had been writing on the wall. “I am grateful to you for several things. I’m not going to give you the list now. Some day, perhaps, I shall tell you what they are . . . among the cypresses of Eyub.” She had said that to him in London, and her voice had been fatalistic as she spoke; and in the street that same day, on his way home, the voice of the boy crying the last horror had sounded to him like a voice from the sea, a strange and sad cry lifted up between Europe and Asia. And now—— “How did you know?” he said. “How did you know that we should be here together some day?” “Sit down. You must sit down.” She put her languid and imperative hand on his wrist, and he sat down. He took her hand and put it against his forehead for a moment. But that was no use. For her hand seemed to add fever to his fever. “I have seen you standing amongst graves in the shadow of cypress trees,” he said. “In England I saw you like that. But—how did you know?” “Drink your tea. Don’t hurry. We’ve got such a long time.” “I have. I have all the days and nights—every hour of them—at my own disposal. I’m the freest man on earth, I suppose. No work, no ties.” “You’ve given up everything?” “Oh, of course. That is, the things that were still left to me to give up. They didn’t mean much.” “Eat something,” she said, in a casual voice, pushing a plate of delicious little cakes towards him. “Thank you.” He took one and ate. He regained self-control, but he knew that at any moment, if anything unusual happened, or if he dared to think, or to talk, seriously about the horror of his life, he would probably go down with a crash into an abyss in which all of his manhood, every scrap of his personal dignity, would be utterly lost. And still almost blindly he held on to certain things in the blackness which encompassed him. He still wished to play the man, and though in bitterness he had tried sometimes to sink down in degradation, his body—or so it had seemed to him—had resisted the will of the injured soul, which had said to it, “Go down into the dirt; seek satisfaction there. Your sanity and your purity of life have availed you nothing. From them you have had no reward. Then seek the rewards of the other life. Thousands of men enjoy them. Join that crowd, and put all the anemic absurdities of so-called goodness behind you.” He had almost come to hate the state he conceived of as goodness; yet the other thing, its opposite, evil, he instinctively rebelled against and even almost feared. The habit of a life-time was not to be broken in a day, or even in many days. Often he had thought of himself as walking in nothingness, because he rejected evil. Goodness had ruthlessly cast him out; and so far he had made no other friend, had taken no other comrade to his bruised and bleeding heart. Mrs. Clarke began to talk to him quietly. She talked abut herself, and he knew that she did this not because of egoism, but because delicately she wished to give him a full opportunity for recovery. She had seen just where he was, and she had understood his recoil from the abyss. Now she wished, perhaps, to help him to draw back farther from it, to draw back so far that he would no longer see it or be aware of it. So she talked of herself, of her life at Buyukderer in the summer, and in Pera in the autumn and spring. “I don’t go out to Buyukderer till the middle of May,” she said, “and I come back into town at the end of September.” “You manage to stand Pera for some months every year?” said Dion, listening at first with difficulty, and because he was making a determined effort. “Yes. An Englishwoman—even a woman like me—can’t live in Stamboul. And Pera, odious as it is, is in Constantinople, in the city which has a spell, though you mayn’t feel it yet.” She was silent for a moment, and they heard the roar from the Grande Rue, that street which is surely the noisiest in all Europe. Hearing it, Dion thought of the silence of the Precincts at Welsley. That sweet silence had cast him out. Hell must be full of roaring noises and of intense activities. Then Mrs. Clarke went on talking. There was something very feminine and gently enticing in her voice, which resembled no other voice ever heard by Dion. He felt kindness at the back of her talk, the wish to alleviate his misery if only for a moment, to do what she could for him. She could do nothing, of course. Nevertheless he began to feel grateful to her. She was surely unlike other women, incapable of bearing a grudge. For he had not been very “nice” to her in the days when he was happy and she was in difficulties. At this moment he vaguely exaggerated his lack of “niceness,” and perhaps also her pardoning temperament. In truth, he was desperately in need of a touch from the magic wand of sympathy. Believing, or even perhaps knowing, that to the incurably wounded man palliatives are of no lasting avail, he had deliberately fled from them, and gone among those who had no reason to bother about him. But now he was grateful. “Go on talking,” he said once, when she stopped speaking. And she continued talking about her life. She said nothing more about Jimmy. The Corsican waiter came and took away the tea things noisily. Her spell was broken. For a moment Dion felt dazed. He got up. “I ought to go,” he said. “Must you?” “Must!—Oh no! My time is my own, and always will be, I suppose.” “You have thrown up everything?” “What else could I do? The man who killed his own son! How could I stay in London, go among business men who knew me, talk about investments to clients? Suppose you had killed Jimmy!” There was a long silence. Then he said: “I’ve given up my name. I call myself Mervyn Denton. I saw the name in a novel I opened on a railway bookstall.” She got up and came near to him quietly. “This is all wrong,” she said. “What is?” “All you are doing, the way you are taking it all.” “What other way is there of taking such a thing?” “Will you come with me to Eyub to-morrow?” “It was written long ago that I am to go there with you. I’m quite sure of that.” “I’ll tell you what I mean there to-morrow.” She looked towards the window. “It’s like the roar of hell,” he said. And he went away. That night Mrs. Clarke dined alone downstairs in the restaurant. The cooking at the Hotel de Paris was famous, and attracted many men from the Embassies. Presently Cyril Vane, one of the secretaries at the British Embassy, came in to dine. He had with him a young Turkish gentleman, who was called away by an agent from the Palace in the middle of dinner. Vane, thus left alone, presently got up and came to Mrs. Clarke’s table. “May I sit down and talk to you for a little?” he said, with a manner that testified to their intimacy. “My guest has deserted me.” “Yes, do. Tell the waiter to bring the rest of your dinner here.” “But I have finished.” “Light your cigar then.” “If you don’t mind.” They talked for a few minutes about the things of every day and the little world they both lived in on the Bosporus; then Mrs. Clarke said: “I met a friend from England unexpectedly to-day.” “Did you?” “A man called Dion Leith.” “Dion Leith?” repeated Vane. He looked at her earnestly. “Now wait a moment!” His large, cool blue eyes became meditative. “It’s on the edge of my mind who that is, and yet I can’t remember. I don’t know him, but I’m sure I know of him.” “He fought in the South African War.” Suddenly Vane leaned forward. He was frowning. “I’ve got it! He fought, came back with the D.C.M., and only a few days afterwards killed his only child, a son, out shooting. I remember the whole thing now, the inquest at which he was entirely exonerated and the rumors about his wife. She’s a beautiful woman, they say.” “Very beautiful.” “She took it very badly, didn’t she?” “What do you mean by very badly?” “Didn’t she bear very hard on him?” “She couldn’t endure to see him, or to have him near her. Is that very wonderful?” “You stand up for her then?” “She was first and foremost a mother.” “Do you know,” Vane said rather dryly, “you are the only woman I never hear speak against other women. But when the whole thing was an accident?” “We can’t always be quite fair, or quite reasonable, when a terrible shock comes to us.” “It’s a problem, a terrible problem of the affections,” Vane said. “Had she loved her husband? Do you know?” “I know that he loved her very much,” said Mrs. Clarke. “He is here under an assumed name.” Vane looked openly surprised and even, for a moment, rather disdainful. “But then——” He paused. “Why did I give him away?” “Well—yes.” “Because I wish to force him to face things fully and squarely. It’s his only chance.” “Won’t he be angry?” “But I don’t mind that.” “You’ve had a reason in telling me,” said Vane quietly. “What is it?” “Come up to my sitting-room. We’ll have coffee there.” “Willingly. I feel your spell even when you’re weaving it for another man’s sake.” Mrs. Clarke did not reject the compliment. She only looked at Vane, and said: “Come.” |