"I feel horribly lonely somehow," said Gilbert to Henry. Ninian, in a hurry to catch the train for Boveyhayne at Waterloo, had left them at Charing Cross. Henry nodded his head. "This marrying and giving in marriage is the devil, isn't it?" Gilbert went on. "We ought to cheer ourselves up, Quinny!" "We ought, Gilbert!" "Let's go and see my play. Perhaps that'll make us feel merry and bright!..." "No," said Henry. "It wouldn't. It 'ud depress us. We'd keep thinking of Ninian and Roger. I think we ought to get drunk, Gilbert, very and incredibly drunk...." "I should feel like Mrs. Clutters' husband if I did that," Gilbert answered. "Aren't there any other forms of debauchery? Couldn't we go to a music-hall or a picture-palace or something? Or we might discuss our future!..." "I'm sick of this boarding house we're in," Henry exclaimed. "So am I, but I don't feel like setting up house again. I'm certain you'd go and get married the moment we'd settled into a place...." "I'm not a marrying man, Gilbert," Henry interrupted. "Well, what are you, Quinny?" "I don't know!" They were wandering aimlessly along the streets. They had drifted along Regent Street, and then had drifted into Oxford Street, and were going slowly in the direction of Marble Arch. "Quinny!" said Gilbert after a while. "Yes?" Henry answered. "Have you ... have you seen Cecily since you came back?" "Yes. Twice!" Gilbert did not ask the question which was on the tip of his tongue, but Henry was willing to give the answer without being asked. "She didn't appear to know I'd been away," he said. "She knew all the same!..." "She just said, 'Hilloa, Paddy I' and went on talking to the other people who were there too. I tried to outstay them, but Jimphy came in the first time, and there was a painter there the second time, who wouldn't budge. He's painting her portrait. I've not seen her since...." "You're glad, aren't you, that I kidnapped you, Quinny?" "In a way, yes!" "You got on with your book, anyhow. You'd never have done that if you'd stayed in town, trailing after Cecily!" "I can't quite make you out, Gilbert," Henry said, turning to his friend. "Are you in love with Cecily?" Gilbert nodded his head. "Of course, I am, but what's the good? Cecily doesn't love me any more than she loves you. She doesn't love any man particularly. She's ... just an Appetite. You and I are no more to her than ... than the caramel she ate last Tuesday. The only hope for us is that we shall grow out of this caramel state or at all events get the upper hand of it.... In the meantime, what are we going to do?" "Work, I suppose. 'Turbulence' is nearly finished, and I'm itching to get on with a new story I've thought of. I'm calling it 'The Wayward Man.' ..." "We might go into the country...." "Or hire a furnished flat for a while...." "Or do something.... Lordy God, Quinny, we're getting frightfully vague and loose-endy. We really must pull ourselves together. There's a bun-shop somewhere about. Suppose we have tea?" |