In looking back at that winter, most of its evenings seem to have been spent before the open fire, the room lighted only by its blaze. Sometimes Little Blossom lay across my knees, the firelight mirrored in her thoughtful eyes, her pink toes curling and uncurling to the heat. Sometimes she lay cradled in Julius's arms, while he crooned old ditties remembered from his own childhood. Bruno never seemed to tire of studying this new-comer to our home circle. He would stand with ears drooped forward, watching me bathe and dress her, so absorbed in contemplation that he would start when I spoke, as if he had forgotten my existence. He had always before seemed intensely jealous when Julius or I had noticed children, but with Little Blossom it was different; he seemed to share our feelings,—she was our baby. At first he showed a disposition to play with her as he had long ago romped with Rebecca's Happy hours, all too short! As spring advanced, our Little Blossom drooped. Her brain had always been in advance of her physical development. She had never the meaningless stare seen in normal babies. Instead, there was a wistful, pensive expression as she gazed into the fire or through the window, with always a quick dimpling smile when either of us spoke to her. There was much sickness in town, especially among young children. We decided to spend the summer months at the seashore. A cottage was leased, and trunks were packed full of summer clothes, draperies, and other joys and comforts. When the time came to start, the cry arose,— No one knew. None remembered seeing him since breakfast. It was now half-past ten. The train was to go at eleven, and we were three-quarters of a mile from the station! We felt utterly lost. It was impossible to leave Bruno, and yet we must go. Julius looked in all directions, calling and whistling. No answer. Our baggage had gone, a wagon full of it. The tickets were bought, and everything was arranged. Julius came in from an unsuccessful search, a look of desperation on his face. "There's no help for it," he said; "we must start, Bruno or no Bruno." We locked up the house and set off. As we drove along, I kept looking out, hoping to see the familiar form come dashing after us, but in vain. Julius was to come into town each morning to the office, returning to us at the seashore on the afternoon train. I began to think I could not know Bruno's fate (for I feared something serious must have happened) until the afternoon of the next day. We had been so delayed it was necessary to make all speed. We hurried into the station, and there, standing beside our heap of luggage, one eye for the packages and the other on the lookout for us, stood Bruno! He greeted us with such extravagant delight, and we felt so relieved at seeing him, that we found no reproaches ready. Besides, although he had so delayed us, it was quite evident that he had thought we had our hands over-full, and that by keeping his eye on the things he would be helping us. So he had followed the wagon, overlooked the unloading, and evidently had kept tally of every package. Our man who had driven the wagon was to go on with us to help in the transfer at the other end, and to make all ready for comfort in the cottage. He told us that Bruno had mounted guard over him as well as our effects, and while rather overdoing it, had been quite helpful. It is hard to write of the weeks that followed. I see Bruno racing up and down the beach and swimming out through the breakers, while Julius and I sit on either side of a little wicker wagon drawn up beyond the reach of the tide, watching him. I see him chasing crabs and sea-birds, or limping up to show us his foot stung by a stranded jelly-fish. Then—darkness.
One end of it is lighted by a lamp having a rose-colored shade. In the middle of the lighted end stands a crib. A little white-robed form lies within. The pink light so simulates a glow of health that the mother, sitting beside the crib, bends low, thinking the little breast heaves. But no. The waxen cheeks chill her lips. Still she bends and gazes on that loved little form. Bruno lies at the mother's feet. When she moves he rises, looking mournfully into the crib, then turns to rest his head on her knee. On a lounge, in the end of the room where shadows lurk, the father lies asleep, exhausted with grief. The curtains sway in the open windows, as if the room were breathing. All else is still. I see all this as if it were a scene in a dream or as a picture,—something in which I have no part; and yet I feel that my heart throbbed in that mother's bosom. I know that after she had sent away all kind friends, to watch alone that last night, it was literally and truly a "white night" to her. She felt neither sorrow nor grief. To-morrow it will be rent again, when the little form is hidden from her in its white casket; and again—at that bitterest moment Life can give—when the first handful of earth makes hollow echo above it. But to-night there is the uplifted feeling of perfect peace. Although it is the third sleepless night, there is no thought of weariness. All through the short hours she sits and feasts her eyes on the angelic face with its look of joy unutterable. And Bruno watches with her. The next day Bruno does not ask to join the sad procession leaving the cottage. He has no thought for self at such a time. As it turns the corner, his mournful eyes are seen at the window, gazing after his little playmate who is being carried away. Or does he realize it is only the beautiful body they are taking, which was all too frail for the bright spirit now flown these two days since! |