—Bliss Carman. Wentworth stood at the open window of the library watching Michael. Michael was lying on a deck chair on the terrace playing with a puppy. His face was losing a certain grey drawn look which it had worn since he had left prison. He looked more like himself since his hair had time to grow. Wentworth felt that he ought to be reassured about him, but a vague anxiety harassed him. Suddenly, without a moment's warning, the puppy fell asleep. Michael made a movement to reach it, but it was just beyond his grasp. In an instant Wentworth was beside him, lifting the sleeping mass of sleek fat on to Michael's knee. Michael's long hands made a little crib for it. "He will sleep now for a bit," he said contentedly. "Do you sleep better?" said Wentworth. He had "I sleep like a top. I'm asleep half the time." "You are much better the last few days." "Oh! I'm all right." "All Hampshire has been to call. I knew you would be bored, so I did not let them disturb you." "Thanks." "Is there anyone you would like to see?" "No one that I know of." "No one at all?" Michael made a mental effort which did not escape Wentworth. "I should like very much to see—presently—if it could be done——" "Yes," said Wentworth eagerly. "Of course it can be done, my dear boy. You would like to see?" "Doctor Filippi," said Michael, looking deprecatingly at Wentworth. "He was so good to me. And I am accustomed to seeing him. I miss him all the time. I wonder whether you would let him come and stay here for his holiday. He generally takes it in June. And—let me see—it's May now, isn't it?" Wentworth's heart swelled with jealousy and disappointment. The jealousy was of the doctor, the disappointment was about Fay. The larger of the two emotions was jealousy. "You have sent Doctor Filippi a very handsome present," he said coldly. "I chose it for you, a silver salver. I went up to London on purpose at your wish a week ago." "Y-yes." "And I don't think he would care to come here. No doubt he has his own friends. You must remember a man like that is poor. It would be putting him to expense." Michael looked down at the sleeping puppy. He did not answer. Wentworth was beginning to fear that his brother had an ungrateful, callous nature. Was Michael so self-absorbed—egotism revolted Wentworth—that he would never ask to see Wentworth's future wife, the woman who had shown such unceasing, such tender interest in Michael himself. "I hoped there was someone else, someone very dear to me, and a devoted friend of yours, whom you might like to see again." Wentworth spoke with deliberation. "I could send him a cheque. He need not be at any expense," said Michael in a low voice. His exhausted mind, slower to move than ever, had not left the subject of Doctor Filippi. His brother's last remark had not penetrated to it. Wentworth became scarlet. He made an impatient movement. Then part of the sense of his brother's last words tardily reached Michael's blurred faculties. "An old friend of mine," he said, vaguely flurried. "What old friend?" "Fay," said Wentworth, biting his lip. "Have you forgotten Fay entirely? How she tried to save you, how she grieved for you? Her great goodness to you? And what she is to me!" "No," said Michael. "No. I don't forget. Her "Won't you see her? She and Magdalen are driving over here this morning. You need not see Magdalen unless you like." "I should like. She is going to be married, too, isn't she? I feel as if I had heard someone say so." "Yes, to Lossiemouth. You remember him as Everard Constable, a touchy, ill-conditioned, cantankerous brute if ever there was one, who does not care a straw for anyone but himself. I can't think what she sees in him. But an Earl's an Earl. I always forget that. I have lived so much apart from the world and its sordid motives and love of wealth and rank that it is always a shock and a surprise when I come in contact with its way of looking at things. I never liked Magdalen. I always considered her superficial. But I never thought her mercenary—till now. But Fay——" "I will see her, too," said Michael. "Yes, of course. I somehow thought of Fay as—as—but my mind gets so confused—as at a great distance, quite removed all this time. Hundreds and hundreds of miles away in England. Left Italy for good." "My dear boy, she is living at Priesthope, four miles off. I've told you so over and over again. I go and see her every day." "Yes, at Priesthope, of course. Four miles. I know the way. You can go by Wind Farm, or Pilgrim Road. You did tell me. More cheerful as time passes on." Wentworth looked with perplexity at Michael's thin profile. The doctor had most solemnly assured him that his mind was only muffled and deadened by his He felt a sudden return of the blind despairing rage which was wont to grip him after his visits to Michael in prison. This inert, cold-blooded shadow; was this all that was left of his brother? A great tenderness welled up in his heart, the old, old protective tenderness of many years. He put his strong brown hand on his brother's emaciated, once beautiful hand, now disfigured by coarse labour, and scarred and discoloured at the wrist. "Get well, Michael," he said huskily. Michael's hand trembled a little, seemed to shrink involuntarily. Then a servant appeared suddenly, coming towards them across the grass, and Wentworth took back his hand instantly. "The Duchess of Colle Alto and Miss Bellairs are in the library." "Are you quite sure that you really wish to see them—that it will not tire you?" said Wentworth. "Quite sure." "I will bring them out." "No. Send one at a time. Fay first." Michael lay back and closed his eyes. On this May morning as Fay and Magdalen drove together to Barford, Magdalen looked at her sister's radiant face, not with astonishment, she had got over that, but with something more like fear. The happiness of some natures terrifies those who love them by its appearance of brittleness. To It is difficult for those who have imagination to understand the insouciance which looks so like heartlessness of the unimaginative. The inevitable meeting with Michael seemed to cast no shadow on Fay's spirits; Wentworth's ignorance of certain sinister facts did not seem to disturb her growing love for him. Their way lay through a pine wood under the shoulder of the down. The whortleberry with its tiny foliage made a miniature forest of pale golden green at the feet of the dark serried trunks of the pines. Small yellow butterflies hovered amid the topmost branches of this underfoot forest. Fay leaned out of the pony carriage and picked from the high bank a spray of whortleberry with a butterfly poised on it. "I thought for one minute I might find a tiny, tiny butterfly nest with eggs in it," she said. "I do wish butterflies had nests like birds, Magdalen, don't you? But this is a new butterfly, not ready to fly. I shall hurt it unless I'm careful." She made her sister stop the pony, and knelt down amid the shimmering whortleberry, and tenderly placed the sprig with the butterfly still clinging to it in a little pool of sunshine. But as she did it the butterfly walked from its twig on to her white hand and rested on it, opening and shutting its wings. It was a pretty sight to watch Fay coax it to a leaf. But Magdalen's heart ached for her sister as she knelt in the sunshine. Words rose to her lips for the twentieth time, but she choked them down again. What The vision is the claim, but it must be our own eyes that see it. We may not look at our spiritual life through another man's eyes. As Magdalen waited her eyes wandered to the blue haze between the tree trunks which was the sea, and marked a white band like a ribbon between the blue and the fields. That was a piece of land newly reclaimed from the sea. When a tract of land is thus captured, the first year that it is laid open to the ministry of sun and air and rain it bears an overflowing crop of white clover. The clover seed has lain dormant, perhaps a thousand years under the wash of the wave. The first spring tide after the sea is withdrawn it wakes and rushes up. It was so now in that little walled-in tract by the shore, where she had walked but yesterday. Surely it was to be so in Fay's heart, now that the bitter tides of remorse and selfishness were ceasing to submerge it, now that at last joy and tenderness were reaching it. Surely, love itself, the seeds of which lie dormant in every heart, love like a marvellous tide of white clover, was finding its chance at last, and would presently inundate her heart. Then, unharassed, undelayed by vain words and futile appeals from without—all would go well. At the last moment when the meeting with Michael was really imminent Fay's insouciance began, as Magdalen feared it might, to show signs of collapse. It deserted her entirely as they drove up to Barford. "Come out with me," she whispered in sudden panic, plucking at her sister's gown, when Wentworth asked her to go and speak to Michael for a few minutes in the garden. But Magdalen had drawn back gravely and resolutely, and had engaged Wentworth's attention, and Fay had been obliged to go alone across the lawn, in the direction of the deck chair. Her step, lagging and irresolute, was hardly audible on the grass, but Michael heard it, recognised it. We never forget the footfall, however light, that has trodden on our heart. The footfall stopped and he opened his eyes. Fay was standing before him. And so they met again at last, those two who had been lovers once. She looked long at the man she had broken. He was worn down to the last verge of exhaustion, barely more than a shadow in the suave sunshine. She would hardly have recognised him if it had not been for the tranquil steady eyes, and the grave smile. They were all that was left of him, of the Michael she had known. The rest was unfamiliar, repellant. And his hands! His hands were dreadful. Oh! if only she had known he was going to look like that she would never have come. Never, never! Fay experienced the same unspeakable horror and repugnance as if, walking in long, daisy-starred grass, she had suddenly stumbled against and nearly fallen over a dead body. The colour ebbed out of her face and lips. She stood before him without a word, shrinking, transfixed. He looked long at her, the woman for whom he had been content to suffer, that he might keep suffering He had not been able to shield her from pain after all. "Oh, Fay!" he said below his breath. "How you have suffered." "No one knows what it has been," she said hoarsely, sinking into a chair, trembling too much to stand. "I could not live through it again. I couldn't bear it, and I had to bear it." "You will never have to bear it again," he said with compassion. "It is over and done with. You are going to be happy now." "You have suffered too," she said, reddening. "Not like you. It has been worst for you. I never guessed that you had felt my imprisonment so much as I see now by your face you have." "Not have felt it! Not have suffered from it!" said Fay, amazed. "Michael, how could I help grieving day and night over it?" The question almost rose to his lips, "Why then did you not release me?" But the words were not spoken. There is one pain which we need not bear, but which some of us never rest till we have drawn it upon ourselves, that of extorting from the one we love vain excuses, unconscious lies, feeble, inadequate explanations that explain nothing. Let be. The excuses, the lies, Michael was silent. Though his body and mind were half dead, his spirit was alive and clear, moving swiftly where the spent mind could not follow. "How could I help breaking my heart over the thought of you in prison?" said Fay again, wounded to the quick. She stared at him, indignant tears smarting in her eyes. Another long look passed between them, on her side bewildered, pained, aghast at being so misunderstood, on his penetrating, melancholy, full of compassionate insight, that look which seems to herald the parting between two unequal natures, but which is in reality a perception that they have never met. "I knew you would rejoice when I was set free," he said tranquilly, smiling at her. "Ah! Here are Magdalen and Wentworth. How radiant she looks!" When Magdalen and Fay had departed, and Wentworth had seen them to the carriage, he came back and sat down by Michael. "Not over-tired?" he said, smiling self-consciously, and poking holes in the turf with his stick. "Not in the least." "She was looking a little pale to-day." It was obvious that he wished to talk about Fay. "She is more beautiful than ever," said Michael, willing to give his brother a leg-up. "Isn't she!" said the affianced lover expansively. "But it isn't her beauty I love most, it is her character. "I imagine not." "I can't believe she ever cared for the Duke. I saw him once, and he gave me the impression of a very cold-blooded individual." "I don't think he was cold-blooded." "Evidently not the kind of man capable of drawing the best out of a woman like Fay." "Perhaps not." The man who felt himself capable of this feat prodded a daisy and then went on: "You used to see a good deal of them in Rome before—while you were attachÉ there. Did you gather that it was a happy marriage, a true union?" "Not very happy." "I daresay he was selfish and inconsiderate. That is generally the crux in married life. Fay has had an overshadowed life so far, but I shall find my chief happiness in changing all that. It will be my object to guard her from the slightest touch of pain in future. The masculine impulse to shield and protect is very strongly developed in me." "It is sometimes difficult to guard people," said Michael half to himself. "I hope some day," Wentworth went on shyly, colouring under his tan, "your turn may come, that you may meet the right woman, and feel as I do now. It will be a revelation to you. I am afraid it may seem exaggerated in a person like myself, who am essentially "Indeed!" "No, Michael, believe me, it is something far greater. It is living not only for self, but as for her sake. To take trouble to win the smile of one we love, to gladly forego one's momentary pleasures, one's convenience, in order to serve her. That is the best reward of life." Michael's eyes filled with tears. He felt a hundred years older than Wentworth at that moment. A tender pained compassion welled up within him. And with it came a new protective comprehension of the man beside him who had cherished him from his childhood onwards. He put out his hand and gripped Wentworth's. "God bless you, Wenty," he said. And for a moment they who were so far apart seemed very near together. |