—Emerson. The following afternoon saw Magdalen and Fay driving together to Lostford, to consult the Bishop as to what steps it would be advisable to take in the matter of Michael's release. Magdalen felt it would be well-nigh impossible to go direct to Wentworth, even if he had been at Barford. But he had been summoned to London the day before on urgent business. And with Fay even a day's delay might mean a change of mind. It was essential to act at once. But to Magdalen's surprise Fay did not try to draw back. When the carriage came to the door she got into it. She assented to everything, was ready to do anything Magdalen told her. She was like one stunned. She had at last closed with the inevitable. She had found it too strong for her. Did Fay realise how frightfully she had complicated her position by her own folly? She lay back in her corner of the brougham with her eyes shut, pallid, silent. Magdalen held her hand, and spoke encouragingly from time to time. You had to be constantly holding Fay's hand, or kissing her, or taking her in your arms if you were to make her feel that you loved her. The one light austere It was a long drive to Lostford, and to-day it seemed interminable. The lonely chalk road seemed to stretch forever across the down. Now and then a few heavily-matted, fatigued-looking sheep, hustled by able-bodied lambs, got in the way. The postman, horn on shoulder, passed them on his way to Priesthope with the papers. Once a man on a horse cantered past across the grass at some distance. Magdalen recognised Wentworth on Conrad. She saw him turn into the bridle path that led to Priesthope. He had then just returned from London. "He is on his way to see Fay," said Magdalen to herself, "and he is actually in a hurry. How interested he must be in the ardour of his own emotions at this moment. He will have a delightful ride, and he can analyse his feelings of disappointment at not seeing her, on his way home to tea." Magdalen glanced at Fay, but she still lay back with closed eyes. She had not seen that passing figure. Magdalen's mind followed Wentworth. "Does she realise the complications that must almost certainly ensue with Wentworth directly her confession is made? "Will her first step towards a truer life, her first action of reparation estrange him from her?" The Bishop was pacing up and down in the library at Lostford, waiting for Magdalen and Fay, when the "Oh! you two wicked women," he said as he opened the Times. "Why are you late? Why are you late?" They were only five minutes late. His swift eye travelled from column to column. Suddenly his attention was arrested. He became absorbed. Then he laid down the paper, and said below his breath "Thank God." At that moment Magdalen and Fay were announced. For a second it seemed as if the Bishop had forgotten them. Then he recollected and went forward to meet them. He knew that only a matter of supreme urgency could have made Magdalen word her telegram as she had worded it, and when he caught sight of Fay's face he realised that she was in jeopardy. All other preoccupations fell from him instantly. He welcomed them gravely, almost in silence. The sisters sat down close together on a sofa. Fay's trembling hand put up her long black veil, and then sought Magdalen's hand, which was ready for it. There was a short silence. Magdalen looked earnestly at her sister. Fay's face became suddenly convulsed. "Fay is in great trouble," said Magdalen. "She has come to tell you about it. She has suffered very much." "I can see that," said the Bishop. "I wish to confess," said Fay in a smothered voice. "That is a true instinct," said the Bishop. "God puts it into our hearts to confess when we are unhappy so that we may be comforted. When we come to see that we have done less well than we might have done—then we need comfort." Fay looked from him to Magdalen with wide, hardly human eyes, like some tiny trapped animal between two executioners. The Bishop's heart contracted. Poor, poor little thing! "Would you like to see me alone, my child?" he said, seeing a faint trembling like that of a butterfly beginning in her. "All you say to me will be under the seal of confession. It will never pass my lips." It was Magdalen's turn to become pale. "Shall I go?" she said, looking fixedly at her sister. "Yes," said Fay, her eyes on the floor. Magdalen went slowly to the door, feeling her way as if half blind. "Come back," shrieked Fay suddenly. "Magdalen, come back. I shall never say it all, I shall keep back part unless you are there to hold me to it. Come back. Come back." Magdalen returned and sat down. The Bishop watched them both in silence. "I have confessed once, already," said Fay in a low hurried voice, "under the promise of silence. Magdalen promised not to say, and I told her everything, weeks ago. I thought I should feel better then, but it wasn't any good. It only made it worse." "It is often like that," said the Bishop. "We try to do something right but not in the best way, and "Yes." "But there is no rest, no peace till we come to it." "No," whispered Fay. "Never any rest." "That is God's Hand drawing you," said the Bishop, his mind seeming to embrace and support Fay's tottering soul. "There are things He wants done, which He needs us to do for Him, which perhaps only we can do for Him. At first we don't understand that, and we are so ignorant and foolish that we resist the pressure of His Hand. Then we suffer." Fay shivered. "That resistance is what some people call sin. It is unendurable, the only real anguish in the world. You see we are not meant to bear it. And it is no manner of use to resist Him, for God is stronger than we are, and He loves us too much ever to lose heart with us, ever to blame us, ever to leave us to ourselves. He sees we don't understand that He can't do without us, and that we can't do without Him. And at last, when we feel God's need of us, then it becomes possible"—the Bishop paused—"to say the difficult word, to do the difficult deed." Did she understand? Who shall say! Sometimes it seems as if no actual word reaches us that Love would fain say to our unrest and misery. But our troubled hearts are nevertheless conscious by some other channel, some medium more subtle than thought and speech, that Love and Peace have drawn very near to us. It is only reflected dimly through dear human faces that The small tortured face relaxed between the two calm ones. The sunny room was quite still. Fear shrank to a shadow. Suddenly the fire drew itself together with a little encouraging sound. Fay started slightly, looked at it, and began to speak rapidly in a low clear voice. As Magdalen listened she prayed with intensity that Fay might really tell the Bishop the whole story, as she had told it to herself, that stormy night in March, half a life-time ago. The little voice went on and on. It faltered, sank, and then struggled up again. One point after another was reached in safety, was passed. Nothing that Fay had already admitted was left out. Gradually, as Magdalen listened, a faint shame laid hold of her. Her whole life had for the time centred in one passionate overwhelming desire that Fay should make to the Bishop as full a confession as she had made to herself. Now she realised that Fay was saying even more than she had done on that occasion, was excusing herself less, was blaming others less. Fay herself saw no discrepancy between her first and second account of the tragedy. But then she never did see discrepancies. Her mind had shifted a little towards the subject, that was all. This mysterious unconscious shifting of the mind had been hidden from Magdalen, who had felt with anguish that all she had said on that night of the storm had had no effect on Fay's mind. She had never seen till now a vestige of Strong and ardent souls often wonder why an appeal which they know, if made to themselves, would clinch them forever into a regenerating repentance is entirely powerless with a different class of mind. But although an irresistible truth spoken in love will renovate our being, and will fail absolutely to reach the mind of another, nevertheless the weaker, vainer nature will sometimes pick out of the uncomfortable appeal, to which it turns its deaf ear, a few phrases less distressing to its amour propre than the rest. To these it will listen. Fay had retained in her mind Magdalen's vivid description of the love her husband and Michael had borne her. She had often dwelt upon the remembrance that she had been greatly loved. During the miserable weeks when she had virtually made up her mind not to speak, that remembrance had worked within her like leaven, unconsciously softening her towards her husband, drawing her towards compassion on Michael. Now that she did speak again she did not reproach them. She who had blamed them both so bitterly a few short weeks ago blamed them no longer. Nor did she say anything about the culpable silence of the real murderer. That mysterious criminal, that scapegoat who had so far aroused her bitterest animosity had ceased to darken her mind. Fay had passed unconsciously far beyond the limitations of Magdalen's anxious prayer on her behalf. The love of Andrea and Michael, tardily seen, only partially realised, had helped her at last. The Bishop listened and listened, a little bent The faint voice faltered itself out at last. The story was at an end. The Duke was dead and Michael was in prison. "I have kept him there two years," said Fay, and was silent. How she had raged against the cruelty of her husband's dying words. What passionate, vindictive tears she had shed at the remembrance of them. Now, unconsciously, she adopted them herself. She had ceased to resist them, and the sting had gone clean out of them. "Two years," said the Bishop. "Two years. Fast bound in misery and iron. You in misery and he only in iron. You two poor children." His strong face worked, and for a moment he shaded it with his hand. Then he looked keenly at Fay. "And you have come to me to ask me to advise you how to set Michael and yourself free?" "Yes," whispered Fay. "It was time to come." There was a short silence. "And you understand, my dear, dear child, that you can only rescue Michael by taking heavy blame upon yourself, blame first of all for having a clandestine meeting with him, and then blame for letting him sacrifice himself for your good name, and lastly blame for keeping an innocent man in prison so long." Fay shook like a leaf. The Bishop took her lifeless hands in his, and held them. He made her meet his eyes. Stern, tender, unflinching eyes they were, with a glint of tears in them. "You are willing to bear the cross, and endure the shame?" he said. Two large tears gathered in Fay's wide eyes, and rolled down her bloodless cheeks. You could not look at her, and think that the poor thing was willing to endure anything, capable of enduring anything. The Bishop looked at her, through her. "Or would you rather go home and wait in misery a little longer, and keep him in his cell a little longer: another week—another month—another year! You know best how much longer you can wait." Silence. "And Michael can wait, too." "Michael must come out," said Fay, with a sob. "He was always good to me." "Thank God," said the Bishop, and he rose abruptly and went to the window. Magdalen and Fay did not move. They leaned a little closer together. Fay's timid eyes sought her sister's like those of a child which has repeated its lesson, and looks to its teacher to see if it has done well. Magdalen kissed her on the eyes. "I have said everything, haven't I?" "Everything." "I wish I was dead." Magdalen had no voice to answer with. The Bishop came back, and sat down opposite them. "Fay," he said, "as long as you live you will be The Bishop spoke slowly. The two women looked at him with dilated eyes. "Is Michael dead?" said Magdalen. "No. Michael is, I believe, well. The murderer of the Marchese di Maltagliala has confessed. It is in to-day's papers. The Marchese was murdered by his wife. It was quite sudden and unpremeditated, the work of an instant of terror. She has made a full confession on her deathbed. It exonerates Michael entirely. She implores his forgiveness for her long silence." The Bishop's last words reached Fay from a great distance. The room with its many books, and the tall mullioned window with the bare elm branches across it, were all turning gently together in a spreading dimness. The only thing that remained fixed was Magdalen's shoulder, and even that shook a little. Fay leaned her face against it, and let all the rest go. The window with its tree quivered for a moment across the dark and then flickered out. The consciousness of tender hands and voices lingered a moment longer and then vanished too. |