"Karen," she heard him say, in a constrained and unfamiliar voice, "I love you." If he thought he was still speaking to the same girl whose soft and fragrant lips he had touched a moment before, he was mistaken. He spoke too late. The girl had vanished with her girlhood. And now it was with a very different sort of being he had to do—with a woman whose mind had quickened under shock; whose latent emotions had been made conscious; whose spirit, awakened by a crisis, was already armoured and in arms. Aroused, alert, every instinct awake, proud of a new and radiant knowledge, new motives germinated, new impulses possessed her; a new and delicious wisdom thrilled her. She was ready, and she realized it. "Karen?" She heard him perfectly. Deep within her something was laughing. There was no hurry. She knew it. "Karen?" he said, very humbly. Conscious of the change within herself, still a little surprised and excited by it, and by a vaguely exquisite "Karen?" he ventured, rather anxiously. Instantly she lost a large portion of her fear of him. Oh! but she had a long, long reckoning to settle yet with him. She cast a swift glance backward, but already her girlhood was gone—gone with its simplicity, its quaint perplexities, its dear ignorance, its pathos, its helplessness before experience, its naÏvetÉ, its faith. It had gone, slipped away, exhaled in a deep, unconscious sigh. And suddenly she flushed hotly, remembering his lips. Truly, truly there was a long reckoning still to come.... But there seemed to be no hurry. Still leaning against the tree, she fumbled for her handkerchief, touched her eyes with it leisurely, then, still turning her back to him, she lifted her hands to her hair. For a first campaign she was doing very well. Her thick, burnished hair was not in any desperate disorder, but she touched it here and there, patted, tucked, caressed it with light, swift fingers, delicately precise as the exploring antennÆ of a butterfly. The expression of her face checked him; her eyes were still starry from tears. The dewy loveliness of them, the soft shyness born of knowledge, the new charm of her left him silent and surprised. He had supposed that she was rather low in her mind. Also he became aware that something about her familiar to him had gone, that he was confronted by something in her hitherto unsuspected and undetected—something subtly experienced and unexpectedly mature. But that a new intelligence, made radiant by the consciousness of power, had suddenly developed and enveloped this young girl, and was now confronting him he did not comprehend at first. And yet, in her attitude, in the poise of the small head, in the slight laugh parting her lips, in every line of her supple figure, every contour, every movement, he was aware of a surety, a self-confidence, a sort of serene authority utterly unfamiliar to him in her personality. Gone was the wistfulness, the simplicity, the indecision of immaturity, the almost primitive candour that knows no art. Here was complexity looking out "Karen—dear?" he said unsteadily, "have you nothing to say to me?" There was laughter and curiosity in her eyes, and a hint of mockery. "Yes," she said, "I have a great deal to say to you. In the first place we must not be silly any more——" "Silly!" She seemed surprised at his emphatic interruption. "Yes, silly," she repeated serenely; "foolish, inconsequential. I admit I made a goose of myself, but that is no excuse for you to do it, too. You are older and more experienced and so much wiser——" "Karen!" "Yes?" she said innocently. "What has happened to you?" he asked, disturbed and bewildered. She opened her eyes at that: "Nothing has happened, has it? Is my gown torn?"—bending over to survey her skirt and waist—"Oh, I forgot that the famous robbery occurred without violence——" He reddened: "I don't understand you, Karen. Why do you fence this way with me? Why do you speak this way to me? What has suddenly changed you—totally altered you—altered your attitude toward me, your point of view, your disposition—your very character apparently——" "My character?" she repeated with a gay little "No," he said, troubled, "that couldn't change so suddenly. But I never before saw this side of your character. I didn't know it existed—never supposed—dreamed——" "Speaking of dreams," she interrupted with calm irrelevance, "I never told you that I finally did cross that frontier. Shall I tell you about it while we are walking back?" "If you choose," he said, almost sullenly. "Don't you care to hear about my dream? As I made a pillow of you during the process, I really think you are entitled to hear about it—" She broke off with a quick, involuntary laugh: "Why do you look hurt, Kervyn?" At that he became serious to the verge of gloom. "Come," she said sweetly, slipping her hand through his arm, "I want to tell you how I crossed that wonderful frontier——" "I told you," he said gravely, "that I love you. Am I not entitled to an answer?" "Entitled, Kervyn? I don't know to how many things you are en-titled. All I know is that you are titled—several times—aren't you?" He reddened and bit his lip. "Because," she went on gaily, "you served your time in the Guides. That is a very natural deduction, isn't it?" He said nothing; he was very seriously upset. His stern mouth and darkened face betrayed it. And deep After they had walked through the forest for a while in silence, she halted and withdrew her arm. "You know," she said, "we are not nearly well enough acquainted for you to be moody and unamiable." "I did not mean to be either," he said. "What is it that has come between us, Karen?" "Why, nothing I hope," she said fervently. "I hope so, too.... You have been different since—" He hesitated, and she turned her head carelessly and looked back at the little brook they had crossed. When her blush had cooled she resumed her leisurely walk and glanced up at him inquiringly: "Since when have you thought me different?" "Since we—kissed——" "Please, Kervyn! Not we. I think it was you who performed that very childish rite." "Is that the way you regarded it?" "Didn't you?" "No." "You didn't take it seriously!" she exclaimed with an enchanting laugh. "Did you really? I'm so dreadfully sorry!" The dark flush on his face frightened her. It was her first campaign and she was easily alarmed. But she was wise enough to say nothing. "Yes," he said with an effort, "I did take it very seriously. And I took you seriously, too. I don't understand your new attitude toward me—toward life "Lightness? You saw plenty in me. I was not very difficult, was I?—on the train? Not very reticent about my views concerning friendship and my fears concerning—love. Why should you be surprised at the frivolity of such a girl? It has taken so many years for me to learn to laugh. Nineteen, I think. Won't you let me laugh a little, now that I know how?" "Have I any influence at all with you?" he asked. "I thought I had." "I thought so, too," she mused, innocently. "What has happened to destroy it?" "Why, nothing, Kervyn!" opening her eyes. "Does any of my influence with you remain?" "Loads of it. Oceans! Bushels!" "Do you care for me?" "Of course! The silly question." "Seriously?" "Yes, but I don't wish to weep because I care for you." "Could you learn to love me?" "Learn? I don't know," she mused aloud, apparently much interested in the novelty of the suggestion. "I learn some things easily; mathematics I never could learn. Why are you scowling, Kervyn?" "Could you ever love me?" he persisted, doggedly. "I don't know. Do you desire to pay your court to me?" "I—yes——" "Can't you be serious, Karen!" "Indeed I can. You ought to know it, too. I was serious enough over you, once. I followed you about so faithfully and persistently that even when you took a nap I did it too——" "Karen, do you love me?" "I don't know." "Will you try?" "I'm always willing to try anything—once." "Then suppose you try marrying me, once!" he said, bluntly. "But oughtn't a girl to be in love before she tries that? Besides, before I am quite free to converse with you on that subject I must converse with someone else." "What!" "Had you forgotten?" "Do you mean the——" "Yes," she said hastily—"you do remember. That is a prior engagement." "Engagement!" "An engagement to converse on the subject of engagements. I told you about it—in the days of my communicative innocence." He was patient because he had to be. "After you have made your answer clear to him, may I ask you again?" "Ask me what?" "Wouldn't that permission depend upon what answer I may give him?" "Good Heavens!" he exclaimed, "is there any doubt about your answer to him?" She lifted her eyebrows: "You are entirely too confident. Must I first ask your permission to fulfill my obligations and then accomplish them in a manner that suits your views? It sounds a little like dictation, Kervyn." He walked beside her, cogitating in gloom and silence. Was this the girl he had known? Was this the same ungrateful and capricious creature upon whom he had bestowed his protection, his personal interest, his anxious thoughts? That he had fallen in love with her had surprised him, but it did not apparently surprise her. Had she instinctively foreseen what was going to happen to him? Had she deliberately watched the process with wise and feminine curiosity, coolly keeping her own skirts clear? And the more he cogitated, the deeper and more complex appeared to him her intuitive and merciless knowledge of man. Never had he beheld such lightning change in a woman. It couldn't be a change; all this calm self-possession, all the cool badinage, all this gaiety, this laughing malice, this serene capacity for appraising man and his motives must have existed in her—hidden, not latent; concealed, not embryotic! He was illogical and perfectly masculine. She was only a young girl, awakened, and making her first campaign. |