Miss Garnet said she ought to rejoin her friends, and John started with her. On their way the dyspeptic stopped them affectionately to offer Barbara a banana, and ask if she and the gentleman were not cousins. Miss Garnet said no, and John enjoyed that way she had of smiling sweetly with her eyes alone. But she smiled just as prettily with her lips also when the woman asked him if he was perfectly sure he hadn't relations in Arkansas named Pumpkinseed—he had such a strong Pumpkinseed look. The questioner tried to urge the banana upon him, assuring him that it was the last of three, which, she said, she wouldn't have bought if she hadn't been so lonesome. Barbara sat down with her, to John's disgust, a feeling which was not diminished when he passed on to her Northern friends, and Mr. Fair tried very gently to draw him out on the Negro question! When he saw Mrs. Fair glancing about for the porter he sprang to find and send him, but lingered, himself, long among the mirrors to wash and brush up and adjust his necktie. The cars stopping, he went to the front platform, where the dyspeptic, who was leaving the train, turned to thank him "for all his kindness" with such genuine gratitude that in the haste he quite lost his tongue, and for his only response pushed her anxiously off the steps. He still knew enough, however, to reflect that this probably left Miss Garnet alone, and promptly going in he found her—sitting with the Fairs. Because she was perishing to have Mr. March again begin where he had left off, she conversed with the Fairs longer than ever and created half a dozen delays out of pure nothings. So that when she and John were once more alone together he talked hither and yon for a short while before he asked her where the poems were. Nevertheless she was extremely pleasant. Their fellow-passenger just gone, she said, had praised him without stint, and had quoted him as having said to her, "It isn't always right to do what we have the right to do." "O pshaw!" warmly exclaimed John, started as if she had touched an inflamed nerve, and reddened, remembering how well Miss Garnet might know what that nerve was, and why it was so sore. "I wish I knew how to be sen-ten-tious," said Barbara, obliviously. "It was she led up to it." He laughed. "She said it better, herself, afterward!" "How did she say it?" "She? O she said—she said her pastor said it—that nothing's quite right until it's noble." "Well, don't you believe that principle?" "I don't know! That's what I've asked myself twenty times to-day." "Why to-day?" asked Miss Garnet, with eyes downcast, as though she could give the right answer herself. "O"—he smiled—"something set me to thinking about it. But, now, Miss Garnet, is it true? Isn't it sometimes allowable, and sometimes even necessary—absolutely, morally necessary—for a fellow to do what may look anything but noble?" He got no reply. "O of course I know it's the spirit of an act that counts, and not its look; but—here now, for example,"—John dropped his voice confidentially—"is a fellow in love with a young lady, and——Do I speak loud enough?" "Yes, go on." He did so for some time. By and by: "Ah! yes, Mr. March, but remember you're only supposing a case." "O, but I'm not only supposing it; it's actual fact. I knew it. And, as I say, whatever that feeling for her was, it became the ruling passion of his life. When circumstances—a change of conditions—of relations—made it simply wrong for him to cherish it any more it wasn't one-fourth or one-tenth so much the unrighteousness as the ignobility of the thing that tortured him and tortured him, until one day what does he up and do but turn over a new leaf. Do I speak too low?" "No, go on, Mr. March." "Well, for about twenty-four hours he thought he had done something noble. Then he found that was just what it wasn't. It never is; else turning over new leaves would be easy! He didn't get his new leaf turned over. He tried; he tried his best." "That's all God asks," murmured Barbara. "What?" "Nothing. Please don't stop. How'd it turn out?" "O bad! He put himself out of sight and reach and went on trying, till one day—one night—without intention or expectation, he found her when, by the baseness—no, I won't say that, but—yes, I will!—by the baseness of another, she was all at once the fit object of all the pity and the sort of love that belongs with pity, which any heart can give." "And he gave them!" "Yes, he gave them. But the old feeling—whatever it was——" John hesitated. "Go on. Please don't stop." "The—the old feeling—went out—right there—like a candle in the wind. No, not that way, quite, but like a lamp drinking the last of its oil. Where he lodged that night——" "Yes——" "—He heard a clock strike every hour; and at the break of day that—feeling—whatever it was—with the only real good excuse to live it ever had—was dead." "And that wasn't true love? Don't you believe it was?" "Do you, Miss Barbara Garnet? Could true love lie down and give up the ghost at such a time and on such a pretext as that? Could it? Could it?" "I think—O—I think it—you'll forgive me if——" "Forgive! Why, how can you offend me? You don't imagine——" "O no! I forgot. Well I think the love was true in degree; not the very truest. It was only first love; but it was the first love of a true heart." "To be followed by a later and truer love, you think?" "You shouldn't—O I don't know, Mr. March. What do you think?" "Never! That's what I think. He may find refuge in friendship. I believe such a soul best fitted for that deep, pure friendship so much talked of and so rarely realized between man and woman. Such a heart naturally seeks it. Not with a mere hunger for comfort——" "O no." "—But because it has that to give which it cannot offer in love, yet which is good only when given; worthless to one, priceless to two. Sometimes I think it's finer than love, for it makes no demands, no promises, no compacts, no professions——" "Did you ever have such a friendship?" "No, indeed! If I had—oh pshaw! I never was or shall be fit for it. But I just tell you, Miss Garnet, that in such a case as we've spoken of, the need of such a heart for such a friendship can't be reckoned!" He smiled sturdily, and she smiled also, but let compassion speak in her eyes before she reverently withdrew them. He, too, was still. They were approaching a large river. The porter, growing fond of them, came, saying: "Here where we crosses into Yankeedom. Fine view fum de rear platfawm—sun jes' a-sett'n'." They went there—the Fairs preferred to sit still—and with the eddies of an almost wintry air ruffling them and John's arm lying along the rail under the window behind them, so as to clasp her instantly if she should lurch, they watched the slender bridge lengthen away and the cold river widen under it between them and Dixie. Their silence confessed their common emotion. John felt a condescending expansion and did not withdraw his arm even after the bridge was passed until he thought Miss Garnet was about to glance around at it, which she had no idea of doing. "I declare, Miss Garnet, I—I wish——" She turned her eyes to his handsome face lifted with venturesome diffidence and frowning against the blustering wind. "I'm afraid "—he gayly shook his head—"you won't like what I say if you don't take it just as I mean it." He put his hand over the iron-work again, but she was still looking into his face, and he thought she didn't know it. "It wouldn't be fair to take it as you don't mean it," she said. "What is it?" "Why, ha-ha—I—I wish I were your brother!—ha-ha! Seriously, I don't believe you can imagine how much a lone fellow—boy or man—can long and pine for a sister. If I'd had a sister, a younger sister—no boy ever pined for an older sister—I believe I'd have made a better man. When I was a small boy——" Barbara glanced at his breadth and stature with a slow smile. He laughed. "O, that was away back yonder before you can remember." "It certainly must have been," she replied, "and yet——" "And yet—" he echoed, enjoying his largeness. "I thought all the pre-his-tor-ic things were big. But what was it you used to do? I know; you used to cry for a sister, didn't you?" "Yes. Why, how'd you guess that?" "I can't say, unless it was because I used to cry for a little brother." "And why a little one?" he asked. "I was young and didn't know any better." "But later on, you——" "I wanted the largest size." "D'd you ever cry for a brother of the largest size?" "Why, yes; I nearly cry for one yet, sometimes, when somebody makes me mad." "Miss Garnet, I'm your candidate!" "No, Mr. March. If you were elected you'd see your mistake and resign in a week, and I couldn't endure the mor-ti-fi-ca-tion." John colored. He thought she was hinting at fickleness; but she gave him a smile which said so plainly, "The fault would be mine," that he was more than comfortable again—on the surface of his feelings, I mean. And so with Barbara. The train had begun a down-grade and was going faster and faster. As she stood sweetly contemplating the sunset sky and sinking hills, fearing to move lest that arm behind her should be withdrawn and yet vigilant to give it no cause to come nearer, an unvoiced cry kept falling back into her heart—"Tell him!—For your misguided father's sake! Now!—Now!—Stop this prattle about friendship, love, and truth, and tell him his danger!" But in reality she had not, and was not to have, the chance. The young land-owner stood beside her staring at nothing and trying to bite his mustache. He came to himself with a start. "Miss Garnet——" As she turned the sky's blush lighted her face. "That case we were speaking of inside, you know——" "Yes, sir." "Well, as I said, I knew that case myself. But, my goodness, Miss Garnet, you won't infer that I was alluding in any way to—to any experience of my own, will you?" She made no reply. "Law! Miss Garnet, you don't think I'd offer anybody a friendship pulled out of a slough of despond, do you?" Barbara looked at him in trembling exaltation. "Mr. March, I know what has happened!" He winced, but kept his guard. "Do you mean you know how it is I am on this train?" "Yes, I know it all." "O my soul! Have I betrayed it?" "No, sir; the train conductor—I led him on—told us all about it before we were twenty miles from Suez." "I ought to have guessed you'd find it out," said John, in a tone of self-rebuke. "Yes," she replied, driving back her tears with a quiet smile, "I think you ought." "Why—why, I—I—I'm overwhelmed. Gracious me! I owe you an humble apology, Miss Garnet. Yes, I do. I've thrust a confidence on you without your permission. I—I beg your pardon! I didn't mean to, I declare I didn't, Miss Garnet." "It's safe." "I know it. I'm surer of that than if you were anyone else I've ever known in my life, Miss Garnet." "It shall be as if I had never heard it." "O no! I don't see how it can. In fact—well—I don't see why it should—unless you wish it so. Of course, in that case——" "That's not a con-tin-gen-cy," said Barbara, and for more than a minute they listened to the clangorous racket of the rails. Then John asked her if it did not have a quality in it almost like music and she brightened up at him as she nodded. He made a gesture toward the receding land, bent to her in the uproar and cried, "It scarcely seems a moment since those hills were full of spring color, and now they're blue in the distance!" She looked at them tenderly and nodded again. "At any rate," he cried, holding his hat on and bending lower, "we have Dixie for our common mother." His manner was patriotic. She glanced up to him—the distance was trivial—beaming with sisterly confidence, and just then the train lurched, and—he caught her. "H-I conscience! wa'n't it lucky I happened to have my arm back there just at that moment?" Barbara did not say. She stood with her back against the car, gazing at the track, her small feet braced forward with new caution, but she saw March lapse into reverie and heave another sigh. However, she observed his mind return and rightly divined he was thinking her silence a trifle ungracious; so she lifted her hand toward a white cloud that rose above the vanished hills and river, saying: "Our common mother waves us farewell." "Yes," he cried with grateful pleasure. Seeing her draw her wrap closer he added, "You're cold?" And it was true, although she shook her head. He bent again to explain. "It'll be warmer when we leave this valley. You see, here——" "Yes," she nodded so intelligently that he did not finish. Miss Garnet, however, was thinking of her chaperone and dubiously glanced back at the door. Then she braced her feet afresh. They were extremely pretty. He smiled at them. "You needn't plant yourself so firmly," he said, "I'm not going to let you fall off." O dear! That reversed everything. She had decided to stay; now she couldn't. Once more the Northern pair received them with placid interest. Mr. Fair presently asked a question which John had waited for all day, and it was dark night without and lamplight within, and they were drawing near a large city, before the young man, in reply, had more than half told the stout plans and hopes of this expedition of his after capital and colonists. Mrs. Fair showed a most lively approval. "And must you leave us here?" Barbara had not noticed till now how handsome she was. Neither had John. "Yes, ma'am. But I shan't waste a day here if things don't show up right. I shall push right on to New York." Barbara hoped Mr. Fair's pleasantness of face meant an approbation as complete as his wife's, and, to hide her own, meditatively observed that this journey would be known in history as March's Raid. John laughed and thanked her for not showing the fears of Captains Champion and Shotwell that he would "go in like a lion and come out like a lamb." They hurried to the next section and peered out into the night with suppressed but eager exclamations. Long lines of suburban street-lamps were swinging by. Banks of coke-furnaces were blazing like necklaces of fire. Foundries and machine-shops glowed and were gone; and, far away, close by, and far away again, beautifully colored flames waved from the unseen chimneys of chemical works. "We've neither of us ever seen a great city," Miss Garnet explained when she rejoined her protectors. John had been intercepted by the porter with his brush, and Barbara, though still conversing, could hear what the negro was saying. "I lef' you to de las', Cap. Seem like you 'ten'in' so close to business an' same time enjoyin' yo'seff so well, I hated to 'sturb—thank you, seh!" The train came slowly to a stand. "O no, seh, dis ain't de depot. Depot three miles fu'theh yit, seh. We'll go on ag'in in a minute. Obacoat, seh? Dis yo' ambreel?" John bade his friends good-by. "And now, Miss Garnet"—he retained her hand a moment—"don't you go off and forget—Dixie." She said no, and as he let go her hand she let him see deeper into her eyes than ever before. A step or two away he looked back with a fraternal smile, but she was talking to Mrs. Fair as eagerly as if he had been gone three days. The train stood so long that he went forward to ask what the delay signified and saw the four commercial travelers walking away with their hand-bags. The porter was busy about the door. "Big smash-up of freight-cyars in de yard; yass, seh. No seh, cayn't 'zac'ly tell jis how long we be kep' here, but 'f you dislikes to wait, Cap, you needn'. You kin teck a street-cyar here what'll lan' you right down 'mongs' de hotels an' things; yass, seh. See what; de wreck? No, seh, it's up in de yard whah dey don't 'llow you to pa-ass." Out in the darkness beside the train March stood a moment. He could see Miss Garnet very plainly at her bright window and was wondering how she and her friends, but especially she, would take it if he should go back and help them while away this tiresome detention. If she had answered that last smile of his, or if she were showing, now, any tendency at all to look out the window, he might have returned; but no, howdy after farewell lacked dignity. The street-car came along just then and Barbara saw him get into it. |