When Mary was visiting the graves next day, her grief was distracted by the following little occurrence. It was Saturday, and the eve of one of the few Sundays in the year when service was held in the chapel. On such occasions it was customary to decorate the graves. As the farm to the right of Krogskogen had once formed part of that estate, its owners had their burial-place here. The peasant's wife had come with flowers to deck a new grave, and the old Lapland dog was with her. Mary's little poodle at once rushed at him fearlessly, and to the woman's and Mary's surprise the old dog, after cautious and minute inspection, made friends with the giddy youngster. Though he as a rule could not bear puppies, he quite fell in love with this one. He allowed his ears to be pulled and his legs to be bitten; he even laid himself down and pretended to be vanquished. This delighted Mary so much that she accompanied the woman part of the way home, She thought as she walked home with her excited dog: "Am I beginning to resemble Mother? Has there always been in me something of her which until now has not had room to develop; something of her simple nature?" This day brought two surprises. The first was a letter from Uncle Klaus. He addressed her as: "My honoured and dear god-daughter, Miss Mary Krog." She had had no idea that she was his god-daughter; her father had never told her, probably did not know it himself. Uncle Klaus wrote: "There are feelings which are too strong for words, especially for written words. I am no letter-writer; but I take the liberty of intimating to you in this manner, since I was unable to do it by word of mouth, that on the day when your father, my best friend, and Mrs. Dawes, your revered foster-mother, died, and you were left alone, I made you, my dear god-daughter, my heiress. "My fortune is not nearly so large as is generally supposed; I have had great losses of "Mrs. Dawes's will has been in my hands for many years, and I have had charge of her money. I opened the will yesterday. She has left everything to you. This means about 60,000 kroner. But the same holds good of this money as of your father's; it is for the moment yielding almost no interest. "Your godfather, "Klaus Krog." Mary answered at once: "My dear Godfather,—Your letter has touched me deeply. I thank you with all my heart. "But I dare not accept your generous gift. "JÖrgen is your adopted son, and on no account will I stand in his way. "You must not be angry with me for this. I cannot possibly act differently. "In the matter of Mrs. Dawes's will, I shall come to a decision ere long, and shall then write to you again. "Your grateful "Mary Krog." Whilst she was despatching this letter she It was a little time before Miss RÖy came in. She had been taking off her wraps. It was a cold day. The delay increased Mary's excitement, with the result that she trembled and turned pale as the tall, strong woman with the kind eyes entered the room. She saw the impression made by this on the kind eyes, which now poured forth all their compassion upon her. As if they had known each other for many years, Mary went up to her visitor, laid her head on her shoulder, and wept. Margrete RÖy pressed the unhappy girl affectionately to her breast. After they had seated themselves, she told her errand, which was to inquire when Mary intended to go abroad. Mary asked in surprise: "Have I spoken to any one about that?" Miss RÖy said that she had heard it from the nurse. "Oh!" said Mary, "I have no idea what I said in the state I was in at that time. I have certainly given the matter no thought since." "Then you are not going abroad?" Mary sat silent for a moment. "All I can say is that I don't know. I have not yet made any plans." "Yes, and I wanted to know if I could be of any use to you. I should be happy to arrange my journey so that we could travel together." "Where are you going?" "I am going abroad to study—Paris first. The nurse told me it was there you meant to go," said Margrete, beginning to feel very awkward. Her wish had been to help Mary, but it seemed to her now that she was intruding. "I appreciate your kindness," said Mary. "It is possible that I mentioned Paris. I don't remember. The truth is that I have come to no decision." "Please forgive me, then. The whole has been a misunderstanding," said Miss RÖy, rising. Mary felt that she must not let her go, but her strength seemed to fail her. It was not until Margrete had reached the door that she managed to say: "I am coming to speak to you one day soon, Miss RÖy." She said it in a low voice, without looking up. "I am not well enough to do it to-day," she added. "I can see that. It is only what I expected; so I brought something with me for you—if you will only take it. It is the most invigorating tonic I know." "You will be very welcome." "Perhaps," said Mary, blushing, "you would not mind coming to me?" "To your house in the market-place?" asked Miss RÖy. "Yes, to our house in the market-place. Though I ought no longer to say 'our' house!" The tears came again. "You have only to let me know, and I shall come at once." A week later Mary went to town—in the wildest November storm, the worst they had had in these parts. The fjords were not yet frozen over, so the steamer managed to reach town, but had to remain there. Margrete RÖy was much astonished at being summoned on such a day. It was to a warm, comfortable house she came, not the deserted one with the drawn down blinds which she was accustomed to see. She was conducted up an old-fashioned broad stair; the whole interior was in the style of the old town-houses of the beginning of last century. "I feel that you respect another's grief. I am also certain that you betray no secrets." "I do not." A little time passed before Mary said: "Who is JÖrgen Thiis?" "Who is he——?" "I have several reasons for believing that you can tell me." "You must first allow me to put a question. Are you not engaged to JÖrgen Thiis?" "No." "People say that you are." Mary remained silent. "You have perhaps been engaged to him?" "Yes." "But," said Margrete quickly and joyously, "you have broken off the engagement?" "Many will rejoice to hear it; for JÖrgen Thiis is not worthy of you." Mary showed no signs of surprise. "You know something?" she asked. "Doctors, Miss Krog, know more than they may tell." "Yet I do believe that he loved me," said Mary, to excuse herself. "We all saw that," replied Margrete. "He undoubtedly loved you better than he had ever loved before. Nor was it surprising," she added. "But when I lived in Christiania I knew a sweet young girl who at that time was the one love of his life! She allowed herself to be deeply moved by this, and as they could not marry, she gave herself to him." "What did she do?" asked Mary, startled. Had she understood aright? The storm was howling so loudly outside that it was difficult to hear. Margrete repeated distinctly and impressively: "She was a warm-hearted girl, who believed that she was doing right, as she was his one and only love." "They could not marry?" "It was not possible. So she gave herself to him without marriage." "Do not be so startled, Miss Krog. It is nothing very uncommon." This information lowered Mary considerably in her own estimation. She slowly seated herself again. "You cannot have had any experience of this sort of thing, Miss Krog?" Mary shook her head. "In which case it surprises me that you were able to escape from JÖrgen Thiis in time; he has had plenty." Mary made no reply. "We expected, especially after your father and Mrs. Dawes both became invalids, that you would have been married before autumn." "We intended to be, but it proved impossible." Margrete could not fathom what lay beneath this enigmatic answer; but she said, with a searching glance: "This, doubtless, added very considerably to his ardour?" Mary trembled inwardly, but controlled herself. "You seem to know him?" she said. Margrete reflected for a moment, then answered: "Yes. I am older than you, older than Mary turned pale, rose, and walked to the window. The wind was lashing the rain against the panes with ever-increasing force. She remained for a few moments gazing out into the storm, then came and stood in front of Margrete, agitated, restless. "Will you promise me never to tell any one what we have spoken about to-day—under any circumstances whatever?" Margrete looked at her in surprise. "You wish me to tell no one that you have asked me about JÖrgen Thiis?" "It is my express desire that no one should know it." "Do you mean any one in particular?" Mary looked at her. "Any one in particular?" She did not understand. Margrete rose. "A man came to this town on purpose to tell you that JÖrgen Thiis was not worthy of you. He came too late; but I think he deserves to know that you have discovered for yourself what JÖrgen Thiis is." Mary answered, eagerly: "Tell him. By all "That I shall do, gladly. Thank you for the message. You know what you are to my brother." Mary looked away. She struggled with herself a moment, then said: "I am one of the unhappy people who cannot understand their own lives—cannot understand what has happened. I can find no clue to it. But something tells me that your brother has had his share in it." She evidently wished to say more, but could not. Instead, she returned to the window and remained standing there again. The storm without called into the room with its thousand-voiced wrath. It was calling her. "What a terrible storm!" said Margrete, raising her voice. "I am rejoicing at the thought of going out into it," said Mary, turning round with sparkling eyes. "You are never going out in this weather!" exclaimed Margrete. "I mean to walk home," answered Mary. Mary came forward and placed herself in front of Margrete, as if she were about to say something wild and dreadful. She stopped short, but what she had not said rushed into her eyes, into her whole face, to her heart. She flung up her arms and with a loud groan threw herself back on her mother's sofa, and covered her face with her hands. Margrete knelt down beside her. Mary allowed her friend to put her arms round her and draw her to her like a tired, suffering child. And she began to cry, as a child cries, touchingly and helplessly; her head sank on to Margrete's shoulder. But only for a moment; then she sat up with a sudden start. For Margrete had whispered into her ear: "There is something the matter with you. Speak to me." Not a word came in answer. Margrete dared not say more. She rose; she felt that it was time to go. Nor did Mary do anything to retain her. She too had risen to her feet. They bade each other good-bye. But Margrete could not help saying, as she left the room: "Do you really mean to walk——?" Mary gave a nod which implied: "Enough has been said! That is my affair!" The lamps were lit in the streets when Mary left the house. It was with difficulty she could keep her feet in the gusts that blew from the south-west, strengthened by compression between the houses. She had on a waterproof cloak and hood, firmly secured, and long waterproof boots. She walked as fast as she could. One thought alone remained to her after the conversation with Margrete RÖy. But it united with the wind and the rain in driving her, lashing her on—the thought of Margrete's horrified eyes and pale face when she said: "There is something the matter with you; speak to me!" Good God! Margrete understood. They would all look at her like this when they heard. Thus terribly had she disappointed and wounded those who had believed in her. She felt as if she had them all behind her, as if it were from them she was fleeing—the flock of crows! She flew on, and had reached the outskirts of the town before she knew where she was. Here, beyond the last lamp, it was pitch dark; she had to wait a little before she could see her way. But what a pace she set off at then! The gale was coming half from behind, half from the side. But some one had heard her pacing thus night after night, and the question was asked after all. Things should be managed better this time! The weakness to which Mary had so unexpectedly given way in Margrete's presence was quite gone. Now she had the strength to carry out her purpose. The little occurrence had strengthened her. She knew now that she had courage, and walked on quickly. She thought it all out again as she pressed on. She would not save herself by allowing her child to be killed, nor would she send it away to strangers and thus disown it; she could not live without self-respect. If a suitor were to come—and doubtless as many would come now as in days past—should she begin by confessing? Or should she maintain a dishonourable silence? There was only one thing she could do with honour—die with her child. She felt incapable of anything else. But no one must have any suspicions. She must die of an illness; therefore an illness must be ensured that would end in death. This much she owed to herself; for she was as certain to-day as on the evening when she went into JÖrgen's room that her action was not one for which she deserved to be disgraced. It had been a terrible mistake, that was certain; but the fault did not lie with her. There had no She was reaching the most exposed part of a headland now, and the struggle which began there unconsciously became to her a struggle to settle this question. It was as if all the powers of nature were trying to wrest her self-respect from her and procure her condemnation. The sea was open here, and from miles out the waves came rolling in, gathering force as they came. When they struck the cliff they leaped yards into the air. The largest of them lashed her with their highest jets. "Take that! Take that!" And the gale put forth all its strength in its endeavour to force her away from the hewn cliff. It seemed, moreover, to be trying, though her skirts were well protected by her cloak, to twist and tear them off her. "Stand naked in your shame, in your shame!" But the raging waves did not frighten her into feeling herself guilty, nor did the gale succeed in She rounded the point, and turned inland towards the low ground between it and the next headland. There had once been a landslip here; the piece of the cliff which had fallen lay as heaps of stones below, and through these the road now passed. Amongst the crumbling blocks by the wayside stood a slender birch, quite alone. Mary remembered it as she came up to it. Had it weathered such a storm uninjured? Yes, it was safe and sound. She paused beside it to recover her breath. It bent so low that every moment she thought: Now it must break! But up it came again as fresh as ever. She herself could not stand still, with such hurricane force was the gale blowing here; but the young birch, which was so tall and had such a spreading top and such a slender, swaying stem—it stood, quite alone. She was thinking about this as she descended towards the level ground, when the gale suddenly The lights from the little farmhouses, the only thing that she saw, proclaimed peace. But she knew that it was not for her. She sped swiftly along the shore, but she was becoming tired now. One sign of this was that imagination began to take the upper hand; the reality disappeared in the semblance—in old mythical conceptions. As she toiled up and outwards to the next point, the sea was no longer sea, but hundreds upon hundreds of gaping sea monsters, roaring with desire. And raging aerial monsters with tremendous wings had promised those below to fling her out to them. With all the strength remaining to her she kept close to the rocky wall; but beneath it here there was a ditch, into which she fell and was wet through. More enemies still are abroad to-night, she thought, as she crawled out. Fortunately this headland was a narrow one; she soon reached the next stretch of level ground. Now there was only one more point to round. It was not to save her life that she was so unwilling to be blown into the sea, but to save her honour! But now she heard through the darkness the bark of the old Lapland dog. It sounded quite near. She had been walking faster than she thought; she was close to his home. There were its lights! The mere thought of meeting a living creature that cared for her moved her. She loved life, and she no longer believed that she was so unfit to live. This familiar voice calling to her through the darkness affected her as the sight of people on shore affects those clinging to a wreck. As she passed the farm, the dog left his sentinel's post and came to be spoken to, wagging his tail and giving friendly little barks. Mary gave his wet coat three farewell pats and hastened on. She soon heard him bark again, but it was another, angrier bark. She involuntarily thought of JÖrgen—and continued to think of him all this last part of the road, which, but for him, would have been sacred to her father. How many hundred times, beginning as a little child, she had walked and cycled with her father here! Now this place too had been spoiled by JÖrgen. Never Involuntarily she looked heavenwards—to see nothing but clouds and thick darkness. She reached the last headland utterly exhausted, and rounded it without thinking at all, without any feeling that it was the last time, but also without fear. Of what was before her now Mary was as certain as of the road beneath her feet, which was leading her through the Krogskogen fields to the landing-stage. It was so dark that her eyes, though by this time accustomed to the darkness, did not distinguish the white walls of the chapel until she was close to the landing-place. Her thoughts rushed to the graves in the churchyard, but deserted them again instantly in order to concentrate themselves on what she was about. She stepped on to the quay without hesitation and walked quickly along it. The gale did not threaten here, the rain no longer lashed her face; both had become subdued and friendly powers from the time she had set foot on Krogskogen soil, with its protecting ridge and islands. In other circumstances she would have felt relief and possibly peace in return to the shelter of her home—now every thought was And now she must undress and go down the steps to become ice-cold—ice-cold! Then dress again and go home to fever, and to its consequences. If the fever did not do what she expected of it, she had what would help. She had found it amongst Mrs. Dawes's stores. The blame would be laid on the fever. But now that the moment had come for her to begin and undress, she shrank and shivered. It was the water, the ice-cold water she was shrinking from. There would likely be ice at the edge here, and she would have to walk over it with her bare feet. No, she would keep on her stockings; she could dry them afterwards, and no one would have any suspicion. But the ice-cold water ... what if she took cramp in it? No, Before falling into this long train of reflections, she had unbuttoned her waterproof. Now, instead of taking off the hood, as was natural, she began, without conscious intention, to unfasten her dress at the neck, where the locket with her mother's portrait hung. Her hands shook as she did it, and her body also began to tremble. She had not thought of the locket for many years, nor was she thinking of it now; the trembling had no connection with it. But the locket became, as it were, involved in the trembling. She must take it off. If only she did not forget it! She would make sure by putting it into her pocket at once. Oh, horror of horrors! what did she hear? Firm steps on the landing stage, coming nearer and nearer. The trembling stopped; instinctively Mary fastened, first the collar of her dress, then But it was straight there the steps came. The handle was seized, the door flew open, and the doorway was filled by a huge figure in a waterproof cloak. The hooded head was considerably higher than the door. An electric lamp threw light straight into Mary's face. She gave a wild scream as she recognised Frans RÖy. Such a feeling of faintness came over her that she was on the point of falling; but she was seized and carried out. It all happened in an instant. She heard the door banged; she was lifted and carried off. She could not say a word, nor did Frans say anything. But before they had left the landing-stage she had come to herself again. Of this Frans was conscious; and presently he heard her say: "This is violence!" No answer. After a determined struggle to free herself, she repeated in a clearer, stronger voice: "This is violence!" No answer. But his free arm was put gently round her. She asked excitedly: "How do you come here?" Now he answered. "My sister told me." His voice embraced her as gently as his arm. But she The words acted like a fetter of iron. She became motionless. "You will place me under restraint?" "I shall, for you have lost control over yourself." Never since she could hear at all had she heard anything so silly as this. But she would not discuss the matter with him. She merely said: "And do you imagine this will be of any use?" "I think so. When you see that we are doing everything in our power for you, you will give in to us, because you are good." After a short silence she said: "I cannot accept help from any one who has not entire respect for me—" and she began to cry. He stopped short, but began again. "When I set off after you this evening, I was in greater misery than I had ever imagined possible. She is going to throw herself into the sea, I thought. Of course I shall go after her. In this storm it means death to us both; but there is no help for that. Nor was that what distressed me. No, it was your unhappiness, He had heard her sob; her arms were round his neck now, almost stifling his words. He let her slip slowly down. But she still held fast with the arm which was round his neck; and when she reached the ground she flung the other round it too, and laid her head upon his breast, sobbing—but with happiness now. He could feel the quick beat of her heart; it was the speed of joy. The housekeeper in town had telephoned to Krogskogen that Miss Krog was walking home, in a worse storm than any one remembered, and had inquired again and again if she had arrived. Nanna and the dog had been out on the steps several times, but the dog had never barked. Now he not only barked, but scampered off down the road. But the dog's joy at seeing Mary again was boundless. He barked, he yelped, he jumped right up to her face; there was no end to his demonstrations. When Frans RÖy spoke to him, he went up to him at once, as to an old friend, but immediately returned to Mary. The little shaggy creature's ardent delight represented to her the joy of her home at seeing her again, saved. His was the greeting of both the dead and the living. This was what Mary felt. And she also felt that his happiness possibly preluded a re-awakening of her When she entered the house, heralded by the dog, who was as wild with joy as ever, the three maids were all in the hall to welcome her, Nanna with them. They stopped short in their exclamations when they saw the enormous figure looming behind her; for in his waterproof cloak and hood Franz RÖy seemed supernaturally tall. But it was only for a moment; then they broke out: "Oh, Miss, to think that you should have been out in such a storm! We have been terribly anxious. The housekeeper in town let us know. But we had no one to send to meet you, for there is a fire in the neighbourhood and all the men have gone off there. Thank God that we have you again, safe!" Mary concealed her emotion by hastening upstairs. Her room was warm, her lamp was lighted. "Is all this affection and care new? Or is it just that I have never noticed it before?" The dog whined outside until she was obliged to let him in. He was so obtrusive in his gratitude that it was with difficulty she managed to change her clothes. When she was doing her hair she remembered The maid remained in the room, arranging it. Mary moved on towards the stairs. There she once more stopped. The dog, who had run down, came rushing up; he was determined not to lose her again. She stroked him gratefully; it was like a first little instalment of that gratitude with which her heart was full to overflowing. "To-morrow—this evening I am too tired—to-morrow I will tell Frans RÖy everything! Every single thing that has happened! Perhaps this will help me to understand it all myself." The dog was standing at the door of the Dutch room. He smelt Frans RÖy there. Mary followed him and opened the door. As she entered Frans exclaimed, as if he had had difficulty in keeping silence so long: "What a beautiful home!" Noticing the dog's continued attentions, he added: "And how much you are thought of in it!" His face lighted up. "You are in uniform!" she exclaimed. "Yes. I was at a wedding when I was sent for." He laughed. The uniform had suggested a thought to Mary. With the dog tugging at her dress, she said, looking brightly up into Frans RÖy's face: "It will not be the first time that a general of engineers has lived at Krogskogen." Printed by Ballantyne & Co. Limited Transcriber's Note: Punctuation has been standardised. Hyphenation and spelling has been retained as it appears in the original publication. Changes have been made as follows: Page 60 I dont like the changed to I don't like the Page 62 from that morning's newpapers changed to from that morning's newspapers Page 112 they had not sat long in the empty, stift changed to they had not sat long in the empty, stiff Page 165 any misunderstanding beween them changed to any misunderstanding between them |