Said Doris: “You are just as I pictured you. May I call you just Anne? How long they prayed! I did not know you would come. I could not think who you were, standing beside his grave so beautiful and tearless. I could not see well for weeping, and the wind was cold, and my head ached. Oh, the wan face! The black clothes—I did not like the black. I wanted to lie down there with him and be covered up. The clay was so cold and wet. Oh, how cold my heart grew! Did you think they prayed long? I was so cold!” “I have never been told how he died,” said Anne. “I entered the library, where he was waiting for me,” Doris replied. “It was near twilight. He sat by the window, looking out. When I came in he turned and his face was pale. The room was cold. The fire had gone out. I never saw him pale before; I was frightened and cried out. He came to re-assure me, and his face was so pale! He looked at me long and anxiously—so anxiously. I did not understand this look, it was so strange. It hurt me because I did not understand it. Now I know it was physical suffering. He went back to the window and sank into his chair. ‘Are you not ill?’ I asked. He answered, ‘A little,’ and added, ‘It will pass.’ But he did not speak at all or touch me, and when I stroked his forehead he leaned suddenly forward, his face in his arms, on the window-sill, and would not answer me. I ran out to tell them he was ill. When the doctor came I was told he was dead. They gave me his letter to send you, and tell you.” “You do not wish,” said Anne, “to read the letter?” Doris did not reply. “It would make you less able to realize that he is—gone,” said Anne, gently. “Yes,” said Doris, “and then it was to you,—not me.” The other’s face was suffused with tender pity. She spoke impulsively, and yet with a timorous boldness, as one who ventures upon hazardous and novel ways:— “Doris, he loved you with all his heart!” “He told you?” “Yes.” “He spoke of you so often, Anne. We shall always be friends.” “Yes, always.” “You are sure he loved me so?” The girl’s mouth tremored at the corners. “He did not tell me often enough.” “He loved you dearly,” said Anne. “Ah, if you knew what sweet comfort you give! You are sure?—quite sure?” “He loved you with all his heart,” repeated Anne. “I will go, Anne. I thank you so much! I think I can weep again, now. For a while, goodbye. Give me both your hands, and kiss me.”
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