I failed in both June and September during the fourth year of my course, which was a mere matter of luck, as I neither applied myself more nor less than in previous years. In the meantime my father had been transferred to Valencia, whither it seemed wise that I should remove to continue my studies. I appeared at Valencia in January for a second examination in general pathology, and failed for the second time. I began to consider giving up my intended profession. I found that I had lost what little liking I had for it. As I had no friends in Valencia, I never left the house; I had nowhere to go. I passed my days stretched out on the roof, or, else, in reading. After debating long what I should do, and realizing fully that there was no one obvious plan to pursue, I determined to finish my course, committing the required subjects mechanically. After adopting this plan, I never failed once. When I came up for graduation, the professors made an effort to put some obstacles in my way, which, however, were not sufficient to detain me. Admitted as a physician, I decided next to study for the doctor's degree at Madrid. My former fellow-students, when they saw that now I was doing nicely, all exclaimed: "How you have changed! Now you pass your examinations." "Passing examinations, you know, is a combination, like a gambling game," I told them. "I have found a combination." |